Title: I Won't Say it!
Pairing: Miguel/Kai
Summary: Kai speaks with Dranzer about his feelings towards a certain blond haired Spaniard. My first song fic. Two-shot.
Disclaimer: I don't own Beyblade, or the song.
Oh, and this is yaoi (maleXmale) so don't like it, don't read it.
NOTE: Song- blah (Kai's point of view) blah (Dranzer's point of view)
Mind talking- 'blah' (Kai) "blah" (Dranzer)
Normal talking- "blah"
Kai stood alone, leaning against a railing on a rooftop, staring at the sunset. He had many things on his mind, but they were mostly focused around a certain blue-eyed blond blader from the Spanish team. He thought he had locked away all of his emotions but now they're back and hitting him full force.
If there's a prize for rotten judgment
I guess I've already won that
No man is worth the aggravation
That's ancient history, been there, done that!
Kai sighed lightly. Lately all of his thoughts were on the blond blader Miguel. He doesn't understand what it is about Miguel. And he doesn't see why he should be worrying so much over it; it's not worth it. There are no deep feelings about Miguel. He's been through this before and he doesn't want it to happen again.
That's what Kai keeps telling himself anyway.
Who'd'ya think you're kiddin'
He's the Earth and heaven to you
Try to keep it hidden
Honey, we can see right through you
Girl, ya can't conceal it
We know how ya feel and
Who you're thinking of
"Admit it Master Kai, you like him more than a friend." Said Dranzer in Kai's mind. She knew that her master was hurting from past relationships, but she doesn't understand how Kai can believe that Miguel would hurt him in anyway. 'No I don't Dranzer. Those emotions are long gone.' Dranzer mentally rolled her eyes. Honestly.
"Master Kai, I'm in your head. I know what you think and feel. All you think about is him. Admit that you love him." But Kai shook his head and continued to stare at the sunset.
No chance, no way
I won't say it, no, no
You swoon, you sigh
why deny it, uh-oh
It's too cliché
I won't say I'm in love
'I can't admit that I love him because I don't!' Kai thought back forcefully. 'Dammit, listen to me Dranzer.' Kai is sure that all he feels is a strong friendship, like he has with the Blitzkrieg Boys.
"But Master. Think about what you feel when he's near you." Kai had to admit; his bit beast had a point on this. Whenever Miguel looked at him, he lost his breath. When Miguel spoke to him, Kai was usually unable to speak back, getting shy and flushed. But when the blond smiled at the phoenix did Kai's knees buckle, did his heartbeat speed up. "Come now Master."
'No, I won't say it.'
I thought my heart had learned its lesson
It feels so good when you start out
My head is screaming get a grip, girl
Unless you're dying to cry your heart out
Oh
Dranzer sighed. "I know you are still hurting from past relationships, but it's time to let go of all that." she said gently and felt Kai nod his head.
Kai has had boyfriends in the past, but he always ended up hurt. Most of the relationships started out fine, but then they went bad. Some of them cheated on him. Some used him, not his body, as he is still a virgin, but because he's rich and as a means to make others jealous. Some were just looking for some fun but when Kai refused to give it did they leave him.
His heart was the one to pay and he stopped having such feelings to protect himself. He wants to believe Dranzer, but another part of him tells him not to, unless he wants to take the risk of getting hurt all over again.
You keep on denying
Who you are and how you're feeling
Baby, we're not buying
Hon, we saw ya hit the ceiling
Face it like a grown-up
When ya gonna own up
That ya got, got, got it bad
Dranzer knew her job. And that is to protect Kai. And part of protecting him is making sure he is happy. She's sure that Miguel would make Kai happy. She has a good feeling about him. She just needs to convince Kai that not everyone is out to hurt him and his heart won't always be broken.
"Please Master. I want to see you happy." She knows that it's going to take some work. Kai's not someone who trusts people easily, although he's beginning to open up to his friends more. She can feel the fondness, no, more than a fondness that Kai has for Miguel. But the boy will not act on those feelings.
'I am happy.' He said unconvincingly.
Dranzer growled. "Master! You need to face the fact that you love Miguel! You've got to stop being to stupid!"
No chance, now way
I won't say it, no, no
Give up, give in
Check the grin you're in love
This scene won't play,
I won't say I'm in love
You're doin flips read our lips
You're in love
You're way off base
I won't say it
Get off my case
I won't say it
Girl, don't be proud
It's O.K. you're in love
To say Kai was shocked would be an understatement. Dranzer would only ever yell if she were angry. 'I'm sorry Dranzer. But it's hard.' He whispered. 'I can't say it. I can't admit what's not there. These feelings will go away.' He tried to sound sure but he failed.
"They won't go away Kai. You've got to acknowledge that they're there."
'How would you know?'
"As I said before, I'm connected to you. I'm in your head Master Kai, I know what you think and I can feel what you feel."
Kai looked away from the sky and down to the streets below. He knows deep down that the things he feels for Miguel won't go away. He just likes to hide it and deny it, hoping that maybe they'll just go away. 'What do I do Dranzer?'
"Just admit that you feel something, even if it's only to yourself." She whispered encouragingly, glad to have finally gotten somewhere with her charge.
Oh
At least out loud,
I won't say I'm in love
As Kai looks down into the streets does Miguel's smile flash through his minds eye. He reaches into his pocket and pulls out Dranzer, which glowed red encouragingly. He smiled faintly.
'I love him. I may not be able to say it out loud yet but I guess the least I can do is accept it.' Dranzer's blade warmed his hand as if agreeing with him. 'Thank you Dranzer.' He thought some more on these feelings when a familiar voice interrupted him.
"Kai. I've been looking for you." Kai turned surprised and saw the one who has been plaguing his thoughts.
"Miguel?"
So, how'd you like it? Was it good? And I'll probably put up another chapter, it depends on what people thought about it. I was listening to this song on youtube and got inspired by it.
I thought it kind of suited Kai, depending on how you want to look at it. So tell me what you think and I'll try to get the next part up.
Tenshi