Chapter 1

Losing

After leaving school most of the 7th years from the school that had been in the battle had got married. But now a change was going to happen to them. From the afterlife a man with half-moon glasses eyes twinkled knowing the events which would be coming but hoping the two people in question would be able to control it together. Not the way they had at school, he remembered it all the day of the battle.

Everybody had been had been scared, scared for him. Him been Harry Potter, the chosen one. It was his last battle, the last one with Voldermort the one where someone had to die. There was loads of creatures and people that wanted Harry dead, yet the few that admitted they didn't want him dead were now the two people who he cared about most in the world whom died a long time ago. But Harry knew his purpose was to save the wizarding world, however he knew if he didn't do this he would be known as a failure to the entire wizarding world. Well now 19 years after he had saved the entire wizarding world from Voldermort and had finished his training as an aurora there wasn't many things he could say he hadn't done. He'd married Ginny Weasely and had a beautiful baby boy with his jet black hair and her brilliant big brown eyes which changed to emerald at the age of 4. Well little James was now going to be doing his first year at Hogwarts, the only thing was that James mom Ginny had been out in hospital after his birth when a magical disease had hit St. Mungo's. She caught the disease and two years later she had died before her son James 1st year at Hogwarts school of witchcraft and wizardry and wouldn't be able to come and see her son off. Depression had caught up with Harry, of course he still had his son by his side. He was at school most of the year and thats when it had started, first he'd been upset on his wife's birthday and saw her favourite knife took the blade towards his skin and cut deep craving into his skin happy birthday Ginny. After that he'd started to do it for all the events they would of celebrated together, but on the day which should of been their 20th anniversary the cut had went too deep and James had walked in and flooded him to who had diagnosed him. It had been tough and took him 3 years to get over the depression. James could never forget the memory.

The white tiles on the bathroom floor where glittering red

A knife with a sharp pointed blade on the floor

Blood dripping off the blade

His dad collapsed on the floor

Blood pools surrounding him

Blood pouring out of his wrist

His emerald eyes looking dead inside

No spark or smile

James got the floo power

"Dad, come on don't leave me" he cried

"He tried to kill himself" he'd told the nurse

Two hours passed and he'd still been sitting in the emergency room

"You may go and see him now"

I'd just nodded

"Dad, why?'

"Because I miss her"

"so do I but I can't lose you to" he'd told him

Now 5 years later James was on his way to his 5th year at Hogwarts School of witchcraft and wizardry. His dad was his only living relative he loved him dearly but his dad had never gotten over the death of his wife. It was a shame because he just couldn't force himself to move on. James always pondered on why he'd never moved on but never questioned his dad motives. His dad played around with many partners but never seemed to be able to form any sort of relationship with them. Dad please find happiness if the light turns out there is only another who can turn it back on.

Meanwhile across the country in Malfoy Manor, Draco Malfoy's wife had just gone and left him, taking his son, leaving only a letter for Malfoy. When the beautiful blond haired wizard came home, he noticed the house was really quiet(his son was usually screaming with music blasting from his room). He went over and sat on his favourite armchair, noticing a letter addressed to him he picked it up and begun reading:

Dear Draco,

I cherished our time together. However recently I have noticed that our marriage was nothing more than for political reason, so for that I am going to ask you to leave me and your son in peace. He does love you but he needs to be able to show his emotions, but he thinks you hate him because he wasn't put in slytherin and instead place into ravenclaw. Now he's changing schools because we need to be away from you since your turning just as cold as your father. Just remember all the good times we had together, don't look for us , after all this time you still can't appreciate me. So this is my goodbye.

Ps Draco don't be a fool to yourself you know with you being bisexual all that your second lover after me has to be… Well you know who. Tell him the truth from now on and I will also use my maiden name. You will be served with divorce papers tomorrow and will not be able to contact your son; you will relinquish all your rights for him. You know you can't love him as much as a do.

Always Jessica Winchester

x

Draco stared for a moment, so she had known his sexuality from the beginning. " I can't believe it" he gasped to no one, the rooms in Malfoy Manor were big and he'd inherited it after his parents had died but this he had not expected. That night had nearly killed Draco although inside his emotions were hidden just like Lucius's had been it had killed his aspiration of love to the core, love was buried deeply, there was only one person he still loved but that person hated him.