Preview: Through this fiction you will explore the life of one of Negan's favorite wives and her struggle between the love of her husband and the love of his right hand man

. This will start when Negan is first introduced into the show and will follow most of the same storyline, adding this character into the story. The first chapter follows the storyline almost to a T because of its impact not on the main story but on this one as well. The Walking Dead is property of AMC and I am just a big fan.

Chapter One

Loving the Villain

Loving someone everyone views as their dictatory is never easy. I often think about the different challenges my love for this man has faced throughout the years. Having only meet him about a year after the outbreak happened, I never really got to know what kind of loving husband Negan could really be. It would be easier to see his true loving side if I was his only wife, sadly, the many other woman who share our home with us are in the same classification I am. Negan's wives. While I don't wish to love anyone else, like some of the others do, nore did I marry him for any kind of security for myself or my family, who had all been killed by those things outside our walls. I married him for the man I knew before we started the Sanctuary. However, had I known that he would have married so many after me, maybe I would have said no.

Negan and I first meet outside Covington, my hometown a few miles outside of Atlanta, I had just lost the group I was with, trying to find a place for myself and my young daughter, Fiona, or Fee as her father and I called her. Her father had died a few months before everything had happened in a car accident. We were hiding in a small town house when he found us. He took us in and took care of us, as if we were his own. I remember falling for that charming smile and laughing, stupidly, at some of his snarky comments. I remember the first time he introduced Fee and I as his wife and daughter, we had just meet and had been saved by a gentleman by the name of Simon. Saved being a lose word, he had help Negan save me after hearing my screams as Fee was pulled out of my hands by a rotter. Soon after Simon became like a part of the family and began going out of runs with Negan, I felt better knowing he wasn't out on his own. However, when the Sanctuary was complete I suppose I was not enough for him anymore. He claimed to still love me more than anything, but he claimed he had others needed something from him and the only fair thing they could give him was their hand in marriage. Of course I did not approve of this, what wife would, but felt I could not oppose, after everything he had done for Fee and I.

These thoughts flow through my head as I hear Negan call out my name.

"(y/n), are you listening to me?"

I hear some commotion outside as I come back to my senses. I never liked leaving the Sanctuary with Negan on a night like tonight. Even though normally I enjoy getting time with him away from the others, I knew tonight would leave me with a horrible memory.

"Of course I am. I'm just trying to wrap my head around your idea."

"What about it? It's only far. They've killed several of our men, good men, men who keep you safe."

I nod and take a deep breath as we heard Simon knock on the door.

*Knock knock knock*

"Let's meet the man."

Negan stands and flashes me a charming smile, one I've come to expect from him.

"Show time."

He steps out of the RV we had taken from the group who was now standing in front of us. As he steps out of the Rv he swings his bat, Lucille over his shoulder.

"Pissing our pants yet?"

He walks up to the group and starts to put on a show, As I step into the doorway of the Rv, but not stepping out.

"Boy, do I have a feeling we're getting close. Yep. It's gonna be pee-pee city here real soon."

He starts to walk in front of the group.

"Which one of you pricks is the leader?"
One of the saviors points out Rick.

"It's this one. He's the guy."

He turns and looks down as Rick, who is a little bit behind him, before turning around and walking over to him and squatting down in front of him. As he speaks his smile fades from his face.

"Hi, you're Rick, right? I'm Negan. And I do not appreciate you killing my men. Also, when i sent my people to kill your people for killing my people, you killed more of my people. Not cool. Not cool, You have no idea how not cool that shit it."

He pauses for a moment as his smirk reappears on his face.

"But I think you're gonna be up to speed shortly. Yeah. You are so gonna regret crossing me in a few minutes."

He stands up and raises his voice so everyone can hear him.

"Yes, you are. You see, Rick, whatever you do, no matter what, you don't mess with the new world order. And the new world order is this, and it's really very simple. So, even if you're stupid, which you very may well be, you can understand it. You ready? Here goes. Pay attention. Give me your shit…. Or I will kill you"

He pauses as he looks around as the group.

"Today was career day. We invested a lot so you would know who I am and what I can do. You work for me now. You have shit, you give it to me. That's your job. Now, I know that is a mighty big, nasty pill to swallow, but swallow it you most certainly will. You ruled the roost. You built something. You thought you were safe. I get it. But the word is out. You are not safe. Not even close. In fact, you are pegged, more pegged if you don't do what i want. And what i want is half your shit. And if that's too much, you can make, find or steal more, and it'll even out sooner or later. This is your life now. The more you fight back, the harder it will be. So, if someone knocks on your door.."

He stops and chuckles.

"... you let us in. We own that door. You try to stop us and we will knock it down, you understand?"

He looks around as everyone stays quiet.

"What, no answer? You don't really think that you were gonna get through this without being punished, now did you? I don't want to kill you people. Just want to make that clear from the get-go. I want you to work for me. You can't do that if you're dead, now can you? I'm not growing a garden. But you killed my people, a whole damn lot of them. More than I'm comfortable with, And for that, for that you're gonna pay. So now…. I'm gonna beat the holy hell outta one of you."

He swings this bat around before holding it up into the light almost admiring it.

"This… this is lucille, and she is awesome."

I sigh rather loudly before he turns around. When he does I am standing with my arms crossed leaning against the door frame of the RV, rather annoyed that he is boosting about the bat again. He gestures behind him before he walks over to me, while standing in the doorway of the RV I am a little taller than he is. He wraps his free arm around my waist and kissing me deeply.

"Oh and his is one of my beautiful wives, (Y/N). She's pretty awesome too."

He turns and goes back to the group, looking over them again.

"All this, all this is so we can pick out which one of you get the honor."

He sighs loudly and rubs his face.

"Ugh, I gotta shave this shit."

He walks in front of the group again.

"You got one of our guns. Whoa. Yeah. You got a lot of our guns."

When he stops this time stopping in front of a young, shaggy haired boy, in a cowboy hat. Who is scowling up at him. As he lifts his head, I see that the boy has an eye patch over his right eye.

"Shit kid, lighten up. At least cry a little."

He keeps walking in front of the group, chuckling.

"Ahem"

When he stops again, it is in front of a young lady with short brown hair, who is about the same age I am, who looks very ill.

"Jesus. You look shitty. I should just put you out of your misery right now."

Just then one of the group jumps up. A young asian man, who once he is up jumps in front of the young lady.

"No! No!"

One of the Saviors grabs him and lands a few blows on the man. As the young lady cries.

"Stop it! God…"

I move to step out of the RV but Simon glances at me and gives me a look that says to stay put. The two of us having grown close since we meet, those years ago. Soon after Negan goes back to his speech.

"Nope. Nope, get him back in line."
The asian man struggles as he is pulled back to his spot. He and the young lady sobbing.

"All right, listen, Don't any of you do that again. I will shut that shit down. No exceptions. First one's free. It's an emotional moment, I get it. Sucks, don't it? The moment you realize you don't know shit"

He walks back to Rick and kneels down, pointing over a the shaggy haired boy next to him.

"This is your kid, right?"

He laughs.

"This is definitely your kid."

Rick cries and looks up at Negan. His rather attractive blue eyes reflecting the lights reflecting in his eyes.

"Just stops this!"

"Hey! Do not make me kill the little future serial killer. Don't make it easy on me. I gotta pick somebody. Everybody's at the table waiting for me to order."
He stands and starts to whistle.

"I simply cannot decide."
He chuckles as he walks back and forth in front of the group again.

"I got an idea."

He starts is point his bat at each member of the group at random.

"Eenie…. Meenie… miney…. Mo… catch…. a tiger…. By…. his toe. if … he hollers… let him go. My mother…. Told me… to pick the very best one… and you… are… it…"
His bat lands on a rather large, redheaded man and squares himself up to him.

"Anybody moves, anybody says anything, cut the boy's other eye out and feed it to his father and then we'll start. You can breathe, you can blink, you can cry. Hell, you're all gonna be doing that."

They all scream as he raises Lucille and hits the redheaded man on the head. Once his head hits the ground the man stands back up on his knees. I look away but hear Negan shouting in the background.

"Ho! Ho! Look at that. Taking it like a champ!"

The redhead man looks up at him and says in a gruff voice.

"Suck… My… Nuts,,"

Negan raises Lucile again and hits the man again and again and again.

"Did you hear that? He said 'suck my nuts.'"

He laughs loudly.

"Oh, my goodness. You guys, look at my dirty girl!"

He turns to me, knowing I didnt have the guts to watch.

"Sweetheart, lay your eyes on this."

He looks over and sees a young hispanic lady, looking at the body. Not quite crying but rather looks like she just died herself.

"Oh, damn. Were you… were you together? That sucks. But if you were, you should know there was a reason for all this. Red.. and hell, he was, is, and will ever be red. He just took one, or six or seven for the team! So take… A damn look. Take a damn look!"

The man at the edge of the group, who was wrapped in a blanket and had a fresh, bandaged wound under his shirt, jumped up and punches Negan. Knocking him over and stubbing over himself, clearly not doing to well. As he does Rick yells out to the man.

"Daryl!"

Negan stands up and chuckles,

"No! Oh, no. That? Oh. my! That… is a no-no. The whole thing… not one bit of that shit flies here."

One of the Saviors, with a burn mark on his face, pins Daryl down with a crossbow to his head.

"Do you want me to do it? Right here."

"No. No, you don't kill them…. Not until you try a little. And anyway.. That's not how it works… Now i told you people… first one's free, then… what'd i say? I said I would shut that shit down! No exceptions. Now, I don't know what kind of lying assholes you've been dealing with… but i'm a man of my word. FIrst impressions are important. I need you to know me. So back to it."

Without hesitation he swings down on the asians head. When he does the man looks at the young lady with short brown hair and tries to say something.

"I just don't know. It seem like you're trying to speak but you just took a hell of a hit. I just popped your skull so hard, your eyeball just popped out, and it is gross as shit!"

The man continues to say something, until he chokes out.

"Maggie I will find you."

After that Negan hits him again and again, as he did with the redheaded man.

"Oh. Oh, hell. I can see this is hard on you guys. I am sorry. I truly am. But i did say, No exceptions!"

He takes a few more swings at the mans lifeless body.

"You bunch of pussies. I'm just getting started. Lucille is thirsty."
He laughs laugh loudly.

"She is a vampire bat."

He stops as the group stays quiet.

"What? Was the joke that bad?"

Rick mumbles something under his breath.

"I'm gonna kill you."

Negan squats down next to Rick with Lucille between the two of them.

"What? I didn't quite catch that. You're gonna have to speak up."

Rick, still crying and breathing heavily, looks over at him.

"Not today…. Not tomorrow.. But I'm gonna kill you."

Negan takes a sharp inhale.

"Jesus."

He chuckles slightly

"Simon… what did he have, a knife?"

Simon steps up to the two.

"Uh, he had a hatchet."

"A hatchet? He had an ax."

Negan chuckles as he look up at Simon and then back at Rick.

"Simon's my right-hand man. Having one of those is important. I mean, what do you have left without them? A whole lot of work. Do you have one? Maybe one of these fine people still breathing? Oh or did I?

Negan makes a clicking noise. When Rick doesn't respond he sighs.

"Sure. Yeah. Give me his ax."

As Negan Stands Simon hands him his ax. Soon after Negan walks over to me and helps me step out of the RV. I try not to show the fear of him that has developed over him. This not being the first time i've seen this happen. He looks at me but talks to the group.

"I'll be right back. Maybe Rick will be with me. And if not, well, we can just turn these people inside out. Won't we? I mean… the ones that are left."

The two get into the RV and head off.