Authors Note-

This is going to be my first Multi Chapter Across The Universe Fanfiction. It takes place right after Jude goes back to England in ATU, and how Lucy, Max, and everyone around them is affected by their friend leaving, or in Lucy's case, love.

It is a bit sad, but it will get a lot more happy and interesting with chapters to come, please give it a chance! It's not like there are 589865 other ATU Fanfics to read on this site anyway! Lol )

PS- I have no idea if Valium (Drug) was around in the 60's, I'm pretty sure it was though, just don't get all mad if it wasn't!

I Found That Love Was More

I don't need it.

I don't need it.

I really don't need it.

I fucking need it.

Thoughts of guilt, longing, and intoxication filled Lucy's mind.

As much as she tried to fight the addiction, she simply could not.

She reached for the pill vile labeled 'Valium' and popped two tablets into her mouth.

I really don't need this, I need Jude.

Lucy felt the affects of the Valium starting to take over her small form. Her head fell on the edge of her pillow, barely missing the rock hard wood floor.

It was another one of those night, this had become her daily routine ever since Jude and she had split up. The pang of guilt for getting Jude deported, plus the fact that SHE had walked out on him, equaled a neverending circle of regret.

Max lightly closed the front door as he noticed Lucy fast asleep on the couch. He sighed when his eyes caught sight of the bottled vodka and the tranquilizers in a mess on the table. Staring at her breathing, he noticed she was slightly shivering, Max gathered a few other blankets from the linen closet and spread them out over Lucy's almost comatose like body.

He took a seat at the kitchen table, after finding a peice of loose leaf paper, and a pencil. Max began to write, everything that had been going on with him and around him in the last two months was written in this letter.

Jude,

It isn't the same here without you buddy, We all miss you, especially Lucy,

I am worried about her Jude.

My mother forced her to visit some crazy whackjob therapist for her anxiety and depression problems,

and he has been prescribing her these pills, addicting pills.

I haven't seen her leave the house in months,

she has lost weight, hasn't found a new job, or even bothered to get out of bed. She cries a lot though,

crying is the only thing she remembers how to do.

I don't even know her anymore, that spirit she had, it's gone.

You know, she is still completely in love with you.

I really don't want to bum you out Jude, but I figured,

if she is suffering this much, you must be too, I'm afraid I will lose her, she is my baby sister,

and I have to protect her the best way I can.

So if that requires me begging you to come back to New York City,

then that is what I will have to do.

You two belong together, no matter what you think.

I know when she sees you again, that spark in her will ignite once again.

I bet you're thinking how weird it is to hear me saying all these sappy things,

but when it comes to Lucy's well being,

i'm not going to be the free spirited Max you all know and love,

I'm going into overprotective brother mode.

Keep in touch Jude, you're not very good at that,

Max.

Max carefully slided the letter into a plain off white envelope. He took one more look at Lucy, and made his way out the door to his destination, the post office.

I hope you guys liked it! Wait for the next chapter, probably will be out tomorrow! I like this idea!

Read and Review! I need to hear your thoughts!