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Dedicated to Katie; because she's beautiful and I wish she could see that.
~ Maybe, Just Maybe ~
(stupidgirl)
The voice s c r e a m s in her head;
she bites down on her lip,
wishing the whole thing would just.. stop.
(fatfatfat)
She stands in front of the mirror,
her body shakes,
tears fall down her pale face,
her heart thumps; can you hear it?
Why can't you just L O V E her?
The mirror: it lies.
But she doesn't notice, she can't see.
(willyourememberher?)
Ugly. Stupid. Fat. Worthless.
Pathetic, little girl.
Heavy tears hit the floor,
heartbroken sobs can be heard.
A pair of scissors in her hand,
her eyes close,
(skeletonskeletonskeleton)
blood drips down to the ground,
mixing with her tears.
She loves you.. why can't you love her too?
She lifts up her top,
hands on her stomach,
Hipbone. Check.
Ribs. Check.
Collarbone. Check.
Do you love her yet?
Her hands move up to her chest,
is her heart still beating?
A n o d of the head, more tears;
Yes, yes it is.
Onetwothreefourfive
Take a deep breath.
Sixseveneightnineten
Pretend you enjoy being alive.
Every single day is a fight
And it's only getting harder.
When will it all end?
When will she be okay?
DO IT LILLY!
DO IT NOW!
She listens to the voice,
never quite grasping it's only in her head,
GO LILLY!
She nods; like she always does.
And she wipes the tears away.
She looks down, down at the porcelain bowl,
so beautiful, yet so plain.
She drops to the tiled floor,
Shamefully drops her head,
DO IT. DO IT NOW!
Sheliftsherhandsup
the tears stop falling
and the vicious cycle continues.
OncetwicethreetimesMORE
The voice is screeching at her;
and she knows that she can do b e t t e r
WORKHARDERWORKHARDER
She finally stumbles up,
catching her reflection in the mirror,
she doesn't even know who she is anymore,
nobody does.
Lilly? Lilly WHO?
Friends? What are THEY?
She doesn't need anyone, she doesn't want anyone.
Shakingsweatingcrying
it's nothing to worry about
it's normal.
Bloodtearsvomit
DON'T LOOK AT HER
Ignore her; it's what she wants.
Forget about the girl she USED to be,
You can't love her anymore; forget about it Oliver.
NO! Don't look into her eyes.
Don't look at the sadness in those once sparkling eyes,
pretend that she is fine,
Carry on like it's normal, Oliver
Do you see those shaking hands?
Yeah?! Ignore them.
Do you see those bright red eyes?
Yeah? Pretend you don't.
What about the vomit in her hair?
NO! She doesn't want to be found out.
The blood on her top?
NO! She lives in a make believe world where she is invisible;
(playalong)
Bones! Skin and bones!
No, Oliver. She just wanted you to l o v e her.
But it's too late now.
She's fading. Falling. GONE.
(ILOVEYOU)
It's too late now.
(I'VEALWAYSLOVEDYOU)
You should have told her sooner.
Allherdreamshavefadedintoone
she's gone.
And she's never coming back.
You never got that chance..
and now it's over.
Maybe, just maybe,
if you had s-c-r-e-a-m-e-d it out;
I LOVE YOU LILLY TRUSCOTT,
MAYBE, just maybe,
she would have noticed,
maybe.. just maybe..
you could have saved her.