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Summary: Bella lied when she said to Edward in Twilight when she said she never had any romantic history in Phoenix. She had a boyfriend named Nate and they had something happen when they were in Phoenix that changed both of them forever. Well Nate's now in Forks, Washington and going to the same High School as Bella and all her friends. Can Bella hide her past from Edward or will he find out a tragic secret she wanted to keep for an eternity. (Set AFTER New Moon.)
Produloge:
Now matter how many times I thought about my life, I never thought I would be here. I never wanted a family. At 15 I was content with my life. Someone kneeled down next to me. It was Nate.
I never really liked or cared for babies. But this one was different. She was different. I would have traded my life for her's in a second. If I had only had the chance. She was too young. Too young. And the longer it's been, the harder it's been to remember her.
I stared down at the grave for the most precious, most beautiful baby girl in the world. The grave read:
Novalee Bree Swan-Carter
November 13, 2008
Loving Daughter
Just a month after she was born. I would have given anything to keep her alive. Even my own life. That went for two other people as well.
Edward. Edward is my life. He means everything to me. I couldn't and wouldn't live without him. Not again. It killed me when he walked away from in the woods all those months ago. It killed me. Being with him makes life worthwhile. It makes my day bright and colorful. He's the best thing in my life since I came to Forks. He saved me more times then I deserved. Especially after how much I've lied to him. He thinks I'm perfect but I'm the absolute farthest thing from. I just wish he could see that but I also glad he doesn't. Because as I much as I have thought it over and over again, I still only have one feeling about him. Well I have a lot of feelings about him but there is one more potent then any other one. I love him.
And the second person I would die for in a second is Nate. Nate is the person I met when I was 13. I was just a little girl then. Sometimes I wish I could posses the innocence I once had with him. Back when life was light. So easy and carefree. Back when I could sneak into movie theaters or hotel rooms just because I was bored. Back when was young. The hardest thing I ever had to do was walk away from Nate at 17 to move to Forks. When I was 15 I started dating Nate. At 15 I… I… I slept with him. I never told anyone in Forks about that night since I moved. But Nate is something more than just a past fling. He's Novalee's father. Even though I don't care as much for him as I ever have for Edward, I love him too.
I stared at the grave that my palms were now resting on. I have been in car accidents in my life. I have tripped and fallen more times than I thought were possible. I have had several concussions. Been on vampires' hit lists, almost serial raped in Port Anglas, been vampire attacked and almost hit by a van. I have rode and crashed on motorcycles and jumped off a cliff and almost drowned.
But this is different. I have felt more pain in 18 years than most feel in a lifetime. But now is different. This pain is different. Because all those other times I got better. The pain faded and eventually went away. But now, this pain, this loss for Novalee, it's not getting better. Why is it not getting better! Why did she have to suffer for someone else's mistake? Why?
Tears threatened to slip through my eyes, but I fought them back. I had to be strong no matter how much it hurt. I looked at Nate. He had tears streaming down his face too. And I looked at Edward, who was sitting in his Volvo 10 yards away. He looked like he would have tears streaming down his face if such a thing were possible.
I looked down at the grave again.
Not just anyone's grave though.
My daughters….
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