Forbidden fantasy :
It was about nine o'clock that night when after solving a very delicate case Jane and Maura finally got home, both physically and emotionally drained.
About a week earlier they had been called in one of Boston's most infamous neighbourhood where the lifeless body of woman in her late twenties had been discovered. The victim had no purse or ID on her and despite her prints not being in the system the way she was dressed and had her hair and nails done not to mention the neighbourhood where she was found lead Jane and Frost to suspect her to be a hooker and knew that the chances of finding a missing person report were close to none and that identifying her would be the first obstacle they'd need to overcome to close this case.
Back at the morgue, an external examination of the body first allowed Maura to notice that the victim presented with hand shaped bruises around her neck. Those bruises in addition with the petechia in her eyes allowed Maura to conclude that the victim died of asphyxia caused by manual strangulation.
Further examination of the body also revealed sign of recent and frequent violent sexual activity which confirmed Jane and Frost's theories on the victim's line of work.
Luckily for them, identifying the victim turned out to be easier than they expected after Maura found that victim had breasts implants, their serial numbers leading Jane and Frost directly to the plastic surgeon that had performed the surgery.
Upon arriving at the victim's appartement Jane, Maura and Frost immediately realized that she was no downtown whore but a very high class escort that probably charged up to ten thousands dollars a night for her services.
For the next week the team interrogated every single one of her clients, whose identities she had concealed in a little black book for her own protection.
Pissing off dozens of lawyers, doctors and politicians in the process and after reading about their very disgusting and disturbing kind of sexual habits in the victims little black book Jane and Frost finally stumbled on a very unsettled ex-senator that did not possess the aplomb the other clients exhibited and that was not so vocal about his indiscretions with the younger woman.
After relentlessly interrogating him for hours the suspect finally confessed his taste for erotic asphyxiation but denied murdering her on purpose and pleaded that what had happened was an accident.
With no other sign of violence on the body or at the victim's apartment Jane and Maura had no other choice to believe his story and the ex-senator was charged with second degree murder and obstruction of justice for disposing of the body.
"Men are pigs!" Stepping in their house Jane immediately took her jacket, shoes, badges and gun off and walked towards the living before collapsing on the large beige couch.
"Why? Because they cheated on their wives or because they chose to do it with a professional?" Not disagreeing with her statement Maura smiled at Jane's comment Maura followed her to the living room.
"The cheating I can understand but why pay someone when you can cheat for free? That's just gross and proves how much they respect women and consider them as marchandise they can pick and purchase to satisfy their needs." Before working at homicide Jane had worked undercover with vices but this was different and somehow more disturbing than anything she had seen before.
"Those men you questioned are all very successful, powerful and wealthy and an affair would have not only ruined their reputations but would have cost them everything in case their wives decided to file for divorce, whereas hiring a professional guarantees a certain discretion." Sitting next to Jane, Maura instinctively reached out for her girlfriend's swollen feet and started massaging them with her thumb.
"I suppose you're right but what surprised me the most was that the victim was specialised in... exotic sexual practices." Exotic, disgusting, degrading, humiliating, painful were the few words that came to Jane's mind when she pictured that poor girl on her knees being spanked, chocked, bitten and probably even worse by her clients.
"Which is exactly why they chose her over the dozen of more attractive escorts that could only provide them with standard services. I believe seeing her was a way for those men to satisfy their attraction to paraphilia they considered to be too unconventional to ask their wives."
"So you're saying they considered those sexual acts to be too degrading to be performed with their wives so they choose to do it with girls that were young enough to be their daughters? That's even worse Maura." Narrowing her eyes brows Jane was almost disturbed by Maura's rather casual approach to the subject.
"Studies suggest that women often experience a decrease in their sexual interest after giving birth and that men tend to desexualise their spouses and to see them as mothers rather than as sexual partners. I'm not saying sexual frustrations awake those extreme paraphilia but when given the opportunities to unleash their darkest fantasies without fearing any mockery or disgust from their partners men tend to find themselves unable to resist." Using her medical knowledge and the studies she had read Maura was trying to rationalise and minimize those men's action but could see in Jane's eyes that she was failing miserably.
"You're probably right but no matter who they choose to satisfy those fantasies with most of the things I read in that black book were pretty disturbing." Jane replied shaking her head, disgusted look on her face.
"There is nothing degrading in satisfying your partner as long as both parties are consentent. May I remind you of some of the games we often play?" Having spent most of her life in Europe Maura was not shocked by such arrangements, as long as both parties were consentent and of legal age to make such choices.
"Using my handcuffs to tie you up to our bed or allowing you to blindfold me or even our little role plays don't compare to the violence of what that girl had to put herself through to satisfy her clients." Maura's rationalism was usually comforting for Jane and helped her see things differently but her nonchalance regarding that matter was disturbing. Jane was no prude and had satisfied her share of kinky fantasies with Maura but nothing that involved physical pain or humiliation and she could not bring herself to find it normal no matter how consentent the parties are.
"I would agree with that. Speaking of fantasies, is there anything you would enjoy experimenting that you haven't asked me yet?" If anything Maura was completely open with her sexuality and desires and usually had no trouble suggesting new experiences to Jane. Unfortunately there were still a few things that she knew Jane still considered as extreme but she was hoping to use this conversation to smoothen things up before asking her for that thing that has been in the corner of her head for a while.
"No, you should know that you and I have such an honest relationship that I always tell you when there is something that I want, so don't worry about me being sexually frustrated. My needs are perfectly satisfied with you. What about you? Anything you never dared to ask me?" Using tact and the art of slowly building up a conversation weren't one of Maura's strong suits and Jane immediately knew she was about to offer her to try something they had never tried before, something that she seemed to have been holding inside for a while and considering the open and disinhibited nature of their relationship Jane started to worry.
"Yes, there is. You know that I have always felt very comfortable asking you to do certains things to me or to allow me to do certain things to you but there is something I never dared to ask for." Swallowing hard as she said those word Maura's heart started racing and her mouth was incredibly dried. As comfortable as the couple was in their sexuality this fantasy could see the way Jane saw her and she did not want to take that risk without proper preparation.
"What it is?" Sliding closer to Maura as she saw the anxious look on her face, Jane reached out for her hand and started caressing the top with the thumb.
"It's nothing. I know I already made you feel uncomfortable many times before and I wouldn't want you to think less of me." What was so terrible about that fantasy cause the usually bold and fearless and ridiculously honest Dr Isles to be so uncomfortable about it?
"Well it's true that you vivid imagination and thirst for sex was rather unsettling at first but you progressively managed to make me feel so comfortable that I'm not shocked by your inquiries anymore ." That was a white lie. The truth was that Jane always felt nervous when Maura would tell her she had come up with yet another way of spicing up their sex life but she trusted her so much that she always agreed to follow her in her wildest fantasies.
"Really?"
"Yes, you opened my mind and my body, you litteraly allowed me to accept and explore my sexuality and I have never been so comfortable about it in my entire life. I love you Maura and there is nothing you can say or ask me that could make me love or respect you less, as long as you don't want us to invite someone else in our bedroom of course." With quick touch of humour Jane was for once the one trying to make Maura more comfortable.
"No, of course not. I already have trouble not strangling every man or woman that hits on you on almost daily basis so no, that's not what I was referring to. I'm fairly attracted and intrigued by anal sex." Oh boy, as soon as the word slipped out of her mouth Maura felt her cheek burning up. Unable to look at Jane in the eyes she continued to started at her engagement ring, nervously flipping it around her finger with her thumb.
"Oh, have you ever tried?" Hearing the truth about Maura's hidden fantasy Jane was almost relieved but also intrigued and slightly disgusted by the thought but she was determined to keep an open mind and hear her out.
"No, I have ner met a man that I found delicate enough to try it with, not that I have never been asked though." Rising her head Maura was almost surprised was Jane's gentle touch and her openness.
"Well I it can be painful if you're not careful enough, not that ever tried though. It's not something that ever attracted me but I would like to hear why it attracts you." Was Jane slowly opening her mind to the idea or was it pure curiosity?Did she love and trust Maura enough to agreed to perform anal sex with her.
"I'm intrigued Jane. From an anatomic point of view I know that the stimulation of the multiple nerve endings present within the anus and rectum can procure a lot of pleasure and that since only a thin membrane separates the vaginal cavity from the rectal cavity the G spot can be indirectly stimulated and procure a great amount of pleasure as well. Of course this needs to be done with someone you can trust with an extreme amount of delicateness and proper prior lubrification to prevent any pain or tearing." Now that was certainly a very clinical expose Dr Isles. Will Jane be sensitive to your passion on the subject, or will it scare her off?
"God you're so sexy when you go all clinical on me." Smiling as she leaned over to blow a tender kiss on Maura's cheek Jane could see how passionate Maura felt about it but was still not convinced that this could be a pleasurable experience for both of them.
"Does that mean you will you consider it?" Maura replied, her face lightening up like a christmas tree.
"If that's something that could make you happy then yes I will consider it but not before we get a nice night of rest, I'm exhausted." Jane was not ready or willing to discuss things further and as she grabbed Maura's hand and dragged her to bed she was hoping that she would give her time to seriously consider things and that she would not get offended by an eventual refusal.
"I concur, let's go to bed." Maura knew Jane well enough to know when to drop the subject. She knew that if she did not immediately agreed to take that next step in their sex life, she needed to give her time to consider it and was hoping she would not reject her and that if she did it would not put a strain on their relationship.
Hello dear readers. I have had this idea in mind for a long time but it didn't seem to fit any of my other stories so when I finally gathered the courage to write about it the idea of a one or possibly a two shots seemed appropriate.
At first I wanted Jane to ask Maura to experience that practice but it sounded more realistic that Maura would be the one being curious about it.
I hope you don't hate me for ending this chapter here but I don't want to shock or offend anyone so I will wait for your feedback to see if you're all on board and will write the next chapter accordingly :). I hope the reluctant readers will trust me to make it enjoyable and not disgusting.