*- FIRST and FOREMOST: This fanfic has NO EXPLICIT go away for those who wants to read one. M-rated for rape.
Yes… I haven't updated any of my on-going stories. Yes, I need to update them. I'll finish them eventually when I find the inspiration on them. Ahaha… Actually, I have already written part of the next chapters for them but unfortunately, it didn't live up to my expectations, making me aware of the fact that the muse is NOT in and I need to FIND it immediately.
Now let me end this, go on with the story. After the disclaimer, of course.
Disclaimer: I don't own Mahou Shoujo Lyrical Nanoha. If I try owning it, even here, I might be sued and I don't want to go to jail. Nuh-uh. No way. I still have a lot of animes to watch.-*
"Don't worry. I'm sure everything's going to be okay. Just go for it."
"B-But… I can't possibly…"
"You can do it. I believe in you."
"…Then I'll do it." The brunette said and jogged towards the direction of the blonde. After a few steps, she stopped and turned back, "Thank you." After that she gave her friend the best smile she could give and turned again to proceed to her destination.
As the other watched the brunette run towards the object of her affections, she waited until everything was done. At the end of it, she clutched her heart as if in pain as she saw the two kiss. She still watched the scene even though it hurt to see what was happening. How everything that she holds dear was taken away from her. The only thing that she had was now gone from her reach. No, the only thing that she wanted, needed for she doesn't even know if she had a chance.
She watched them walk away, hand in hand. Her heart constricted again because of the pain in her heart. Why does it have to happen like this? Why did she fall to another girl? Why did she fall in love with her best friend? It doesn't make any sense only that… she helped her best friend to confess and be with her brother. Oh how she hates her brother right now.
Silently, after a few minutes, she walked slowly from her hiding spot and clenched her hands. If only she was born as a guy then perhaps she could have her. Now everything is gone. "What will happen to me now?" she whispered as she walked aimlessly out of the school with only her bag to accompany her in that awfully cold winter day.
After a few hours of walking, she arrived in front of her house. Not knowing what to do, she decided to enter, unknowingly entering what she would later describe as hell.
"Oh my! Welcome home Fate-chan!" her green haired mother, Lindy Harlaown, greeted her, "Look at what we have here! It looks like your brother got himself a girlfriend! Guess who?"
"Mom! You're embarrassing me!" her brother exclaimed.
"Nanoha…" Fate answered, smiling that fake smile of hers.
"That's correct! Anyways, Ill prepare some tea for you all right? It's cold nowadays," she said as she walked towards the kitchen, " Christmas is near. I'm so excited!"
The brunette who's blushing madly waved at her best friend, "Hey Fate-chan!"
She stared at her best friend for a while and gave her a weak smile, "Hey Nanoha…"
As the brunette saw the crimson eyed woman standing still at the doorway, she could feel that something's troubling her. She gave her a concerned gaze. Seeing that, Fate closed her eyes for a few seconds and opened them and turned to look at her brother. "I'm happy for you Yuuno. Just to let you know, your girlfriend… is my best friend. Don't hurt her." Yuuno and Nanoha were surprised at the genuine bitterness that they felt from what the usually gentle Fate. They thought that Fate was just merely being protective of her best friend. No one would know the real reason, only her self.
"Y-Yes Fate-nee." Yuuno said and then added with conviction as he looked at the still blushing Nanoha, "I won't hurt her, I promise."
Lindy clapped her hands to take the teenagers' attention and said, "Now, now… Let's all go to the dining room and eat. You come with us too Nanoha-chan."
"Y-Yes!" Nanoha said as she immediately stood up.
"And Yuuno-kun… go and call Chrono, he's still in his room upstairs, sleeping." Lindy pointed upwards knowing that Chrono's room is just above where she's standing.
"Yes Mom…" Yuuno answered as he proceeded to follow what he's ordered to do.
"Now shall we go first?" Lindy suggested. Fate and Nanoha nodded and then followed Lindy to the dining room.
As they ate their dinner, Yuuno and Nanoha was the talk of the night. It was hard for Fate to sit there and smile as she doesn't want Nanoha to notice that she's hurting or troubled. It was tough but she decided to be strong though she faltered when the topic was turned to her.
"So now that Yuuno already has a girlfriend, the only one single here is Fate." Chrono said as he smirked and added, "So Fate… is there someone you like? I can help you get closer to him if you want?"
At what Chrono said, Lindy looked pensive as she looked at her only daughter. Somehow, she was thinking that Fate likes Nanoha but shrugged the idea off when she heard Fate encouraging the brunette muster up her courage during a sleepover in confessing to her youngest child. So now that the topic has been passed to Fate, she's anxious of what Fate's reaction would be, it would either confirm her suspicion or negate it.
Nanoha also looked at Fate, staring and wondering what Fate's answer would be. She felt guilty since she realized that she was selfish because everything revolved around her affection for Yuuno and the idea of who is Fate's crush didn't even enter her mind. It really bothered and made her angry at her self. She is Fate's best friend and she doesn't even know the answer to Chrono's question.
"You see Nii-san... The one I like is not… single so I think it would be better if I should just forget the person. Though it always make me smile seeing that person happy even though I'm not the reason for it." Fate answered as she remembered what she had done. She shoved her away and she's the reason why that person's not single anymore. Nanoha's heart is not free anymore since it was already imprisoned to someone's control… to his own brother's control.
With that answer, Lindy's suspicion was somewhat confirmed though she still had some doubts it. Chrono was a little taken aback with Fate's answer but after a while, he felt sorry for asking and teasing her so she apologized. Yuuno clenched his hand when he hard the answer since she couldn't understand why someone like her sister should be experiencing situations like that for she is one of the kindest person he knew.
As for Nanoha, her curiosity only increased as well as the guilt so she decided that she will ask Fate when they're alone. Fate helped her and now it is her turn to help her blonde best friend. It's either she help her in confessing to that person even if there's only a little or help her find another that could heal her broken heart. She's determined to do anything just to help her and she will do just that. She loves her best friend so much that she's willing to do anything… anything and everything for her.
Their dinner continued without interruption. They decided to turn their topics to happy one to cheer Fate up by reverting back the topic to Yuuno and Nanoha's relationship, unknowingly hurting Fate more than she already was.
After dinner, it was already too late for Nanoha to go home. Lindy asked her if she would like to stay. Nanoha hesitated since staying would be intruding too much to the Harlaown's and reasoned that it's not nice to let the girlfriend stay in the house of her boyfriend. Lindy giggled as Nanoha told her that.
"Don't worry, you may stay with Fate-chan and I also won't let Yuuno-kun come near you at night." Lindy said happily.
"Mom! I'm a gentleman; I wouldn't do such a thing!" Yuuno protested.
"I was just teasing you. But," she gave him a sweet smile, too sweet to anyone's liking especially the one receiving it. Yuuno gulped and shivered at the look he's been given, "…Once I see you even a meter near Nanoha-chan tonight, when she enters the bedroom especially the bathroom, I'll make sure to punish you. Understood?"
Yuuno immediately nodded and said "Good night." to Nanoha and went to his room, a little scared of what might happen to him if he even gets out of his room since Fate's room is just adjacent to his. What if he and Nanoha went out of the room at the same time and her mother sees that? He's going to pay all right.
When Yuuno was already out of sight, Chrono also went back to his room to sleep but before that he walked towards her sister and ruffled her hair, "I'm sorry for teasing you tonight Fate, I didn't know."
Fate gave him a sad smile, she really like his older brother the best since he's not the object of her love's affection, though she still adores her little brother but not that much since the day that she was informed of Nanoha's crush on him, "It is okay Chrono-nii…" At that he proceeded to his room.
"You should ask your parents first Nanoha-chan so that they wouldn't worry. Fate-chan, you may go to your room and prepare the things that Nanoha-chan might need." Lindy said. She really loves playing commander with her children and their friends whenever she'd have the chance.
"Yes!" the two girls answer.
After a few minutes, Nanoha entered Fate's room. She giggled when she saw Fate fixing her stuff toys that were lying on the floor and the bed. She walked towards the blonde, skipping a little at the steps and a little giddy in staying the night with her trusted friend. "Fate-chan really likes playing with her cute stuff toys." She said as she sat on Fate's queen-sized bed.
Fate blushed at what the brunette said and waved her free left hand to oppose, "T-That's not true Nanoha!"
"Oh yes Fate-chan…I believe you. Honest!" Nanoha said sarcastically, eyes filled with humor and amusement as she saw Fate blush a whole new shade of red.
Fate sighed and said, "Mou Nanoha… you shouldn't tease me so much… It's sucking my energy."
"Nyahaha… It's because Fate-chan's so cute whenever I tease her, especially her reactions."
"Yes…you always told me that…but please not tonight… I'm kind of tired you see." Fate said as she resumed to fixing her things just to make it a little presentable to the brunette.
"Okay Fate-chan, I'll spare you today." Nanoha said a little disappointed since she was going to tease Fate again. She waited for Fate to finish patiently. Now that they are alone, she wants to ask Fate the questions running in her little pretty head. Why won't Fate share her feelings about the one holding her heart? Nanoha told her about her feelings for Yuuno but why won't Fate do the same? Does her best friend not trust her enough?
"I guess that's all." Fate said as she put the biggest stuff toy about her study table, "Want to take a shower first?" Normally, Fate and Nanoha would share a bath whenever one would stay for the night in the other's home. It took every ounce of control for Fate to stop staring at Nanoha every time. She decided, if Nanoha would say "yes" to her question, then she'll let Nanoha go first.
"Yes Fate-chan! Let's go in together all right?" Nanoha answered cheerfully.
'Now what do I say?' Fate thought and then she said, "No, Nanoha… You go first."
Nanoha stood up and clutched at Fate's arms and dragged her towards the bathroom to the left side of the bed, "No need to be shy Fate-chan. You've already seen me naked, and you have better assets than me. Come on."
Fate just sighed. This always happens. 'How can you understand what I feel? Do you know how much I can't hold my self together why I'm with you? You're so selfish Nanoha…and yet…here I am…still abiding to your wishes…'
After taking a bath, Fate went to her drawer and took a pair of pajamas, for her and her friend. After dressing up, they decided to head towards the bed to sleep but only for Fate's case. Nanoha still has something to ask the blonde so after lying on the bed she asked, "Fate-chan, during dinner… why… who is the person that you like?"
Fate was not shocked with the question. She expected Nanoha to be curious and ask it to her sooner or later, especially after it was tackled during dinner. "Hm…Someone you know….but Nanoha…my love for that person is not appropriate… I just want to forget than person especially what I feel so please…" tears started pouring from her eyes as looked at the brunette's face, "…Please just don't ask about it anymore please? It would really help. I…. I'll become insane if it doesn't…I…don't know what…"
When the blonde cried, Nanoha immediately hugged her, trying to comfort her. When she did, Fate just cried harder. Thankfully, Fate's sobs were being muffled by her shoulders. she wouldn't want anyone seeing her best friend like this. She knew…no…she wants to be the only one to comfort her because she knows that she haven't done anything for the blonde while she depended a lot on her best friend.
'Best friend…I didn't even know that she's hurting a lot…enough to make her cry like this…' Her hug on the blonde tightened, "Fate-chan…don't worry…everything's going to be okay…I'll help you forget him… so don't worry anymore…I'm here for you. I'll never leave you…" She whispered as she stroked the silky hair of Fate, which is somehow lulling Fate to her slumber.
'But being with him….you already did…' that was Fate's final thought as she succumbed to her tiredness and slept.
Nanoha continued stroking Fate's hair even though she noticed that Fate's already asleep. Very carefully, she adjusted Fate's position so that she could lie comfortably on the bed. When she tried to free her self from the blonde, Fate tightened her hold on her, making her sigh and smile softly. 'She really loves cuddling, doesn't she?' she adjusted her own position and lied next to Fate.
A few minutes later, she heard someone knocking on the door. "Are you still awake Fate-chan? Nanoha-han?" Lindy's sleepy voice flowed from the other side of the door.
Nanoha decided that she should stand up and answer Lindy personally so she separated from Fate. A relived sigh escaped from her lips when she didn't feel any protest from the sleeping blonde. She heard Lindy's voice again saying, "Perhaps they're already asleep…"
Nanoha immediately though quietly made her way to the door. She opened it making the teal haired woman jump slightly in shock. Nanoha smiled sheepishly at her and whispered, "Sorry Lindy-san, Fate-chan wouldn't let go earlier."
Lindy waved her right hand and said, "Don't worry about it, I know Fate-chan's habits. Anyways, I would like to inform you that Chrono and Yuuno would have to go with me to work so you could stay here with Fate-chan if you want or you could go shopping."
Nanoha nodded and asked, "How long would you be gone?"
"Perhaps two to three weeks…" she sighed and added, "I really want to stay with Fate-chan but you know the nature of my work. I know she's in a very… unfortunate position right now so… If you could would you please take care of her while we're gone? It would really be nice if you would stay here while we're gone."
"You don't need to ask me that Lindy-san, I would always be here for her. She's my best friend and I wouldn't leave her at a time like this." Nanoha said, smiling at Lindy.
"Thank you, Nanoha-chan. Well then, you must be tired, you may rest. I'm sorry for disturbing you."
"No problem at all. Good night." With that, Lindy proceeded to her own room while Nanoha switched off the light in the room and closed the door. Then she walked back to the bed where Fate continued sleeping as she clutched an extra pillow on the bed.
Frowning a little, she removed the pillow from the blonde's grasp and decided to exchange position with it. Satisfied, she embraced the blonde and decided to sleep as well, thinking of ways to cheer her best friend and know who that lucky person her best friend's in love with.
The next morning, Nanoha woke up first. It was unusual that Fate would wake up after her since the blonde is known for waking up early to take her morning run. She rubbed her eyes and decided to wake up Fate when she noticed that the clock over the bedside table read '09:00'. The drowsiness that she felt disappeared when she felt that Fate was a little warm. She touched her forehead and indeed, Fate has a fever. She lightly caressed her best friend's cheek to wake her up. Slowly, Fate's eyes fluttered, indicating that she was roused from her slumber.
"Ngh… Nanoha… you're here…" Fate muttered, obviously still sleepy.
"Of course I'll be here. I stayed here last night, didn't I? Anyways, you have a fever.I'll cook breakfast downstairs ok? You stay here."
"Mom?" It was obvious that the blonde has a fever because of her hoarse voice.
"Will be gone for two to three weeks with Chrono-kun and Yuuno-kun because of work, perhaps she needed some assistance to information gathering, needed Yuuno-kun for that I guess. Don't worry, she gave me permission to stay here. I'll take care of you ok?" the brunette said as she stroked Fate's hair.
"… Thank you."
"Nyahahaha! Silly Fate-chan, there's no need for that. Sleep well Fate-chan."
"Hmm…" Fate muttered as she drifted off to sleep.
Seeing this, Nanoha thought of what to make for her and Fate. She thought of making some soup for her sick friend so she checked the refrigerator for something that could be used but unfortunately for her, there are only, ham, eggs and other stuff that would not go well with a sick person in the fridge. She decided that she should go buy some from the convenient store a few blocks from the Harlaown's. Before going out, she checked for some medicine for the blonde and when she saw that there is enough, she decided to head out.
After an hour, Fate's eyes started opening. She felt cold on her forehead and that something was sticking from her mouth. Seeing this, Nanoha removed the thermometer from the blonde's mouth, "Fate-chan… This is bad, you're temperature increased." Nanoha told the blonde as she read what was indicated in the thermometer, " 41.3 degree Celsius… We need to cool you down."
"… I'm hungry Nanoha…" Fate said as she heard her stomach grumble.
Nanoha gave her best friend a crooked smile and said, "All right but after that we need to…umm… I don't know. Take a bath I guess? That might help."
Fate nodded, agreeing with Nanoha to take a bath though she thought that it might worsen her condition. It was pathetic but at that time, she doesn't care. All she knows is that she wants to take a bath with Nanoha, enjoying the view as well as the attention the blue-eyed woman's giving her.
Nanoha signaled to the other to stay in bed while she stood up and went downstairs to get Fate's food. She cooked some chicken soup and garlic bread, knowing that her friend loved it. She also took some milk from the fridge and put some in a glass of water. She also decided to get Fate's medicine so that he doesn't need to go back downstairs after Fate eats her breakfast.
After putting them on a plastic tray, she went back to Fate's room. She saw the blonde fixing the wet cloth on her forehead but ended up putting it on her eyes. She giggled as she took a seat on the bed.
"Nanoha…Thank you." She said as she kept on struggling with the wet piece of cloth.
Nanoha put the tray down on the table next to the bed and then turned her attention to the piece of cloth, removing it from the blonde's face, hanging it of the headboard. "We'll put that later, come on, let fix that grumbling stomach of yours."
Fate said, "Okay." As she got up and sat to lean on the headboard, evading the wet cloth.
With that, Nanoha started feeding the blonde, making her blush nut still smile with the attention. While eating, she thought of something and asked her secret love, "Have you eaten yours Nanoha?"
"Don't worry about me Fate-chan. You just concentrate on getting better. Mou… I thought we could hang out outside of the house today, why did you have to get sick now?"
"Nyahaha…" Fate laughed, copying the brunette's way of laughing.
"Mou! That's my laugh, don't start copying mine!"
"Fine…"
"…"
"…"
"You really are sick aren't you?" Nanoha said, usually, the blonde would not immediately relent on something especially when they are teasing each other.
"Yeah… I guess… Nanoha…I don't want to eat anymore."
Nanoha blinked and started saying, "But you haven't finished—" she stopped because she saw that pout of Fate, that adorably cute pout.
"Nanoha…bath,,,it's too hot." Fate said.
She sighed, "You sure are needy when you're sick Fate-chan." Nanoha said as she rubbed her forehead, "Go on, drink you're medicine and we'll give you that bath that you want."
"You'll be taking the bath with m, won't you?"
"Yes, yes…"
After drinking the medicine, Nanoha decided to get some clothes for her and Fate. After that, she helped the blonde to stand up and walked towards Fate's bathroom. The Harlaowns have four bedrooms in the house and each room has it's own bathroom. It was really useful especially at a time like this, though she doesn't know what would happen if there's only one bathroom for the whole family. Their house smaller compared to Fate's house but they also have their own bathrooms that they could use.
Entering the bathroom, Nanoha started removing Fate's clothes. Fate was really embarrassed but didn't move to help the brunette from stripping her from hr clothes. It was really sweet of Nanoha to give her full attention to her. How she wished that instead of taking a bath, she could some other things with her. Those things requiring her to have a much deeper relationship with her beloved and being reminded again of her hopelessness, the embarrassment that she felt was replaced by agony.
Nanoha was glancing at Fate every now and then, seeing if the blonde is still awake and so that she could catch the blonde if she should fall or if her feet begin to lose its strength. She also saw the changes that happened. She sighed after stripping all of the blonde's clothes except for her underwear.
"You can go and lie on the bathtub. I'll follow in a second." Nanoha said.
"All right…"
With that, Nanoha decided to strip too and join Fate. Seeing Nanoha walking towards hr, Fate couldn't stop her self from staring at the one she longed. There she was, walking towards her. Nanoha in her pink set of bra and panty. Fortunately for her, Nanoha decided to fix the temperature of the shower first before joining the blonde so Fate had a few minutes more to look at the exquisite beauty that is Nanoha.
"Now, come closer Fate-chan. We'll have to use the shower, soaking you for a long time might worsen your fever." With that said, Fate complied with Nanoha, as well as the other orders the brunette gave her.
After thirty minutes, they both emerged from the bathroom, wearing nothing else but their towels around them. The whole time that they were taking a bath, Fate was thinking of how it would be great to be able to touch Nanoha, to be intimate with her. She doesn't care anymore and with her current condition, she couldn't think logically. Normally, Fate would berate her self for thinking such dirty thoughts towards her best friend. It's as if she's abusing her position as the other's friend.
For the rest of the day, Nanoha took care of the blonde. Doing exactly what a she should for a sick person. When night time came, she received a call from her cell phone. Since Fate was asleep at that time, she hurriedly answered the phone to stop it from ringing.
"Hello? "
"Nanoha, when are you coming back here? We've been waiting for you the whole day."
"Okaa-san! I'm sorry I forgot to call you. I'm still here at Fate-chan's house. Lindy-san and the others are gone because of work and Fate-chan is sick so would it be all right if I stay here for a few days?" Nanoha said, knowing that her mother would not scold her since her reason was valid.
"I see. Then you can go back here tomorrow to get some clothes and then you could hurry and take care of Fate-chan. Remember to lock the doors and windows all right?" Momoko, Nanoha's mother, said in a worried tone, knowing that the only people staying would be the two teenagers.
After some more instructions from the worried mother, they both ended the call and bid their 'good night' to each other. Nanoha decided that she might as well sleep. She lifted the covers and joined Fate in her slumber.
For a week, Nanoha stayed with Fate. Thankfully her fever was gone already though r was not the main problem for Nanoha. The whole week, she noticed that Fate has been acting weird. She always felt Fate's eyes when they would take a bath or when she would change clothes. Whenever they were going to sleep, Fate turn her back from Nanoha opposite of the usual cuddling the blonde wanted. Also, she would always flinch whenever Nanoha would mention Yuuno. With those things in consideration, she thought that Fate doesn't want her to date her little brother or that Fate was avoiding her since she doesn't want Nanoha to ask again about her secret love. Knowing that it is already affecting Fate, she decided to confront her with her two hypotheses, starting with the former. Fate needs help and she knew that very well.
One night during the second week of her stay at the Harlaowns, she decided to start her plan. She approached Fate who was currently watching some anime in the living room. Sitting beside the blonde, she asked, "Fate-chan, is it all right if I ask you something?"
Fate looked at her warily and said after a bit of hesitation, "Sure. What is it?"
"Fate-chan, you've been acting weird all week. I know that there is something that's been bothering you for days. You know you can tell me everything right?" Nanoha said.
Hearing that, Fate's eyes darkened a little, "What made you say that Nanoha?"
"Well… you're acting weird since last week. I noticed it after your fever went down. I know… I think I know how hard it is for you to tell me. But Fate-chan, you know you can trust me right? T would really help you if you would share it to someone." Nanoha told her. She began reaching out for Fate's hands but was a little taken aback when the blonde pull her hands away. Nanoha cast the blonde a hurtful look. "See what I mean? Something's bothering you. You have to open up. You must let me help you!"
Fate looked at Nanoha coldly, "Help me? Do you know what you're saying? Do you really mean that?"
Nanoha nodded as she exclaimed, "Yes! I'll do anything to help you, Fate-chan!"
Fate hovered above the brunette as she said, "Come with me to the bed…" with that being said, she proceeded towards her room upstairs. Nanoha hesitantly followed. In front of the door, Fate suddenly stopped, and Nanoha felt a little relieved. She felt dread gnawing in her when Fate suddenly told her about coming to the bedroom with her. She jumped a little when Fate suddenly talked with back facing Nanoha.
"The moment that you step inside this room, I will not let you get out. Whatever happens inside will be your fault." Fate expressionlessly said, "Will you still go inside despite that?"
Nanoha thought that something bad will happen whatever she chooses. No matter what she does, Fate would be hurt. She knew that Fate doesn't want to do this but because Nanoha asked for it, she would. On the other hand, declining the opportunity would hurt Fate too, as if showing that she doesn't care, that she's just lying about what she had said, that she'll help. Nanoha decided she would not leave Fate whatever it was that she'll be showed or told...and so with a whisper of her affirmation, her fate was sealed and what would happen would surely change everything that she believed in, every feelings that she had felt would leave. She didn't know. She didn't know what had happened when it did.
She was warned from the start. It was her fault. She can't blame Fate for it even if she was the one who caused it. That night, Fate forced her self on her, having her way with her. Nanoha struggled but eventually lost since the blonde was more athletic and powerful than her. Not moving anymore, all she could do was sob and plead for Fate to stop. Fate didn't relent, she continued but she joined Nanoha in crying, doing it silently while licking and kissing every part of Nanoha's chest.
After the deed, Nanoha didn't move from where she was lying, staring at wall, not seeing anything as tears continued flowing from her eyes. Fate went in the bathroom and stayed under the shower, letting the cold water wash over her body. It was done. She can't continue being with Nanoha. Eventually, depending on how Nanoha would react, by the time that her family arrives, they would know what she had done. Even if her mother is a high ranking official of the military, it would not change the fact that she was a criminal. That night marked the change that's going to happen to them, that night, Fate Harlaown died. That night, Nanoha was raped by none other than her female best friend, the one that she had trusted the most, none other that Fate herself.
Getting out of the shower, Fate walked towards the bed, still wet from her shower. Nanoha didn't move but she knew that Fate was walking towards her. She could hear the thumping sounds each step is making. Fate stopped when she was already at the edge of the bed, she sat on it and reached out for Nanoha's silky hair.
"I guess now you know my problem. Do you still not understand?" Fate said as she stroked the brunette's hair.
Nanoha didn't answer, keeping quiet.
"It has been years since I've felt this way, perhaps before we entered high school. When we first met… do you still remember? I was being bullied since I was the new-nerd-in-town." Fate gave a lowly chuckle at that, "You came suddenly, chasing them a way. I was saved. You decided to be my bodyguard, saying things like it was your father's job and you know what you're doing. Being a bodyguard, you decided to stick with me always, and eventually, we became best friends. Being best friends, it was a given that you'd meet my brothers too and as we grow up, we three became close to each other. Entering junior high, we met Alisa, Suzuka, Hayate and her cousins, Signum, Shamal, Vita, and Zafira. I was having fun with all of you, really."
Nanoha still didn't move, just listening at what was being said. "But during high school, when I realized that I have romantic feelings for you, it was awful." Fate clutched as her chest as if in pain, "I've never felt so disgusted with myself. But then, I was still able to be a friend, just a friend and I was still contented."
Fate stood up, walked to face Nanoha, and kneeled in front of her. Nanoha cried silently when she saw the agony in Fate's eyes. "Why? Why did you have to fall in love with my brother? Being your friend and his brother, all I could do was cheer you on every damn time you'd tell me you like him. I knew you'd be in safe hands if it was my brother so I couldn't find any flaws in him, just little things and nothing major… You… I wanted what was best for you… but Nanoha… I've reached my limit."
Nanoha didn't mutter any sound when Fate suddenly embraced her. "I want you Nanoha… I did this because I love you. I love you…"
Fate continued muttering her feelings for the brunette. Nanoha continued crying silently, letting the blonde embrace her like her life depended on it. What she feels, she didn't voice them out. This night was for Fate, she decided to help her from the very start, she just didn't know what kind of help the blonde needed that led things to what it was. Tomorrow, she'll set things right. She'll tell the blonde how she felt betrayed. She'd tell her how a monster she'd been. Tomorrow, she will make sure to cut off everything with Fate for she hates her too much to continue being her friend from that day onwards.
*- Yes, that's the end. You can hate me now. But let's all be happy, this is not yet done... It's NanoFate, they need to be together forever. We all NEED to see what will happen in the next one. But beware, I still don't know how I'll end it.
Now, for this story… This one has been circling in my mind for a year already. I was going to write a fic based on Please Save My Earth but realized that I still have other fics to finish so I want a short one. Yeah, I'll be using this same theme in another fic in the future. I think I know too few animes that has the rape uhh…themes? But of course, I don't like explicit ones (Yes, I'm one of those people who doesn't like explicit scenes, I jump them when I read M-rated fics.)
For the pairing, I was jumbling the thoughts of which characters I'm going to use, is it Nanoha and Fate, or Natsuki and Shizuru. It's such a very hard choice you see. I love NanoFate but I definitely love ShizNat too! Those two are just the best pairings ever! (in terms of Yuri) Finally, I chose NanoFate. It is because there are too few NanoFate fics out there compared to ShizNat, we need more of them right?
So yes, thanks for reading. Not beta-ed, doesn't know how it works.. If you didn't like it, please don't flame. If you love it, you can give me a review if you want to. I would really love that.*wink* -*