Disclaimer: I do not own Black Swan, or Nina. I apologize if this is a little OOC, but who really knows how Nina was feeling during the movie or at the end. This is only my second story.
"Bless me father, for I have sinned…"
I guess this is; this is how it's supposed to end isn't it?
I did what they said. Play the role, be the swan. Be the princess….No be his new "little princess" and their Swan Queen.
I was always something to everyone else wasn't I?
"Sweet Girl" to my mother
"Little Princess" to Thomas
"Whore" to Beth
"Competition" to Veronica
And to Lily…. To be honest I have no idea what I was to Lily. Maybe a friend, maybe a foe. Hell, maybe she was in my head.
Yes, I said hell, perfect, prudish, frigid, sweet little Nina Sayers said hell, a swear. I wasn't perfect. They didn't see it, they fed off of it. I was tearing at the seams faster than my pointe shows.
Couldn't they see what I saw? I knew Lily wasn't out to get me, I knew I was falling apart. They call it projection. Putting everything in you onto someone else. So all the passion, lust, and "in pureness" I felt became a whole other person. I guess it became… Lily.
I'm not good at long goodbyes. I feel no remorse for this. I was perfect. For once I did something for me and now everyone knows it because
My name is Nina Sayers.
I felt it. Perfect. I was perfect.
And now I am finally free.