A/N: So this my first story EVER written! So I m not expecting much just wanted to try something that has been on my mine for a while. If I get enough people reading it I ll continue with my story but if not I ll see what happens. Just remember this is the first chapter, there s plenty of drama on its way and this will be a HEA :D

Disclaimer: SM owns the characters

It has been a week since Renee's death, but it feels like it was just yesterday. If only I had listened to her and stayed home like she asked she would still be alive today, but no, I didn t listen and now she's dead and I m stuck in Forks with my dad, Charlie. It has been about a year since I ve last seen Charlie but spoken many times with him on the phone. We've talked about visiting again but me with school, I never had the time and now I m here living with him.

I was unpacking my stuff when I heard someone knock at my door.

"Bella?" said Charlie.

"Yeah" I muttered no really in the mood for company.

"Just wanted to see if you had everything settled in here"

"I'm good, just putting my clothes away"

"K well if you need anything you know where to find me"

I just nodded hoping he would go away. When I heard the door closed behind me I knew I was in the clear and pulled out the joint Irena gave me from my luggage. Irena has my best friend in Phoenix since we started pre- school, and she"s always had my back but know she's thousands of miles I miss her.

Now don't get me wrong I've never touched the stuff but she gave it to be as a stress reliever after my mom died, and right now I need some relieving. So I grabbed my lighter and headed towards the open window, so the smell wouldn't be caught in my room. I stared at the joint thinking of how shitty this past week has been, and realized that I haven't cried over my mom's death yet. What kind of daughter am I that causes her owns mothers death and doesn't shed a single tear for her? I just want to feel something besides all this guilt I feel and disappointment that I have caused, even though everyone says it s not my fault, but I know their just trying to make me feel better.

So I light the joint the way I've seen Irena do many times and bring the joint to my lips. I inhaled as much as I could and tried to hold it in but fond myself coughing instead. After a few more attempts I started to get the hang of it and was feeling rather good, I can t believe I never tried this shit man was I missing out.

By the time I was done with the joint it was already time for dinner, wow was that perfect timing cause man was I hungry. As I started to walk towards my door I caught myself in my mirror and realized I had a big ass smiled smacked across my face with bloodshot eyes. I can t go out there like this Charlie will know what I ve been up to. I quickly ran to my bag and got my clear eye and just as I finished I heard Charlie knock at my door.

"Yeah" I called out.

"Dinners ready, hope you don t mind pizza?"

"Pizza sounds GREAT! Ill be down in a minute" I say this as I hear my stomach growling.

"Hurry before it gets cold" he said as I heard him walking down stair.

Mmmm cold pizza didn't sound to bad right about know next to some mojos maybe some chicken oohhh and some hot wings.

I quickly snapped out of it as I felt my stomach trying to eat it self. Before I go downstairs I have to get rid of the left over smell so I went towards my closet and pulled out the febreze I had in there and started to spray my whole room. I started to choke as I realized I put way too much, Ahhh did this shit taste nasty. As my coughs slowly died I realized that I still felt good and that I still had that stupid smile on my face and it was all thanks to Irena, but reality hit me then, Irena was no longer with me how the hell am I suppose to get more, she only gave me three joints!

Ok so I start school on Monday meaning I have three days with only two joint, I m sure this small town has suppliers here; all I have to do is search at school, and search I will...

This is just the beginning there's a lot more to the story and ofcourse other chapter will be longer, so hopefully you stick around to find out how Bella's life turns up and if she finds her supplier :D