(Edited and revised as of 4th Nov 2006)
Well, I reposted as I have made some significant changes in the chapters. Hopefully, you guys will find the story less confusing and less angsty in doing so. I would love to have some feedback on how the story fares now. Chapter 6 is under construction at the moment. I will release it ASAP. Thanks a lot, in advance.
Author's Note:
Hey, here's my first fanfiction, so I would greatly appreciate your reviews and comments. Warning: This story contains a fair amount of angst, so it is definitely not for the faint-hearted.
By the way, there is a song dedicated to this story, and that is none other that t.A.T.u's very own Gomenasai itself. It will be most favourable to read this story together with the song playing, but well, not entirely necessary.
Disclaimer: I do NOT own Inuyasha (as much as I wish), because if I did, Shippou, the cute little kitsune would be the main character. -Grins widely-. Neither do I own t.A.T.u.'s Gomenasai.
Chapter 1: Gomen Nasai
"Inuyasha…" She whispered so softly, it was barely audible. Something in her stomach hissed angrily.
She had peered through the bushes, just to see an intimate scene unfolding before her. A jolt reverberated in her heart. All these while, she had deluded herself, she had pretended; all these while, she had suffered quietly. All these while, she believed in him…... She clung on to the little hope that perhaps, perhaps, her intuition was wrong.
What I thought wasn't mine
In the light
Was one of a kind,
A precious pearl
"I'll remain as a hanyou for you for a little while more…" He once told her. But why was he being unfaithful now, dashing her hopes and the flawless and perfect image of him?
Why must this happen? Was she wrong? Was it just a one-sided, mutual love? Had she been so shameless to have stolen Inuyasha from Kikyou? Was it her fault for all of this mess?
A little teardrop slid down her luminous porcelain face. She clutched the perfect Shikon no Tama pearl tightly. Finally, making up her mind, she did what any ordinary, heartbroken girl would do.
When I wanted to cry
I couldn't cause I
Wasn't allowed
She turned and ran. Running away from reality.
She was the third party. She was the barrier between Kikyou and Inuyasha. She was so selfish…
If my disappearance can bring about a much-awaited reunion, why not fulfill their inner desires and wishes? Why not back out of this meaningless love triangle?
It was her fault, her disillusion after all, right?
"Inuyasha…do you…do you…" Kikyou whispered, bidding her time. "Love Kagome?"
She secretly wished those words did not tumble out of her mouth. She glanced at his face for a reaction, and expression of any sort that will not confirm her of her doubt in him. She met with a blank face.
The hanyou's ears twitched. Why do girls have this knack of asking such hypothetical questions?
"…"
He managed nothing more but an unintelligible grunt.
For a moment, he thought he saw a sprig of a tear materializing in her beautiful almond eyes. She felt betrayed, betrayed by her own reincarnation, betrayed by her feelings for Inuyasha.
"I-I… love you, Kikyou…" He managed to mutter slowly. He reflected upon how many times she was there for him and how she had captured his heart. How could he so rashly cast aside their periods of romance, their memories?
Out of her teary eyes, she managed a tiny smile.
He smiled back. Kikyou, in ethereal beauty, looked stunning when she smiled. He was glad that was over.
Her heart ached so greatly that it must have been ripped out of her chest by such an overwhelming force: Jealousy. She felt cheated. Cheated of her love.
She was trapped in a maze, uncertain and unsure of what to do. The only exit, the only solution to this messy, entangled love triangle was in front of her, yet, she felt so miserable, so heartbroken to just think of it.
A life without Inuyasha, without Shippou, Sango or Miroku…Her family.
She had come so far, she had braved through fire and water with them. They had already, unknowingly, occupied a special place in her heart, one that was not able to be erased off with just a few words, one not to be lost and forgotten through the passage of time.
Can she just abandon them?
'Inuyasha, gomen nasai. I was foolish to have believed that we shared a future together. We were poles apart. We should never, never have met. I was selfish, I was so gullible.
Gomenasai for everything
Her head throbbed, and she felt as though she was fighting an epic battle with migraine. The scorching sun poured mercilessly on her, enveloping her, devouring her. Where was she? There were trees, and more trees ahead of her beside her, around her. Where could she run to?
Her body was raw and weak from the endless running; it was overwhelmed by fatigue and melancholy.
'Inuyasha, you were meant to be with Kikyou. You were meant for this demon-slaying, peaceful era. I was not. I am really sorry to have disrupted you, your life and fairytale fantasy with Kikyou. Naraku has been slain. It is time for me to leave too. I will remember you, and all the sweet and tough moments together. I hope you would cherish Kikyou too.
Gomenasai, I know I let you down
All around her, the trees seemed like frightful slime-like monsters bruising her with its prickly branches and razor-sharp leaves, thrashing her and tripping her. The dusty ground seemed like a passage to hell, where demons and spirits roamed, where if she fell, she would be burnt by the fiery fires of Hell.
'You were a great fighter, a loyal and awesome friend to me. But I cannot bear this anymore. I should have been more sensitive, and more intelligent.
Her throat was parched and dry like sandpaper such that she could barely feel her saliva. Gradually, her surroundings began to whirl and revolve madly in her brain that she could no longer had the ability to pinpoint where she was…
'But I was not…The only thing I can do now is to leave you, as 'time will heal all wounds' and hopefully, it would erase off all of my memories with you. I sincerely wish you would find happiness and solace in Kikyou, with my departure. Gomenasai.'
Gomenasai till the end
I never needed a friend
Like I do now
With that silent little prayer, she allowed herself to be sucked into that vortex of darkness…
She slumped onto the floor.
In her semi-consciousness, she had felt something prickling against her fair skin, something icy and inhumane… In the background she had vaguely heard a maniacal laughter echoing in her ears; it was a laughter that chilled her bones, a laughter that was not quite sane…
OoOooOoOooOoOooOoO
The creature laughed inwardly at the miko in front of it… What an unexpected treasure! With that, it scooped her up bridal style and left dramatically. In its distorted head, a scheming plan began to take its form.
A/N: In her determination to run away, Kagome faints under the intense heat. Who is her kidnapper, and why does she have such a bad feeling about it?
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