When it Rained

I remember when it rained. It was the day when we lost him, when everything changed; when nothing was left after he died. One bullet was all it took to end the world for him and one tear was all it took to explain everything.

When blood mixed with red hair, they became one and then the rain fell, it hid the tears, it washed away the blood, it revealed the truth. No I wasn't dreaming, I was too busy crying, too busy realizing that my world had shattered like a mirror around me. There was nothing left… the murderer that killed Aya, the killer was just like Yohji, he was just like me. All the people I killed I felt went into that bullet that ended my love, that ended Aya's life. That's right he is dead, but still it couldn't have happened. The stubborn bastard would never give into a bullet; he would never let death take him from his sister, from his family of Weiß, from life.

Wash away the thoughts inside
That keep my mind away from you.
No more love and no more pride
And thoughts are all I have to do.

Why I had to ask… why did it happen? There was just no way Aya would let that bullet hit him. I was frozen, I couldn't jump in front of it, and there was nothing I could do but stand and watch as he crumbled to the ground like the shattered glass of my heart. He fell like Asuka, his eyes slipping closed before the pavement hit him. And that was it, he would never stand again, I would never be given the chance to make him smile again, I would only see it in memories, in pictures faded in age, in pictures looked at too much.

Ooo Remember when it rained.
Felt the ground and looked up high
And called your name.
Ooo Remember when it rained.
In the darkness I remain.

I remember when it rained. It was when I died inside. I raced to Aya's fallen form and fell to the ground before him. Tears fell more quickly then, as I tilted my head up to the sky to watch the rain drops escape from the sky like my tears.

"Aya!" I felt myself choke out to the sky as if I were trying to ask it why it took him away from me. That was when I no longer saw any more light, and vanished into a darkness so deep that only Aya was there.

Tears of hope run down my skin.
Tears for you that will not dry.
They magnify the one within
And let the outside slowly die.

I could still hope that there would be light even though the darkness felt so heavy and so helpless. The tears still fell like the rain drenching my skin and I knew they would never end now that my heart was lost in your death, somewhere deep in an unreachable darkness. I melted away into the puddle I had fallen into at your side. I was gone, but inside all I could do was think about Aya.

Ooo Remember when it rained.
I felt the ground and looked up high
And called your name.
Ooo Remember when it rained.
In the water I remain
Running down

Tears in my eyes blinded what I saw, but I still saw a hint of violet as eyes opened slightly. He watched me, but I couldn't tell if he even saw me. But I saw myself reflected in those distant eyes, a look I thought I'd never see in his usually constant icy gaze. These tears were for you Aya, for you to know that I loved you, I love you. I wanted to tell him, I wanted to speak my heart, but I remembered it was already lost, but I still wanted to gather up the shards for him and give them to him. How could he leave me with only the pieces? I heard soft whispered words, and all I saw was his steady gaze directed at me and no one else, nothing else around him. Then I knew what his words meant. I could never forget, but that I already knew.

"Remember…when it rained."

--Owari

"Remember When it Rained" the song/poem is by Josh Groban
-cries.- This song always makes me want to cry! I'll send it to you if you want it let me know
This is sad... too sad... Aya can't die! Never.