I hate that I don't hate that I still think about you
When I'm around I get mad happy and sick to my stomach because I can't no longer have you even tho you don't know it but you still low key got me I would swim oceans for you even tho I can't swim I'll still risk it and drown for you I know this shit ain't love but I know it holds meaning to me not sure about you even tho I would hope so somewhere in there
we were on the same page but somewhere along the pages of this book you got tired of reading so you switched it up before you reached the end and found another book that's easier to comprehend. I hated that I wanted you...still...
because I know even tho you claim the same feelings are still there I know you would never be on my level never feel what I feel...I hate how I feel because when I'm around you I hate my self for feeling what I feel...I just don't wanna feel unless you feeling the same feelings I'm feeling on a daily basis that makes me feel ill...but don't misunderstand me I always got your back I'll always find a way to keep you standing but what about me who gonna keep me floating who gonna keep me up at this point of time I don't see it being possible for me to continue to do so myself but maybe one day I'll figure it out or maybe one day you'll realize what I was all about...I don't know man I just hate that I don't hate that I still think about you...