Chapter 1: Foreign Feelings/Shevine Fanfiction
Blake realized that something was wrong with him. Something inside his body didn't work right. Every time he thought of Adam his body started to shiver, his heart started to beat faster and he got goosebumps all over his body. The last time he felt kind of like this was when he met Miranda but now the feeling was different, it was stronger, it was more intense , it was more exciting , it was adventurous and it was totally foreign. He decided to think of something different as he walked straight to his car. While reaching the car and turning on the radio he managed to think of Miranda. He was looking forward to seeing her since he hadn't seen her for about 4 weeks now. He was sure he loved her, there was no doubt he didn't love her. She was the love of his life and they had fallen in love with each other at first sight. "I love Miranda,I love her!" that's what he told himself all the time. With one last look at his mobile phone he started to drive the car. In the same moment his thoughts were interrupted by a familiar voice singing: "There you go again, there you go again making me love you!" "Dang it! What do you want from me,you cocky rockstar?!", he said as if Adam was hearing him. Blake changed the radio channel and suddenly a radio voice explained:" This is for all the people that don't confess their love. People, sometimes you have to take risks in life in order to be happy in the end. Don't be afraid and stand for your feelings, otherwise you will never be satisfied". "As if this was so easy! You are not a frickin popular star that the whole world is looking at", he was thinking. Annoyed Blake changed the channel once again and Macklemore's "Same Love" was rushing in his ears: " And I can't change,even if I tried,even if I wanted to my love,my love,my love". Blake couldn't believe what was happening right now. He thought that the whole last minutes were a joke and full of anger he turned off the radio.
After an one hour ride he finally arrived at home in Oklahoma where Miranda was expecting him passionately. They hugged, they kissed and walked into the house. Miranda said: " I missed you so much,Honey! I'm SO happy you are back!"… There was no response from Blake. He didn't seem like listening to her because he gazed into space. Miranda knew Blake long enough to see that something was wrong with him,so she asked: „ Is everything okay with you? You look so confused and undecided. Aren't you happy to see me?" " Of course I am ,babe, you know that I am! How couldn't I be? I just had a very hard day and I'm pretty tired. Let's just watch TV or something." All day long Miranda was happy about watching the movie " Deliverance" ,so Blake couldn't say no even if the movie was reminding him of Adam. Before the movie had started there was a short promo about The Voice's next season on nbc which included a bickering moment between Adam and Blake. Now Blake was sure that this was the worst day in his life. Everything, really everything reminded him of HIM. And he didn't know what was going on in his heart, he didn't mean to feel that way about Adam, but he couldn't shake it. Adam kind of sneaked up on him and he hated it! While watching the promo Miranda said smiling : " Haha, I really love your bromance! But you are still mine,aren't you?;)" She put her head on Blake's shoulder. That was when Blake couldn't shut up any more. Everything came up, all the anger the day brought to him, all the indecision he felt inside." I have to take a walk! Just continue to watch the movie. I'll be back soon." He got out of bed, rushed out quickly and shut the door with a bang. Everything went by so fast that Miranda couldn't even react. Now there she was. Left behind in her bed, all alone, without any emotion and totally startled. She wondered if she had said something wrong, but she couldn't imagine what it was.
The fresh air freed Blake's head. He walked in the dark wood, still thinking about what just had happened. Now since he could think clearly again and since he wasn't distracted by Miranda ,he realized that he had this desire to hear his voice. To hear his voice right now, In that moment. He took out his mobile, chose the number and pushed the green button.-" What's up Shelton? Why do I have the pleasure?" For a moment, that felt like 10 years for Blake, he couldn't answer. The sound of Adam's voice went through his ears, over his throat, into his chest and even into his legs,which made him tumble. He felt like his mouth was paralyzed."Shelton, Big Country, is everything okay?" Blake coughed and found back to himself. " Hey cocky rockstar, how are you boy? I just wanted to check out how my man crush is doing;)" Adam: "oh damn,Sheton, still the man crush thing? I'm fine. I'm just about to go to a bar with Behati and some friends. Watching boobs, you know what I mean;)" Blake: "I definitely know what you mean! Boob is my second name, after "2- years- in- a- row -champion" maybe ;) I wish I could come with you." Adam:" Just you wait! I'm gonna take your huge country ass down! Remember, Season 4,bitch! By the way does this mean you miss me?" Blake:" Of course I miss you. Without you there's no stupid, little person in my life that I could bicker with." Adam:" I miss you too, buddy! I truly do. But I have to leave now. The time is running. Bye, son of a bitch. Tell Miranda I'm sorry for her being your wife." Blake:" Shut up, rockstar." Blake put the mobile back into his pocket. He felt so much better now after this. Hearing his voice made him happy, made him laugh! Blake walked back to his house. Miranda was already a sleep and he lay down next to her.
The next morning when Blake woke up it was still dark outside. He had lost his sense of time so he grabbed his mobile in order to check it out. It was only 5 o'clock in the morning but there was something different that caught his attention: He got a message from Adam. It said: " Hey Ceelo,Xtina and dickhead –whereby Blake was meant by with- since I spoke to Blake yesterday I realized that I miss you guys pretty damn much and that's why I want to invite you to my home . Do you have time to visit me this weekend? I know it's pretty spontaneous but I just have to see y'all again". Blake couldn't stop from realizing that he actually was the trigger for this massage, which meant that Adam was missing him as heavily as he did. Immediately Blake answered without even asking Miranda if it was okay for her. Of course he could bring her but honestly he didn't want to bring her. He wanted to be alone with Adam. Suddenly Blake realized what he actually was thinking about." Don't be so stupid, Blake! You are a man and you love women! You love boobs and booties and alcohol!" he told himself. Alcohol was the only thing he was sure he truly loved. It was pure love without any confusion or uncertainty. He stood up taking care not to wake up Miranda and took a drink…