A/N - I wanted to inform you that these are stories/drabbles I have saved on my device and I thought I would upload them in one place to make them more organised. If you have any thoughts just let me know and I hope you enjoy reading.

Disclaimer - I don't own Teen Titans.

Saving the Beast

The animal that lurked inside him wasn't benevolent nor altruistic. It was always omnipresent and omnipotent which sometimes Beast Boy himself couldn't restrain. He could feel the beast crawling and cawing against the surface of his flesh sending slow trickles of shivers down his backbone to the ground. He could hear voices for the tyrant to realise the inner animal but Beast Boy continued to oppress the creature. The beast within was pulling and tugging at the feeble strings of his raw psyche, it was almost palpable physically – trying to make him tick, making him more vulnerable to losing his remaining sanity. He clenched and unclenched his hands trying his best to tame what was inside him but to no avail. The more effort he tried to fight back the with the animal the more it became zealous for its freedom. His efforts were futile. His hands formed into a ball and threw multiple vigorous thumps at the punching bag in front of him.

Fuck, it won't go away.

He was training alone at the Titans Tower while his other counterparts went out enjoying themselves. His best amiable friend Cyborg was visiting the Titans East while Robin and Starfire went away on a week vacation, and for Raven, she choose to stay behind and catch up with all the novels she wanted to read. He originally wanted to spend time with his beloved but called it off due signs of the beast making its presence. He didn't want the ruthless creature taking over control, again. So there he was all by himself at the training room trying to tame what was inside him.

Beast Boy narrowed his eyes in frustration. He continued to unleash his anger by punching and kicking the half beaten punching bag. The changeling couldn't understand, he was able to control what was in him when he was younger but as he grew older, the creature grew a tenacious grip with him. He pulled together many hypothesises yet with limited logical explanations. Beast Boy paused for a moment, he closed his eyes and sank into oblivion. He couldn't figure it out. Was this natural? Was this part of who he was? Or was there something wrong with his DNA? Or —

"Punching a bag all day won't help you"

Beast Boy shook his head, awoken from his trance by a feminine voice. His emerald eyes glanced over to see a small female figure - Raven. Her words pulled him out from the oblivion. A low growl escaped his lips in vexation. There was a reason to why he wanted to be left alone.

"Why are you here?" Beast Boy snarled back as he landed kicks to the punching bag.

"Because I can feel what's inside you miles away. I came to check if you're okay"

He winced inside. He'd forgot he was talking to an empath.

"It's nothing Raven I'm fine"

Raven sauntered towards Beast Boy. She delicately placed her hand on his large muscular shoulder. He stopped what he was doing by her gentle touch and looked directly into her big amethyst eyes.

"It's okay Gar, just let it out, there's no one is here to judge you" Raven said calmly.

'Let him out?'

He looked at her with great repugnance. What was she thinking? To have something he can't hegemonies yet alone comprehend out in the world was bad enough. But the idea to come from Raven who he truly loved and adored was even worse. Her out of all people knew him more than the others. The thought of realising the creature flooded his body with pure abhorrence. It was very facile to 'let it out', he could give in and let his beast out by the click of his fingers. Let the critter have its way with anything and anyone. But she had no idea how many conflicted battles he had to endure to keep himself whole and refined.

"You don't know what you're saying Raven" he managed to mutter under his breath. "You should stay away from me right now" he continued bitterly.

"No stop being incredulous and accept the truth Gar. You have to let him out! I can feel it itching inside you - begging for it to be realised don't you think I know that?"

"If you know then you surely must understand why I can't. I don't want this thing inside me out again like last time. Not now not ever and ever" he replied raucously.

"You didn't harm me or anyone in fact you-"

"There's a big chasm between me harming someone and me trying to kill someone Rae" he said while rolling his eyes.

"But you didn't" pleaded Raven.

"And I don't want to be reminded of my past actions" he harshly replied.

The cold science filled the atmosphere around them. Raven looked at the large green muscular figure with concern. This wasn't the Garfield she once knew. He wasn't harsh he was gracious and understanding. Something had to be done before he truly would turn into the inner animal he thinks he could become.

"You know ever since that day you've never been the same" Raven said honestly.

Beast Boy stopped what he was doing immediately.

"What do you mean? I've always been the same!" He said defensively. He saw her eyes wander - refusing to look at him. His large hands tenderly clasped her small face which she was forced to look at directly. "Look at me Rae" He shot her a puzzling look. His eyes and lips were scrunched and tired to search for answers in her bright amethyst eyes.

"You just - you've always seem to neglect me and when I try to help you just brush me off… I sometimes think if you don't love me anymore" the words instantaneously escaped her throat.

Wait. Did he hear that right? 'I sometimes think if you don't love me anymore'. He looked at her face, eyes widened. He could feel the beast itch, scratching at the surface of his soul, making his skin crawl. The voices again begging for it to be free. He squeezed his eyes shut, if only there was a way to get rid of it.

"Rae I do love you" he said trying his best to thwart the brute.

"Why don't you manifest your love for me. Do you know how much I longed to be this close to you again?"

The changelings nostrils flared. "Manifest my love for you? I already do!"

"You don't!" She cried. "Why can't you be the same Beast Boy I knew five months ago? The one who tried to make me laugh. The one who held and cared for me… Now you just give me the cold shoulder and avoid me... "

It took Beast Boy a couple of seconds to grasp what Raven truly wanted to say. It was her secret way of saying she wanted to be loved again. He had never realised all this time he was neglecting her in which he thought he was keeping her safe from the critter. He just didn't want to repeat the past with her or to anyone vulnerable. It was why he kept himself alone during the passing months so he could learn how to control it but to none of his avail.

"Rae… I just don't want to hurt you… I'm afraid of the animal I might become.. I-I just can't control whatever is inside me"

"If you think I'm afraid I'm not, I know you won't hurt me, even if you were about to you then somehow stopped yourself. I think you know how to stop but you are just beating yourself up. Your negativity and anger is feeding the animal inside you."

He leaned in closer, both of their noses touching each other's. She had a point. He had brought warmth and light to her life and helped her fought her own inner battles. She didn't want Garfield to suffer as she apprehended what he was going through, she wanted to save him like he rescued her.

"Rae I think your right" he said smiling. "I'm sorry I shouldn't have brushed you away I just don't know what was-"

She interrupted him "Next time if something is up we will talk to each other about it, promise?"

"Promise" he confirmed as he gently placed a kiss on her forehead.