Author's Notes ~ Hello again! Here I am with another story, which will be quite unusual. I'm planning on doing another fic soon, and you can take a poll on if. Other than that, I probably won't post much on here, but who knows. If I get lots of feedback, which is much appreciated, then maybe I'll post more on here. Once again, I love getting reviews, it motivates me to write and helps me become better at it. Have a good day! ʕ•ᴥ•ʔ ~ Rey-Skywalker19
Like Padmé, Anakin didn't keep many things from his wife, but there were a few. They hadn't been that important, so he didn't tell her them, ever. Not like he had much chance before everything went all downhill so fast. He had kept his promise to himself not to tell her, though. There were five in particular that he never wanted to tell her.
One:
He cried every night the first few months of his training. When she knew him as a boy, he was brave and had even won a pod race. As an older padawan, he wanted to seem grown up and mature to impress her. He was the Chosen One, and that's why he never told her. That's also why he cried. Being rejected by the Jedi made him want to constantly impress them. If he didn't get something right on the first try, and immediately stressed him out. Not only that, but he missed his mom. She was so calm and caring all the time, and he loved her. It hurt to be away from her.
Two:
Him and Obi-Wan weren't always like brothers. In fact, the first year or so of Anakin's training was pretty rough. Obi-Wan was almost mad at him for being his Master's padawan. He also kind of blamed him for the death of Qui-Gon. Obi-Wan knew he shouldn't, but it was so much more easier to find a scapegoat. So that's what he did. Anakin felt like his Master and all the Jedi didn't want him, and he figured that was why Obi-Wan was so cold towards him. All it took was Anakin running away one day and confessing how he felt toObi-Wan for him to understand how he was making his padawan feel.
Three:
He watched her every time she was on the HoloNet. He was a teenager, and the only girls he could ever interact with were old Jedi women. He had a huge crush on her, so he watched her every time her saw her while skimming the channels or he heard that she was going to be on. He thought that she may find it borderline stalker, so he never told her about that. As he would say, it was a darker time in his childhood, the times of being a teenager.
Four:
He never had "the talk" with anyone. When ever he brought up changed in his body or he babies were made, Obi-Wan got all red. He wouldn't be able to speak and he would swear profusely. One time Anakin found some book about that down in the Jedi Archives and read it. He was so disgusted for weeks. But then he figured something out, he could ask what that all meant it make Obi-Wan embarrassed. One day Obi-Wan gave him some ridiculous answer that babies come from outer space and land in their mothers' tummies. With all the bad answers Obi-Wan had given him, it was a wonder he knew how to do anything on his wedding night.
Five:
Anakin really had known what happened to baby in his dreams. He dreamed of their child dying while being born, but he didn't want to tell Padmé that. He didn't want to frighten her, and he hated that he had to frighten her by telling her that she died, but he couldn't tell her about their child. Part of it was because of frightening her, the other was because he couldn't believe it. It was horrible enough that he was going to lose his wife, but his child too. He couldn't come to terms with it. Maybe that's why he was so desperate to save her. If he saved her, then he could save his child too. Of course, in the end he couldn't even save Padmé.