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A/N: I'm not sure how many of these drabbles/oneshots there will be. I have a lot saved already and more will probably be added to those. Most of them will be written for the Fanfiction Drabble Challenge over on Facebook, but some may just be oneshots that pop into my head along the way. This first one leans towards J/C and is set around 'Resolutions' from Chakotay's POV.
What hurts the most was being so close
Having so much to say, watching you walk away
Never knowing what could have been
I'm not saying that loving you was what I was trying to do
- 'What Hurts the Most' by Jo O'Meara
The worst part of the New Earth situation? It wasn't the fact that the captain wouldn't admit defeat while he, on the other hand, was trying to set up a new home as best he could. It wasn't even the fact that he'd been able to hold her close during the plasma storm only to have her take three steps back and put up a force field so she wouldn't have let go of her control. No, it was the moments before they finally left the peaceful place that had been slowly becoming a home.
In that brief instant he'd caught her eyes and saw, for the first time, the evidence that she might just miss what they'd shared over the last few weeks. He saw her fondness for the little garden she'd started, the affection she'd developed for that stubborn monkey, and the slight disappointment at knowing she'd have to go back to wearing a uniform.
But over all that, he also saw a glimmer of regret that he could swear was aimed at him. It was gone just as soon as it leaked through her barrier, but it had been there. And he wondered...what would have happened if Voyager had waited just another week to come back? Or what if Voyager hadn't come back at all?
That was the worse part. The not knowing, yet having a feeling in the pit of his stomach that they could have grown much closer. Then they beamed back to Voyager...and she was once again Captain Janeway...
And he would never know what could have been.
A/N: More coming up!