Allenby Beardsley: Hey everyone!  Well, early this morning, about 12:45AM to be exact, I started typing up this idea I had for a fic…er, poem I mean.  Anyway, it's all from Allenby's POV, but…it isn't a D/A poem.  Really, really sad.  Just for a side note, ai means love, so the title translates into "Love, Just On My Love", the Orphen opening theme.  This was based on what happened to me around 10:40-something last night.  So, I guess in a small way, this is a dedication to my love Domon Kasshu and his girlfriend Yuni.  I wish you two both all the happiness in the world.  Well, this is long enough, so I'll just hurry up with the disclaimer and get out of your hair.  I DO NOT OWN G GUNDAM OR ORPHEN AND I NEVER WILL!!!  Is that good enough?  Oh yeah, please, please review!!!…at least one? "Ai, Just On My Love"

When I first saw him,

I wish I could say that there was this spark that went off

And I knew that meant we were destined for each other

Or that I didn't feel anything at all

But I didn't…

When he first spoke to me,

I wish that he would have said those three words

Or tell me that I would never had a chance with him

Because he was in love with her

But he didn't…

When she first came,

I wish she would have just said she his soul mate

Or that she didn't love him at all

And actually mean it

But she didn't…

All my life,

I was played with, used,

Manipulated and carved

And created as how others wanted me to be

Then he came…

It all started innocent enough

He smiled and came and played

But, it was when he chased after me

That I began to fall

I didn't mean for it to happen

It all just came about so quickly

I had only wanted a friend

But I desired something more

Too bad he didn't…

If only he wasn't so nice

Maybe I would have never chased after him

If he only hadn't smile at me

Maybe I wouldn't had found him cute

If only he wasn't so strong

Maybe I would never had fell in love with him

Or maybe Fate is cruel and just plain sick

And this was all some game that was always meant to be played

It seems like that sometimes…

He used to hold me and tell me he cared

But I knew deep down

That it wasn't me

But he was just so damn perfect, I couldn't stop

I'm not calling him a liar

For because there was that one moment

Where he was just mine

But it didn't last…

I knew she was in love with him

Any blind fool could've seen

But I loved him too

Was that so wrong?

He loved her

I could tell that too

But I was tired of being alone

And he seemed to want to be with me

But…I knew I just couldn't…

It was that day

I realized I had to let go

Even though I still loved him

I had to let him go to her

It was for true love…

I want him to be happy

And not silently wishing on the side

To be with her

So, I told him good-bye

He seemed sad, he wouldn't go

My heart was breaking

What was I thinking?

Didn't I love *him*?

And how did I love him…

I used to dream of us together

Sometimes married

Sometimes with a couple of kids

But those were only dreams

She was sweeter than me

She was prettier than me

Something told me in my soul

That they were meant to be

Now that he is gone

By on my love, I shall carry on

I promised him that if he ran to her

That I would find another

But it still made me cry to watch him leave…

Ai, just on my love

I let him flee

Ai, just on my love

I let him be free

Ai, just on my love

I let him be with her

Ai, just on my love

I let him be happy forever