Chapter 1- A Broken Heart Beats On
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:3 (I'm supposed to be writing Chappy 28 on MCWaMB right now, but I really wanna get to this, as I've hit an impasse there... .-.
EDIT: Okay, finished the stuff! :) I just thought it out a bit better.
Blegh. Must do another stupid disclaimer...
DISCLAIMER: I do not own Gumi, Piko, Miku, Rin, Kaito, Miki, Oliver, or any other of the characters. I only own Nemanon, Gumi's last name in this series, and the plotline. This is based off of 'My Crush Was a Monster Boy' by Gumi Megpoid.
Enjoy.
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The low, periodic beeping.
It continues.
Like my heart.
It continues to beat, but it's broken.
This machine, old, cracked, filthy...
...still works.
Like it's supposed to.
But it doesn't have any of its former glory.
Like my heart.
It's just blankly going on in hopes of shorting one day and breaking for good.
Like my heart.
My eyes shut, flashing the bloody, heart-breaking scene that happened last night.
I honestly blame myself for it all.
After I'd started wailing, the police sirens had begun to sound somewhere. I'd felt numerous hands on me, murmurs of pointless, empty words.
I can't run anymore.
It was because I ran that this happened.
It's all my fault.
I remember the last day of summer... what, three months or so ago?
I've lost track.
I remember feeling like this, blank and empty.
What's the point of going on?
I don't see one...
..Unless it's to amend for what I've done.
Then, the door to the room opens, revealing Miku, Rin, and Kaito. Miku's got these green flowers that she calls 'Mithakias', or, as it sounds like, 'Mythahkeys.'
Apparently she made them herself.
Rin, wearing her lavender rose necklace, is carrying some yellow roses. Kaito, who's last in, is holding a few lavender flowers.
I smile weakly before dropping back into blank emotionlessness.
Miku sighs and plops into the chair next to me.
"Gumi, you need to stop beating yourself up. If I have to, I'll put you in reddish violet," she threatens. The color, for some reason, clashes with my hair so horribly, it made someone who was on the other side of the shop scream.
And it's not an idle threat.
I sigh, but I don't reply.
"Here," Rin says quietly. She takes all of their flowers and sets them on the table next to the bed.
I stare. Within Miku's Mithakias is a single, pure white daisy.
Suddenly, before my eyes, it begins to darken. It goes from white to black within moments, before dissolving into ashes, which vanish.
I blink, then realise I was just imagining it.
Or it was a hallucination.
Then, Kaito sits down on the empty bed, falling onto it with a groan.
"Mii-chan, let her be. She's got her boyfriend on the bed, because he was chasing her, and she's going to blame herself. The more you push, the less likely she'll come out."
"How do you know?"
"Because, I tried to do it to a friend once. She was just devastated. Her mom and her sister had just died, like, the previous night. They'd gotten hit by a drunk driver because she asked for them to come pick her up. She blamed herself, and maybe a portion of the blame was on her. But there shouldn't be idiots driving drunk on the road, so the driver who hit them got a huge part of the blame, if not most of it. It took her months to recover, and I'd just decided to let her be. She recovered really fast, even if she wasn't the same."
"Is it... Mayu?"
"No, this was IA. Her mum, Miziki, and her sister, Luka, had died. She still had Lily and Miriam, though. Miriam wasn't a sister, just a close friend. I could see that you were about to ask."
"Wait... Lily? That's my mom."
"Lily and Mizzi. Nemanons, the both of them. Stubborn. I can see why you have it. Anyways, Mayu wasn't even born then. She's supposed to be around your guys' age right now, too. And her mum was Galaco, not Mizzi. And I'll be surprised if she turns out bad, what with Leon as her dad."
"Miziki's my grandma, and she's dead, isn't she?"
"No, she's still burning the midnight oil. Damn strong, too. Nearly killed me when I knocked on her door." Rin snorted.
"More like tortured you. She totally did this awesome set of moves, ninja style, and Kaito looked like this huge idiot. She couldn't believe it was him."
"Wait, you went to Miziki without me?" Then, Rin looked away and put on a highly innocent expression, whistling in a high pitch. Kaito flushed and looked down.
"Well, no wonder you nearly got killed, only I'm allowed on premises nowadays." Kaito blinked, then groaned and slammed his head against the empty nightstand by the empty bed.
"I didn't ask you because you would have killed me slower."
"Honey, I brought you back from the dead. Forget it, I'd torture you, make sure not to kill you, and hide your blood in a bathtub." He shuddered, Rin giggled, and Miku smiled cruelly, making Kaito pale and Rin burst out laughing.
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I stood by the mirror, looking in.
It was the first time I'd really looked at my reflection in weeks.
My eyes were hardened, almost cold. Their blue parts looked like crystal-hard sapphires, and the black areas looked like bottomless pits.
My hair was straight, dull, limp, a deeper shade of green than it had been last year. It was a bit longer, but not much.
I touched one of the scars by the corner of my right eye. it looked like a teardrop.
I touched, one by one, every scar on my body.
I counted exactly one hundred sixty eight.
It was almost sad.
I touched my worn headband, which looked even more realistic than ever, having lost of little cuts and scratches.
Somewhere in my face, I read the general expression of quiet insanity.
Somewhere.
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