Loving You
Loving you was the strangest feeling. Was it love? I'm not sure anymore. Thinking about this now is strange..But I do think it was love or else why would I do that?
It all started when I saw you before the war. I followed Grimmjow out of Las Noches to see what he was up to. Aizen asked me to. I stayed back and watched, not wanting to do bothersome things.
I saw one of his fraccion preparing to attack that annoying orange hair boy. I was surprised to see you step in. It was then that I seemed to get interested in you. You fought him with your pure white sword and beautiful dances.
After the fraccion's defeat, I left. I decided that I wanted you. I began traveling to the human world more just to see you. A glimpse in your daily life made me want to see you more and more often.
It was strange. I felt a connection to you. Why? Was it because I thought you would understand how I feel? How lonely I am? Did I think you could ease the pain? It doesn't matter anymore.
It was that night. I saw you with him. He was holding your hand. You were smiling. My hands began to shake with rage. How can he touch you? How dare he make you smile? You were suppose to be like me. You were suppose to be alone.
I killed him. His orange hair was soaked red. His clothing torn. His body looked like a broken doll's. You had tears streaming down your face. Now you were alone. Now you were just like me.
Screaming at me you took out your sword and tried to cut my throat. Stupid woman. I easily pushed your sword away. You knew I was stronger. You knew what I was capable of. Once your back was against the wall I took whats mine. I took your lips by force. I put all my feelings into that kiss. My hands held yours, something I longed to do for so long.
I could never have you. Not when I killed him, not even when I threaten you. You would always belong to that boy. Now I stand here. Blood stained clothes. Matted hair. Your pretty neck snapped in my hands
Angsty oneshot due to request. I hope I didn't do too bad.