Here's the continuation of On the Sea of Emotions!
I have decided to put Frozen Hearts on an even longer hiatus, sorry for those who wanted more, I just don't have the will to write it for a while. :( Sorry
I wanted to say that after this chapter the story will be Ziggs' POV until I say other. So yeah, we get to see inside Ziggs' mind.
As usual, rated M for later chapters, and that yes, it is a pairing story between two males, that should be obvious since this is a continuation of another story. (If you have not read On the Sea of Emotions, you really should, NONE of this would make sense if you don't read it.)
Other than that, here it is, and I hope you enjoy it, it's a somewhat recap chapter, and do expect more of this to come!
"Ziggs…" I said quietly as I sat down and placed my head in my arms. I couldn't believe what he had done.
"Damn it!" Ziggs yelled loudly into the air. He had anger in his voice, and it scared me to think that he could get as angry as he was. Ziggs was loving, adorable, caring, he wasn't the monster I was seeing before my eyes at the current moment. Ziggs got up from the table and ran into the house in a hurry. I could hear the silence around the table through my sobs. A nice dinner ruined by such a stupid argument.
"Are you going to be okay?" Poppy asked quietly as I felt a hand awkwardly rub me back. She tried her best to comfort me, but since Poppy wasn't the best at empathy, it was relatively awkward for her. I nodded my head in my arms, still sobbing. I felt heartbroken at Ziggs' actions. How could he do such a thing? I quickly looked up from my arms to the people around me. They were staring at me. I got up from the table in a rush and ran into the house. I wanted to be away from everyone, I felt like a terrible person for ruining such a nice dinner. I turned left at the intersection into the hall with the stairs. I hoped I wouldn't see Ziggs as I went up to his bedroom… Seeing him right now would break my heart more than it already was, I didn't want to be hurt more than I was.
I turned left at his bedroom door after going up the stairs. Once I walked in through the door, Ziggs passed my shoulder as he left the room. The feeling he gave off was just…terrible. That's the only way I could describe it. Ziggs seemed that he was just as hurt as I was.
I walked into the bedroom and sat on the bed, contemplating what to do next… Ziggs was just as hurt as I was, probably more. Not only was it his emotions and heart that was hurt, but it was pride. Ziggs' pride was the ultimate thing for him, and it came second to his love for me.
I knew what I was going to do. I couldn't stay here, I knew that. Ziggs and I didn't want to be near each other for the moment, and I didn't want to stay here for the moment. I got off the bed and down on the floor and looked under the bed for my suitcase that had brought all my clothes here. I slid it out from under the bed and propped it open. I got up and made my way to the dresser where I began to pour every article of clothing from the dresser as fast as I could. I stuffed all the clothes into my suitcase, not caring if they got wrinkled or messed up. I wanted to get out of here for the moment, and I didn't want to be near here. I closed the suitcase and smashed it down, trying to get the lock to lock. I took a big breath as I stood up with my suitcase in hand. How would I slip out unseen? The livingroom was occupied, people were still in the backyard. I looked around the room, almost like it would hold an answer to my escape. I looked over to the glass doors that led out to the balcony.
The balcony! I could get out from there, no one would see me. I quickly ran to the glass doors and slid them open as quick as I could. I went out onto the balcony, the pre-sunset sunlight hitting me. I tossed my suitcase off the balcony and studied the space underneath me. I could climb down from the poles that held up the red balcony. I propped myself up on the ledge of the balcony and slowly began to get down from the balcony's ledge onto the giant pole that held it up. I shimmied down it, not wanting to fall and hurt myself. My hands ached while I did it, it wasn't something that I usually did, and I hadn't done much physical activity in a while…
Once I was off the pole and onto the welcome mat on the door, I took my suitcase in hand and began to walk off into the massive fields in front of the house.
"Where are you going?" A voice said behind me. I turned around. Tristana was at the door. I hadn't seen her previously.
"Anywhere but here," I said to her, then it hit me. Tristana would gladly take me in. "Maybe your place?" I said, hoping that she'd say yes. Tristana was always happy to take anyone in.
"Yeah, sure, but why?" She asked me, curious.
"Because I don't want to stay here, and Ziggs probably doesn't want me here either…" I said to Tristana who nodded.
"Alright. I guess, just get there as quick as you could. If I'm not there, there's a key under the door mat." She said to me, I let out a small smile.
"Thanks." I said to her and began walking back to the fields. Tristana didn't say anything as I began walking towards Bandle.
"I'm sorry Ziggs…" I whispered as I walked away from the house.
I felt guilty.
Ziggs' POV.
I ran into the house as fast as I could. The sudden rush of emotions was overwhelming, anger, guilt, despair, lament, hurt…
How could I have done what I did? Toss the charm like it was some broken bomb? It was in the moment, and I couldn't stop myself once I stopped. I felt bad for doing what I did.
I turned left at the intersection of the hall and quickly made my way up the stairs and down the hall into my room, tears building up in my eyes. I never liked crying, I saw it as a useless feature that humans and yordles had, mainly since it made you feel weak and distraught. I began to let a few tears come out of my eyes. I hated this feeling so much. They made me feel useless. I sat down on my bed and let the tears stream from my face.
I hated this feeling! I slashed my arms in front of me like I was hitting something. I hated feeling helpless. I let my body fall on the bed as I began to sob into it. I didn't want this… I wanted Rumble and I to be happy, to be up here kissing, hugging, cuddling as everyone else filtered out of the house. I heard rumbling as someone came up the stairs. It could only be one person…
I sat up as quickly as I could from the bed and wiped the last of my tears out of my eyes. I began walking out the door, hopefully I wouldn't have to run into Rumble. As I walked out of the doorway Rumble walked in through it, and our shoulders touched as we passed each other. Rumble's face look liked a mess…like he was hurt and dead. I began walking down the hall and down the stairs and through the hall intersection down to my office. This was my sanctuary whenever I needed to get away from other things. I went into my brightly colored office and sat down at my desk. I lifted up the phone and dialed a phone that I knew by memory as best as I did. I needed someone to talk to, and this person would be enough for me.
"Hello?" The voice on the other side said, sounding rushed.
"Heimerdinger? Yeah, it's me, Ziggs. Sorry if I called you at a bad time." I said to Heimerdinger. 'Bad time' was almost always, Heimerdinger always seemed to be doing something. He rarely had time to talk.
"You did get me at a bad time, but I can talk. What did you want to talk about?" He asked me. I could hear something 'brrr' and 'ding' in the background.
"Well…I just needed someone to talk to…Rumble and I got into a fight…" I said back. I knew Heimerdinger disliked Rumble as much as he hated Heimerdinger, but I really needed someone.
"Oh. Rumble. What happened now?" he asked me. I was shocked that Heimerdinger was showing emotion! He always seemed to act like he was an emotionless robot.
"We got into a fight over you." I said to Heimerdinger who made a 'ohhh' noise.
"How so?" He asked back, curious.
"Well, we had a yordle dinner tonight and Kennen went off and decided not to invite you to this dinner, and it created a big argument and Rumble decided to go off and take all the blame, it's a big mess." I said to Heimerdinger.
"I don't know what to say." He said back. I sighed, I knew Heimerdinger wouldn't put an effort to talk back.
"Well, I'm in a bad place right now I really need someone to talk to and you're not really being enough, sorry to be a jerk but I kind of need to go now." I said to Heimerdinger. I felt a little bit shocked that I had said that.
"Alright. I need things to do anyway." Heimerdinger said back and hung up. I scoffed. He never bothered to say goodbye. Not that I thought about it, why had I even defended him? Heimerdinger could act like a massively conceited jerk sometimes… I sighed and hung up my phone. I knew Heimerdinger wouldn't help me, so why did I call him? If anything, his call made me feel worse. I got up from my desk and took in a big breath. There was only one thing that came from that call, and it was that it soothed me a little bit. I wasn't as shaky and stressed out before, and then it call came back to me in one second.
The call had made me forget about Rumble. Panic settled in all sudden. Where was Rumble? I got up as fast as I could from the desk and ran out of my office. I went into the livingroom, which was empty. I checked the kitchen, empty too. I sighed and went upstairs, hoping that he was still up there. I went up the stairs and down the hall into my bedroom. It was empty. I sighed and got on my bed. I felt the tears being to form again. I hated this feeling! I wanted it gone, the tears, the guilt, the anger. I lay back on my bed and began to cry. I heard a knock on my door.
I turned out to be Kennen, I didn't want him to come in, but he still did. He had comforted me when he came, trying to get me to calm down, despite being hurt from everything. I didn't really want to stay like this, I wanted Rumble back.
My Rumble.
Once Kennen left the room he left me to myself. I had fallen asleep almost instantly that night, with my clothes on from the day still on.
When I woke up the bad feelings came back. Sleep had taken away all those feelings and left me happy, but now I was back in reality. I sighed and got up. I undressed myself as quickly as I could, rubbing the fur on my chest. I missed Rumble's blue-furred hands doing this for me.
I missed Rumble in general.
I put on some clean clothes and made my way downstairs. No one else was awake, so I began making breakfast for the three people still left in the house. I enjoyed cooking and it took off my mind off issues in my life, and that was especially going to be helpful with the issues going on right now. Once I had finished the breakfast I went back into the livingroom to go upstairs to the guestroom when I heard a quiet snoring. I turned my head left and saw that Kennen and Teemo had fallen asleep on the bed. They looked so peaceful and adorable together, and it just added more sadness to the issues going on in my mind. I got near them and shook them.
"Guys, wake up." I said to them as I shook them awake. Kennen opened his eyes, revealing his blue eyes. "Good morning." I said to him after turning off the TV in a quick button press.
"Good morning." Kennen said back, letting out a little yawn. He shook Kennen awake, who reluctantly woke up.
"What now?" Teemo asked with a yawn as he sat up on my red couch.
"Sorry, just that I made breakfast and everything already." I said to them.
"It's fine." Kennen said back to me.
"Man, am I hungry." Teemo said as he got up from the couch. I stayed standing in front of the TV, looking to Kennen.
"Thanks again, Kennen." I said to Kennen who smiled.
"It's nothing, although if you want Teemo and I can stay here to comfort and keep you company." Kennen said to me. That made me happy, knowing they would stay here for me. I needed people to help comfort me.
"Yes please. I'd like that." I said back. Kennen got up from the couch and we made our way into the kitchen. The breakfast was served on plates, looking really yummy and ready to eat. An awkward silence begun as we started to eat.
"Are you sure you want us to stay?" Kennen said all the sudden.
"Yes please. I won't be able to get through this alone." I said back. I knew I would heavily need their moral support.
"Alright. Just hope for the best, okay? Stay positive, it's all you can do." Kennen said to back to me. I nodded and looked past them to the window behind them. I saw a figure pass by the window, shadowing the room. I knew who it was once I saw the figure, and I swallowed loudly.
"Someone's here." I said. The doorbell rang and I got up as quick as I could to the door, my heart began pounding. I went to the door and opened it in a rush, being greeted by a crouching Caitlyn.
Why was she here?