No Control

-Alexis

Riley.

He was the boss, the one who told people what to do, then mocked them when they messed up. He was in control, and there wasn't a damn think anyone could do about it. He liked being the boss, he liked throwing insults, at whoever was there. He liked demeaning everyone around him, and he liked making sure people knew he was better then them. It was what he lived for. He was the boss, he was in control, and he liked it that way.

Except here...

Here he had no control, had no power at all. Beneath his blonde Australian he was weak, and he loved it. Here beneath him with his hands tied to the headboard, and his bum leg propped on Chase's shoulder, he wasn't in control and he knew how he looked with his head thrown back moaning,'God Yes', and the man above him chuckling,'God isn't here'. He was vulnerable in every aspect, and he loved it.

He wasn't quite sure how it started, or why it kept happening, but it didn't really matter, one drunken night led to something he hadn't ever expected, and something he didn't want to stop.

He knows it's not love that keeps it going, keeps him going back, but it is a little more then lust. A little more then want. Need maybe, but then again he doesn't want to put a title on it, afraid of what that might mean. Besides they don't spend that much time thinking about it, at least Chase doesn't.

He isn't sure why he loves submitting to Chase, he never liked submitting to anyone before, and he's never been with a guy either.
Now-a-days it's all he wants. And the biggest surprise was that it isn't Chase who comes to him every night, it's him who goes to Chase, it's him begging Chase to hurt him, to control him.

And he knows he's in too deep, knows he should run as he can. But he doesn't, he just dials the phone,

'Can You Come Over Tonight'?

And he dreads the day the answer will be 'No'.

Because he has no control, has no power to walk away.

But he knows Chase does, Knows one day Chase will walk away, and he'll be left in withdrawal, which he fears will be worse then the vicodin.

Fin.