Dear Fang,
Dylan was right. I am truly pathetic. I feel like crap too. But still, you left me, Fang. You were my best friend, the only person I trusted, and you left.
I feel like my heart broke in half and I lost one of the halves. I know this is cliché but I just feel like I need to do this. When I saw the note that you left, and I had double-check to make sure I was reading correctly, while I wanted to throw it down and cry and not believe anything.
I sit in the tree, same as the day before where Dylan suddenly kissed me. Now that you left, I'm pretty sure I will never date anyone again. Not even if you do end up coming back. Never. I don't even think I will accept you back into the Flock again. Not even if the world is safe from Erasers. Not even if you're new flock all dies and you're alone.
Dylan touches my heart in some places, but that's because he was programmed to be my other half. Jeb had told me that we need to marry and have kids. I think that this is bull. I think all of this is Bull.
I mean, Hello! I'm 15 if he hasn't noticed! I hope that he was talking about his version of the future.
Dylan's nice an all, but he's too much like me. I don't like it when he likes to make strong coffee in the morning, like me, or when we go to bed at the same time. I hate people who are like me if you know what I'm saying. It annoys me when there is someone out in the world like me. Fuck, I sound like Nudge.
It just makes me want to punch myself in the face. Or Dylan's face. But mostly your face, Fang. I want to knock some sense into your head of yours.
I just thought of something. A brilliant idea? Or a plan with a devastating fate?
What if I prove you wrong, Fang? What if I prove to you that you're not the problem? Would you come back? But...I don't think I'm strong enough to convince you.
Dylan makes me want to hit him every time he blinks or breathes. Like, GTFO.
Angel and Nudge could help me. Maybe Jeb. Well, so can Iggy but it's not going to help me when I need a partner to fight with. I don't want him to get hurt.
Fang. Why did you leave me?
That's the question that's going to remain in my head for ages.
Was I not pretty or strong enough? Well, now that you're with Maya, I guess you don't need me anymore. I guess I am just one of your old teddy bears stuck in your attic.
Maybe I was just too annoying.
When I was at a real school, people would say that I'm annoying and too bossy. They didn't know who I was though. They didn't know I was practically the mother of four kids. They didn't know the six of us had wings. They
didn't know shit. You know what they say, don't judge a book by its cover. Apparently, they all did.
I never told you this because I always thought that you knew who I was. I was wrong. Apparently, I knew nothing about you too so it evened out.
That's when Lissa the red haired wonder started to make out with you in the hallway during classes. I ignored you until we left the damn school. But still, that really pissed me off. I hope you know that.
I hate you FANG!
Fucking Jerk! Sorry, I've developed using bad words when I'm mad or in pain. I say that a lot when I'm home alone. Normally you'd be there but you're not.
Tears threaten to fall from my face but I made them go away a second ago. See that tear drop? Yeah, that's mine.
I'm not being pathetic anymore. I will be strong for my flock and Dylan [sadly] and for future people I know.
I'm not going to cry over you anymore, Fang. I will be happy for the flock. But promise me something Fang...
Fang, just return safe okay? Don't get yourself hurt, don't kill yourself, and promise me you'll make anyone who you love happy okay?
See you in twenty years. But I hope this time, you stay. Everything I said in this letter, you know I meant it. But it was just my anger talking. You should know that. But I still am pissed off at you.
So this is goodbye and I am telling this with a sad sigh and a lone tear.
Goodbye Fang, maybe I'll see you again, maybe not. Where? Who knows? Just remember my promise.
-Max
I was practically depressed when I wrote this because my bestfriend suddenly stopped talking to me. Sorry It took me so long to write something! i am so busy and I never have anytime to right anymore!
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