Just a little something I did out of boredom. One shot. Mostly Sam, with mentions of Tom. Enjoy. First casualty fanfiction so be nice. Kat xx
Dear Diary...
I can't deny it, I've fallen for Tom...and badly. I don't know what it is. I'm not the type of girl who falls in love with any man who flirts with her or has a bit of banter. I was in the army and surrounded by men for god sake! Plus Tom isn't the type I usually go for. You know; the charming, ladies man, type. I mean look at my hu...ex-husband for example: complete opposite.
It started at that festival. When I saw him hurt I just wanted to rush over and comfort him but I had to work...And it would have been embarrassing. Then later on when that paramedic, tamzin, was asking about him I felt a pang of what have been jealousy, but yet again I couldn't show it. After that he said the three words that nearly broke my heart "never at work." I could have broken down and cried but I'm Sam Nicholls and I'm made of stronger stuff.
The day my feelings got stronger was when my friend Melanie was admitted. It was a tough day; emotions running high. With her nearly loosing another baby and the unknown patient with a brain tumour. He was there for me throughout the whole day. Our flirtatious banter keeping me going. I remember in the staffroom when we were talking about my MMA and I had demonstrated on him. I felt sparks as our skin touched but knew he hadn't felt it too. But then he cancelled a date for me! It was the best feeling ever. And after a few drinks and a ridiculous game of Rock, Paper, Scissors, it happened! When we finally got round to talking about it he put it down to a drunken mistake. To me it was more than that! Way more! I felt like running away and avoiding him but I'm Sam Nicholls and it takes more than that to break me.
Halloween, that's a night I remember well. The night I fixed my heart and broke Dylan's in the process. He caught us, in the locker room. But I couldn't care less because me and tom had kissed and not been completely awkward afterwards. We went to the party with everyone else and just had a great night. I thought my life couldn't get any better. I didn't say anything though, because I'm Sam Nicholls and I'm a mystery, no one can ever know what I'm thinking or feeling.
It went well for a while. Managed to keep from the rest of the ED. Lots of things happened; Dominic came and went, Dylan left, Nick left, new nurses started etcetera etcetera. Then I suppose we just drifted apart. I had no clue where I stood. One minute he's being...well like he used to be and buying me drinks and the next he's flirting with some skinny blonde or chatting up a patient. If only he knew; had any idea how I felt. I love him but I can't tell him. Because I'm Sam Nicholls and I'm not supposed to fall in love.