Disclaimer: I do not own Torchwood. RTD does.
A/N: Hey everone. I know it's been way too long since I posted anything but I gope you people haven't forgotten me. Actually, I recently joined college and don't have a laptop here yet. We're not allowed any until October end. So until then, I only have the option of using a cyber cafe. I'll try and update Man Behind The Suits ASAP. Until then, let me know what you think about this little baby.
My picture perfect fantasy was crumbling into pieces under the pressure of reality. I closed my eyes, to cut myself off from this world where everything, every word, every sight, every sound reminded me of him. But behind my eyelids, his was the only face I could see.
He was no longer here; he'd gone, left me all alone. I couldn't see him walking around, flirting like he always did but I could feel him, following me closely wherever I went. It was as if he had become a part of me. My heart cried out his name in each beat, my breath carried his essence, my blood raced for him; his life flowed through me.
I knew I was a mess; my eyes were red, surrounded by dark circles; my face tear-stained; I didn't even remember what clothes I'd put on today. But that didn't matter, did it? He wasn't there anymore to comment on anything, to say how red was my colour; to tell me how much he liked my pink shirt. No, he was gone and I wondered if he was ever coming back.
Why had he gone? Was it because I betrayed him? Again? Or was it that he was just bored? Or maybe he found his Doctor; I'd never expected to be able to be more important than the Doctor but it still hurt to see that he chose the timelord over me.
I don't think it mattered anymore. He was gone and I was alone. It'd always be the same for the rest of my life; I'd go back home late at night, drink a beer or two and fall asleep on the couch only to wake up the next morning for work.
He was just a dream now. An immaculate dream that would never come true. My picture perfect fantasy had crumbled into pieces under the pressure of reality and that's how it would always be.