Disclaimer: Unfortunately, I do not own Harry Potter or the song Goodbye My Lover by James Blunt.

And now, without further ado, here is the first chapter. Check the note at the bottom to see what you must do to get the second chapter.

Chapter 1

Did I disappoint you or let you down?

Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?

The death toll took many people I knew, but most importantly, my fiancée. It was the final battle and we were winning. One spell went off target and hit her in the back, while she was fighting another. The last thing I saw were her beautiful brown eyes, staring at me before she died, almost accusing me of ducking instead of blocking, blaming me for her painful death.

'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,

Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.

We beat Voldemort, we had won the war, and yet I had lost everything.

So I took what's mine by eternal right.

Took your soul out into the night.

That evening, in the midst of all of the celebrations, I knew I had to go. I couldn't be around people so happy.

It may be over but it won't stop there,

I am here for you if you'd only care.

Can you see me? I'm here, waiting for my time to meet with you again. With any luck, it will be soon.

You touched my heart you touched my soul.

You changed my life and all my goals.

And love is blind but that I knew when,

My heart was blinded by you.

I've kissed your lips and held your head,

Shared your dreams and shared your bed.

I guess I should have known you were carrying our child. Every day for a week before the battle, I was in the bathroom with you as emptied what little was left in your stomach. I should have guessed, and kept you away from the battle. If only I had known. You were so determined to fight! I think you already knew, and that was why your mother had been so vehement in her arguments for you to stay behind.

I know you well, I know your smell.

I've been addicted to you.

Since sixth year, I've never thought of anyone else, or seen myself with anyone other than you. It was always you from then on. Always you.

Goodbye my lover,

Goodbye my friend.

You have been the one,

You have been the one for me.

Goodbye my lover,

Goodbye my friend.

You have been the one,

You have been the one for me.

The only comfort I have is that eventually, I will see you again.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,

You can't break my spirit – it's my dreams you take.

Every night, I've dreamed of you. Of happy times, yes, but always ending with your last moments and your eyes, accusing me of killing you.

And as you move on, remember me,

Remember us and all we used to be.

I pray that when I die, I won't forget, so I know that you didn't either. I couldn't bear it to see you again and not know who you are. I couldn't bear to forget the love of my life.

I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.

I've watched you sleeping for a while.

I'd be the father of your child.

I'd spend a lifetime with you.

I was to be a father, boy or girl, I may never know, but that which cuts as deeply as your death is that of our child who wasn't even quite a month along. I didn't even know until they did the routine exam to check for signs of life and they said that there were two still hearts, yours and our child's.

I know your fears and you know mine.

We've had our doubts but now we're fine,

And I love you, I swear that's true,

I cannot live without you.

I have no idea how I am ever going to be able to do anything. Will I be able to move on at all? Or will I always dwell on you and how it's my fault that you're gone? Everyone says it wasn't my fault, but I know. I made the choice that you could fight, overruled your parents as your intended. I ducked the curse instead of even attempting to block it, even though I knew you were somewhere behind me.

Goodbye my lover,

Goodbye my friend.

You have been the one,

You have been the one for me.

Goodbye my lover,

Goodbye my friend.

You have been everything to me, as needed. My friend, when I needed advice or comfort, my lover, when I finally pulled my head out of my ass, and my fiancée, long before we knew about our child.

You have been the one,

You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine,

In mine when I'm asleep.

I always dream that you're there beside me, and I wake up, expecting to see you and hear you telling me that it was all a dream.

And I will bear my soul in time,

When I'm kneeling at your feet.

I will never receive absolution for what I did until I can see you again. My only hope is that you can forgive me.

Goodbye my lover,

Goodbye my friend.

You have been the one,

You have been the one for me.

Goodbye my lover,

Goodbye my friend.

You have been the one,

You have been the one for me.

The only one I ever loved. Anyone that came before was merely passing fancy before I realized that I had always loved you.

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow

I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow

I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

Perhaps I should end it all. I'll see you again; spend the rest of eternity with you. Even if after death, all of the atoms of our bodies are split apart, I'll search for you forever. I'll never stop. Never.

A/N: Okay, here's the deal. I want at least 10 reviews of who you think is talking and about whom they are talking. Also, not more than 2 reviews per person (cough EMA cough). Once I get that many, I will post the second chapter. It may be influenced by your votes! I have written it but if I get a ton of reviews saying it should be someone else, I may very well change it. If I don't get enough reviews by next weekend, I will post the second chapter anyway, but I want opinions people!