Chapter 1 "Angry, Rage and Love"
Author: Ok, once again I'm luckygirl88. I've been writing too many ouran stories and not enough other anime. No, I'm not a completely in love obsessed ouran fangirl, whoever, I do love and enjoy the show to pretty much that extent. I will let you know the following before reading. First, I have bad spelling, even with abc check. Also, I have bad grammar and try to often correct my mistakes. You will see loads of small errors, so bare with me. I've been writing and only some have pointed this out and others still enjoy my work. Another thing, all stories I write is fan based and the ideas come into my head so it may be I "dream" format and probably won't make since in certain areas. If I misspell a name, please let me know. I didn't realize in the past that I was spelling Kyouya's name wrong and I'm sure I can't spell his last name write. Now that's over with, let's move onto the story.
DISCLAIMER: OURAN HIGH SCHOOL HOST CLUB IS OWNED BY BISCO HATORI AND FUNIMATION STUDIOS. THIS IS CLEARLY A FAN-BASED FANFICTION AND SHOULD BE ADDRESSED AS SUCH. IF I DID OWN IT, TAMAKI AND HARUHI WOULD BE TOGETHER EVEN THROUGH THIS STORY IS MEANT TO BE BASED ON HIKAXHARU, HUNNY WOULD BE TALLER AND HOTTER, THE TWINS WOULD BE TOGETHER *HMM YAOI TWIN LOVE*, KYOUYA CAN REMAIN THE SAME AND MORI WOULD SPEAK UP MORE.
Point of View: Hikaru
What does it mean to be loved or be in love? It's a question I ask myself on day to day bases. Even through I constantly make girls love me, I want to know honestly and openly what love is. Kaoru shakes his head at me every time I bring up the question. He quotes, "Hikaru, you don't need some to love you right away. She will come for you and you can choose to expect that or let it slide. If you truly love some one, just say it. They will understand." I still don't understand. No girl has come up to me openly like that and no one ever will. Kaoru and I just want to be loved as individuals, as two, not one, separate people. However, there is hope for me.
I've been crushing on this girl in my grade. She is smart, pretty, kind and generous. Every one looks up to her, even clumsy me. She has pretty honey suckle eyes and lovely chocolate hair. It's a shame it's a boy's cut, but I don't mind. I bet your wondering who she is. Well, it's Haruhi Fujioka. I've been watching her from behind, waiting for her, but when I get the courage to ask her something, Tamaki butts in and drags her off some where and then she apologizes to me as I stand upset and feeling alone. The only one who shares this pain with me is Kaoru. We understand each other. We have a strong bond, strong enough we can hear each other's thoughts and feel each others emotions. That's how close we've become and always will be that close.
I know inside my heart who I want and love, but will she ever notice me? It doesn't help that I constantly argue with her at every small detail. I don't mean too, but it just comes out. We make up and then get along fine. I mean, we're apart of the host club and every guest expects us to get along with each of our members. I do my part to stand by that. Each day while we work, I fix my eyes on Haruhi. I wonder what she is talking about, did she do everything right, has she brought tea for our guests and other small things that slip my mind. Kaoru shakes his head and puts his hand on my shoulder and then I clam down. I can't help being worried. I feel like I'm the only one who cares for her. Tamaki treats her in my opinion like shit and then I have to come in and catch her before she falls.
Maybe I'm over protected. Any one would feel the same way. It doesn't matter right now. Today is a special day, a once and a life time deal. Today we are celebrating my and Kaoru's birthday. I know its in the summer and school is ending, but we celebrate every one's birthday, no matter what date. I plan on dressing up nice and maybe Haruhi will notice me today. We decided to gather around at our place to celebrate. It's not that big. Normally we would invite the neighborhood, but we agreed to make it small.
Both Kaoru and I had on basic jeans with some rips, a black studded belt imported from America, a long gray shirt and then a basic white t-shirt with a small logo on top of it. Oh, let's not forget the new black boots we bought this weekend. Father was nice to us, then again father was out with mother and so we are both home alone with the maids. That's what we deal with at home and it hasn't changed.
After every one got here, we decided we could chill out and tonight we would head to an actual haunted hot spot. Something different and maybe something cool will happen tonight. We told the boss, but he complained and he said and I quote, "Daddy doesn't want to go!!!!!! It's too scary!!! Besides, who would want to hang out at a place like that!!!????" Then we replied with the clear choice statement, which I hate to say, "Look boss, Haruhi will be there and who knows, she might be scared and jump onto one of us. You don't want to look like coward do you?" Then of coarse you can imagine his statement being and then he decided to come. The boss is hopeless if you ask me.
Hours of preparing went into this event. We helped decorate the house with banners and stuff and to make the boss happy, we got a piñata for him to whack. We got it costumed for our pleasure. It was a replica of our favorite boss Tamaki. Hmm, that's what he gets. Still, all I want is for this day to go well, nothing special or anything.
Every one shortly arrived as we answered the door. Kyouya still looked business like, Hunny-senpai was cute in his own way, Mori was…. Mori, Tamaki had to show off and present himself as the best and Haruhi, well, she looked cute. Looks like her father decided to dress her up this morning and for a few reasons. She was wearing a light pink sun dress with shoes to match and small clips in her hair. Not only that, but the also had a small yellow ribbon around her waist to make the pink have some flare. Once again she complained, but every one ensured her that she looked fine and nothing to worry about. We took every one into the living room where games, food and entertainment awaited them.
"Wow! This looks great Hika-chan and Kao-chan!" Hunny replied excitedly.
"Seems nice," Kyouya replied fixed into his black book.
"You guys are welcome. This place would have been better if our parents where we, but they had to go off some where, but still gave us a party to enjoy,"
"I think you guys did well even without your parents, but still, what matters is having fun with the people you care about," Haruhi replied sweetly as usual and smiled adorably.
Tamaki jumped up and down and hugged her tightly. I turned and shook my head displeased and then turned once again faking a smile.
"So Hika-chan, Kao-chan, what do you want to do first?" Hunny asked impatiently.
"Well depends. You guys want to play some dance dance revolution and then eat? I bet we'll be hungry by the time we're done," Kaoru replied and put his hand on my shoulder and smiled at me devilishly. He must be thinking what I'm thinking. Hmm, we can beat these guys with our twin ddr expertness.
"That sounds fun," Haruhi replied.
"Hmm, ddr you say. Sounds like my type of game. I'll be the king at this game! The king of the ddr!!!" Tamaki announced heroically and placed his foot on our new coffee table and then broke it.
"Senpai stop breaking furniture. It's already bad enough you broke my furniture last week,"
"That's true Tama-chan. You broke my things too,"
"And mine,"
"And mine," Mori finally spoke.
"Well….I….uh…. who wants DDR?"
Every one shook their heads and we set up the machine and played double mood. Kaoru and I were a team, Hunny and Mori were a team, Kyouya just stood and watch and some how Tamaki and Haruhi became a team. We beat every one easily, even at the song "Waka Laka." It was fun. We ate some lunch and relaxed a while and did more games.
Then we headed for the lovely piñata and Tamaki shouted angrily at us. We told him he would hate it. Haruhi shook her head at me and left the room. That's when my heart ached and I left the room for a few to see what her deal was.
"Hey Haruhi, are you ok?" I asked worried.
"I'm fine Hikaru, but you shouldn't be that cruel,"
"Hey, Kaoru also agreed to it. I suggested it and he nodded at me to go for it. So it isn't my fault!"
"I think you need to listen to what you said Hikaru. You stated "I suggested it" and then "it isn't my fault." Both of what you said doesn't make since,"
"Ok, so maybe it it my fault, but every one else seems to be enjoying it. Why aren't you?"
"Why, because that's cruel. You shouldn't be mean to senpai like that. After all, who was the one to change you and introduce you to the host club?"
"That maybe true, but we could have changed on our own and established a better club then what he made,"
"You enjoy it and you know it. Other wise why else would we be here!?"
"Because…..because…..,"
"I prove my point. Look, if you don't want me here than I'll leave. You seem to be in a bad mood,"
"I'M NOT IN A BAD MOOD!"
"You sure seem like it,"
"Fine then, leave. I don't care. We don't need you hear,"
"Fine I'll leave. Who needs a party like this. I'll walk home in this bad storm then,"
"Fine…."
"Wait? A bad storm?"
Before I knew it, she was long and gone walking into whether that she shouldn't have entered in the first place. I wanted to go and get here, but my feet felt like it was glued to where I stood. I could hear all the laughing in the other room and Kaoru seemed to be enjoying himself. I only wonder if Haruhi will be safe out there.
It came around midnight and we arrived home after visiting the haunted machine over by Nekozawa's home. Our lovely maids brought out cake and light the candles. I felt to upset to even think about cake. I knew Hunny was happy. He enjoyed cake. Kaoru looked at me and slide the cake in front of me.
"Kaoru, I don't understand. It's your turn to blow them out this year remember?"
"I know, but you need it more than I do," Kaoru said and smiled.
I nodded and thought hard about my one and only wish. Then it hit me and it went something like this:
"I wish to understand Haruhi more and learn better about her and myself. I want Haruhi to be happy and safe. I want her to have a happy life. I want to love her in any shape or form and I want her to love me, but on her own will. I just want and wish to understand Haruhi, be in love with her as she hopes to love me and for both of us to be happy. That's my birthday with,"
I blew out the candles and we cut the cake. I was tired and headed to bed early. The next morning, I found myself not in Kansas anymore, if you know what I mean…..
To be continued……