This is my first FF...so please bare with me and let me know what you think of it!!!

Disclaimer: I do not own SON...even though it would be cool to lol!!!

Speechless

Dreading school already and I haven't even started yet. I layed there in my room thinking of the many ways I can get my self out of going to my new school. Come on Ashley think of something! I mean I could just play sick and maybe my father will believe me. Ha...not likely.

"Ashley get up your going to be late." Must he be so pleasant in the morning. My dad actually stayed home for a day to see me off for school before he had to go back on tour with his band. Oh did I tell you my dad is in a band? Well he is and now im laying here in my giant bed not wanting to take part in what I have to do today.

I rested my hands over my face and breathed in deep trying to compose myself before I got up to handle the big task that is called, school.

Who's brainless idea was this to move me clear across the country to California? I was very content on my living situtations over there in Ohio. Oh thats right I forgot it was all my fault.

Memory

"Ashley why did you do it?" The blonde, blue eyed beauty asked me as I sat there in room trying to undertand what I did to make her so mad at me.

"Spence you know I had to. She was talking about you over and over again. I couldn't help it I had to hit her. Of all people I would think you would understand me." I stood up from the bed and walked over to my window and stared out at the open land that was covered in snow that had came last night from the storm we had. Everything looked so peacful out there but in here it felt like -5 degrees.

I turned around to look at Spence sit down on the bed with her face in her hands. I made her mad and I hated my self for it. I walked over to her and neald down in front of her taking her hands away from her face so I could look at her. As soon as I lifted her chin to stare into her beautiful eyes all I saw was hurt, confussion and anger. Her tears came as fast as she looked into my eyes. That only made my eyes release the hurt that I had inside as well.

"Im sorry." I whispered to her as I leaned our forward heads together. There was a silent moment for us when she moved away from me in a hurry and I didn't know what to expect her to say to me.

"No your not. You wouldn't have done this Ash. You knew that if you got into one more fight then you would have to move. So don't say your sorry, because I don't believe you."

"Spence." I tried to grab her hand before she walked away from me but she pushed me off and walked right out of my bedroom door and right out of my life.

That was my last memory of Spencer before my mom shipped me off to California to live with my dad. Well no more Ohio, no more simple life, and no more Spencer.

I've left about a dozen voicemails on her phone telling her that I missed her and that I was sorry but nothing worked. She didn't return any phone calls, she didn't see me off when I got onto the plane, and she didn't tell me that she loved me.

What was I going to do without her by my side as I walk through those crowded halls today in school? Who am I going to talk to when I have a problem? Who was going to love me for being the person that I am?

I wont give up on her even though she has clearly given up on me.

(A/N Ok this was just a starter for the begining of the story...please tell me what you guys think of it. Thx for reading.)