Secret Selfishness Sam's POV

by RogueWhisper

This is poem fic of what I believe would take place if dean ever had to kill sam. Major character deaths. no spoilers for the new season. this was written in '09. It's a companion to the piece Secret Selfishness Dean's POV.

I finally have Secret Selfishness from Sam's view up here.

I am sorry that it took this long.

I can't believe that it's been over 2 years since I posted Dean's POV

I would like to thank CeCe Away and Darkaina for reviewing Dean's POV

I would also like to thank 019 gmail for sharing their thoughts on it with me as well.

I do not own supernatural, but I do own this poem.

I hope that you will tell me how you feel about this from Sam's POV

I sat-

Silent, still.

I heard him

– Breathe –

In the darkness.

I sensed the others

– Trying to hide –

Their attempts were futile.

I could kill them, without raising a finger

– But I wouldn't –

That would make him sad.

I was a god, defined by flesh

– And that flesh –

Would be my undoing

– He stepped forward –

I rose to greet him.

There was no need for words between us

- Our eyes told us anything, everything –

The other needed to know.

He carried no gun

- Only his knife-

That he didn't plan to shoot me

– Like an animal –

Was

– Unsurprisingly –

A great consolation.

He wore jeans, old – faded.

His faithful leather jacket, beaten – battered

And there, I almost gasped in disbelief –

Around his neck was the medallion – my medallion

As perfect as when I'd bought it.

My eyes watered, his burned.

I moved toward him

– Slowly-

Slipping the blade on my belt

– Into my hand-

And waited.

His burning eyes closed

– And for a moment –

I feared that he had lost his resolve.

Then he stiffened

– And slammed his dagger through –

My bullet proof vest,

-A useless endeavor to protect my flesh,-

Into my heart.

My legs buckled and he caught me,

As my tainted blood

-Stained-

His innocence,

As my life drained away.

Angry tears fell-

As I choked out my final breath.

I hovered over him, waiting

-Expecting him-

To let go.

The others tried to take me

But he growled possessively

-and held me tighter,

Still protecting me.

I floated closer to him and whispered

- I forgive you-

He seemed more coherent.

- You knew that you would have to be the one to do it-

I willed him to remember his drunken promise.

- His eyes cleared-

And he picked up my forgotten dagger.

I screamed at him and told him not to.

- But I knew his mind was set-

As he whispered –

I won't live without you.

Again, I apologize that it took so long for me to get this up here.

I hope you guys like this pair piece to Secret selfishness Dean's POV.

Reviews are appreciated.