Story/Authors note: Alright so say a little while after Edward leaves Bella (when he's with Denali) Tanya says one day, "Hey Eddie I heard this song I think it shows you a lot." (this is kind of ridiculous but bear with me) Any who's, so Edward gets on youtube and looks it up this is his thoughts…. Thanks for giving my songfic a chance… to Vanilla Twilight by Owl City (italic words… non italic Edwards thoughts)
The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you,
Pour me a heavy douse of atmosphere
Well of course I'm awake I haven't slept in like 102 years…
Which means I have to be awake…. I do miss her…..
Not exactly sure what that last part means but catchy tune….
And I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'll send a post card to ya dear
Cause' I wish you were here
Well this whole parts a little backwards because 1) I CAN'T SLEEP! And 2) Cause' it's not Bella's arms around me I miss. It's having Bella in my arms…
And I don't necessarily want Bella here more that I'd like to be there… But the postcard thing kind of makes sense…. Bella would love it here…
And I'll watch the night turn light blue
But it's not the same without you
Cause' it takes two to whisper quietly..
*Mental Sigh* whispering… that's all Bella and I could do, not to be overheard or not to wake up Charlie….. Charlie, I bet he hates me.
The silence isn't so bad
Till I look at my hands and feel sad
Cause' the spaces between my fingers are right where yours fit perfectly
True silence is never a bad thing, but right now I don't need to look at my hands to feel sad. Holding hands, that seemed like the only thing Bella and I could do safely, well as safe as you can be holding the hand of a vampire, it seemed anything else would prove WAY too dangerous.
I'll find a pose in new ways
But I haven't slept in two days
Cause' cold nostalgia chills me to the bone
Wow, first line random! And again, I can't sleep! And as for nostalgia, yeah I wish I was back with Bella in forks, I wished I could hear the engine of her truck first thing when I get to school, I could see the way her brow gets that little wrinkle in it, I wish I could make Esme as happy as I did when I first brought Bella to meet the family…. And I wished that I was once more human, so that I could be with Bella the rest of our lives.
Drenched in Vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist deep in though
Cause' when I think of you I don't feel so alone…
Wrong! Well I do sit on the porch most of the time the view is heavenly but thinking of Bella is what hurts me most…. Not that I don't do it just that nothing makes it better because thinking of Bella is like thinking of how I ruined my whole chance of ever being happy in this life, but I can't think that way! No that's selfish, now Bella can have a real life, a husband, children… *mental growl* Who ever the man will be he's going to be one lucky bastard.
x2 I don't feel so alone
As many times as I blink I'll think of you
Tonight..
I do feel alone but 2nd line very true…. Very true
I know short and not full song but hey…. Lol review plz plz plz plz plz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!