The kiss

It is times like this I wish I could be human. Things would be so much better than they are now. I would be able to kiss Bella the way I wanted to without the fear of her death. Without having to worry about being too strong or the blood lust being too much. But being around Bella was making it harder and harder for me to control the love and need I felt for her. These feelings made me feel human and I loved Bella even more for giving me this experience.

I can't do that, risk hurting Bella. I am too much of a selfish creature to live without her. Therefore I must protect her. Even from me. Decided I went my normal way to Bella's house to watch her sleep, only this time when I arrived outside the window she wasn't asleep. She was talking to her mother.

"So how's the baseball going?" Bella asked.

"Ahh, Phil's working really hard," Renee said, she seemed happy that Bella had asked about Phil. "You'd like Jacksonville baby. It's sunny all the time and we found this nice little house you could even have your own bathroom." I felt a sudden pain in my chest at the thought of my Bella moving away.

"I'm kinda liking Forks." Bella said in such shock as if she can't believe she has just said that. The pain vanished.

"Has this got something to do with a guy?" Her mother asked.

"Well yeah" suddenly she gasped as she spotted me in the corner of her room watching her. "Umm.. Mom I have to go." She said.

"Come on Bella we've got to talk boys. Are you being safe!" her Mom asked in a rushed voice just as Bella hung up the phone. Bella definitely wasn't being safe. Not with me around. I knew what her mother meant, if only that were possible.

"How did you get in here?" Bella asked.

"The window." I replied.

"Do you do that often?" She asked as if she was worried I would have heard or seen something I shouldn't have. Of course I knew that she talked in her sleep but why should she be worried about that?

"Just the past few months." I said with a smile on my face remembering all those nights spent watching my peaceful and beautiful Bella.

"Oh." She said a look of surprise on her face. Such a beautiful face, I couldn't stand it any longer I had to try.

"There is just one thing I want to try." I said as I etched my face closer to hers. Bella gasped when she realised what I was about to do. "Stay very still" I warned her. When my lips finally touched hers sparks flew all around my body. Like the ones from the biology lesson. I could feel lust and love taking over. I knew then and there I would have to end this heaven soon. Suddenly I felt the blood begin to boil underneath her lips as she lost control and began to move towards me. She managed to move herself onto her knees without breaking my lips from hers. She was higher than me know giving her the advantage when it came to the kiss. I could feel the venom begin to pool in my mouth but there was no way I could stop this know. I took her by the hips and could feel her warm soft skin underneath my fingers where her already too thin and too tempting top had ridden up. All of a sudden I had got her head onto a pillow at the top of her bed giving me the height advantage. Pure heaven as her lips continued to move against mine soft and warm. This was going too far, I could feel my control slipping I had to end this. The smell of her blood brought back a painful fire at the back of my throat. I was so close to her skin if I could just…
"STOP!" I yelled throwing myself across the bedroom banging into the wall.

"I'm sorry," Bella said her lips all swollen and her breathing erratic. She was sorry? Why? That was amazing!

"I can never loss control with you Bella." I said. Never.