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A/N: This is another idea that wouldn't leave me alone. Damn plot bunny. This is told from Trina's POV and hopefully will open up her character more. It may seem a little OOC but just sit back and enjoy the ride.
Dear Diary,
I can't believe how good today was. Everyone was envious of me and...
I can't do this. I can't keep playing this game and lying to myself. I looked at my other diary, the one I just finished filling up, and all that was in it was lies. I am not that person, or at least I don't want to be that person. It is like being stuck in a nightmare. You know when you are dreaming but you can't wake up? That is my life. I act like a total bitch to anyone that gets too close to me. I can't show them who I am. And who am I? I hear you ask. I am Trina Vega. I'll tell you what I'm not first. I am not a member of the A-Listers, the popular clique. They just use me for entertainment but they don't like me. The reason they don't is they know I'm a fake, just not in the way they think. I'm not the next big thing in singing. I have a ok voice but it is mostly suited for backup singing. No I'm not that either.
What I am, my dear diary, is a liar. I lie everyday, to myself, family, "friends", and classmates. Yes I lie. I don't mean I tell lies, hell I am an actress. No I live a lie. I hide myself everyday. I go and act like a vapid ditz to make sure no one sees the real me.
The real me is a comedic genius. I have almost three hundred comedy dvds, I know every line to almost every Monty Python movie, the Marx Brothers, Abbott and Costello, and even newer movies like Caddyshack, Porky's (all of them), and Ghostbusters. I have almost perfect comedic timing if I think about it. Unlike what others think I got in to HA because of it. I made the recurters laugh. The reason I hide it is stupid but I have been doing it for so long that I can't seem to stop.
Not one girl in school, at least not one in the A-Listers, is a comedic actress. They all want to do drama and sing so that is what I wanted to do. The fakeness that they feel around me is me hiding myself. So here right here in these pages, I will be myself.
Dear Diary
I had a weird day today my dear friend. It all started when everyone left for the weekend. Tori was over at her friends and the parents went off. I decided to have a weekend devoted to me. No pretending, no bull, just me and some of my favorite movies.
So I was sitting on the couch eating some chicken salad sandwiches and a bottle of water (no matter what anyone says I do eat right.) when there was a knocking on my door. I sighed and paused the movie, Pushing Tin by the way, and I went to the door. I opened it to see Robbie Shapiro. Now I guess this is the part where I say what a nerd he is and how much I hate him but I won't. Like I said before this is for me to be honest. Robbie is a Jewish boy with curlly black hair and thick glasses. He actually is kind of cute and for a while he had a crush on me. I was mean and cruel to him for the same reason I am a stuck up bitch, (I'm an idiot but amazingly self aware.) because it would hurt my image. The truth of it is that I liked having him there and if I could've just pulled my head out of my ass I would be with him and not alone. Oh well.
"Oh hey. What are you doing here?" I ask. I am not mean or cruel. My voice is soft and just curious. Like I said this weekend for was for me to be me. He is taken off guard by it. I guess he expected me to yell at him.
"Um hi Trina. My parents are gone for a while and I'm locked out of my house. I was wondering if you would mind it if I stayed here for a while." Robbie asked, looking adorible as he tried not to offend me. I smile warmly and step to the side. I know what I should do, or at least what was expected of me. I should slam the door in his face or go back to who I act like. But I didn't want to. For one weekend I was me.
"Sure come on it. I am just watching a movie and eating some lunch. There are water bottles in the fridge if you want one. There is also chicken salad in the bowl in the fridge if you want a sandwich." I said as I went back to the couch. I was only wearing a pair of short shorts and tang top. Normally I dress better but not this weekend, I don't even think I did my hair in anything more then a pony tail. I start the movie back up as he just stares at me. It took him a good few minutes to even shut the door and even then he didn't move for a good few minutes after that. I just smiled at him as I watched the movie, laughing at a great part. He walked over and got a bottle of water and took a seat on the other couch, almost as far from me as he could.
"What are you watching?" He asked shyly, like he was waiting for me to bite his head off.
"Pushing Tin." I said sweetly. He looks at me weird and I sigh. I have gotten this look before. I had a friend named Lisa who came over one day. I put on a great movie but it was kind of deep and she gave me the same look. It was sad. She thought Epic Movie was the pinnical of humor, it wasn't even close. I waited for him to ask me what that was.
"I didn't know you like black comedy but if you want a better one you should watch a movie called Grosse Point Blank. It is better in my opinion." Robbie said. I was shocked.
"Yeah that is a great movie but my favorite John Cusack movie is High Fidelity. It is such a great movie." I said challenging him almost. He nodded and soon we were talking about all sorts of movies. I was actually having fun, which was weird. Robbie seemed to relax and he looked at me.
"Can I ask you something?"
"Sure."
"Who are you and what have you done with Trina?"
I laughed at that. I knew something like that was coming so I told him the truth. God help me I did. "This is me. This is who I really am when I don't do my act at school."
"What do you mean act?"
"To be one of the popular kids I act like a bitch."
"You mean what everyone knows as you is all an act. Wow that is pretty good."
"You don't know the half of it. I am so scared of letting people see the real me that I hide it all the time."
"Then why let me see it?"
"Because I swore to myself that this weekend I would be myself no matter what." I said moving closer to him. I was now with in arms reach of him and let me tell you something, I wanted to be closer. He was smart and funny. I can even admit that he is cute. God I just wanted to kiss him, just once. He smiled and slid a little closer to me. My heart sped up as I looked into his brown eyes and he looked in to my mocha colored eyes.
"Well you should be like this all the time." He said leaning closer to me.
"Oh well maybe I'll think about it." I said moving close enought to feel his breath and smell his mint toothpaste. I moved the last two centimeters and press my lips to his. I was just lost in the moment and when we finally broke apart he looked shocked.
"I-I-I have to go." He stammered as he stood up and walked out. I was sad then and I am confused now. He looked like he wanted me to kiss him so what is going on. I don't know but I think I really like him.
A/N: Please review and let me know if you want more of this. Now I would love for someone to write this chapter from Robbie's point of view. I think it would be great. If anyone wants to do then please drop me a pm and use Dear Diary in the name. Thanks for everyone's time. Also the poll for "All for Her" is going strong. Cat is in the lead right now but it can change anytime.