Thoughts of a dying Man

By NekoMonster

Disclaimer: I do not own Code Geass and the song "Forever or Never" belongs to Cinema Bizarre.

Thoughts of a dying Man

I don't believe in miracles
I never did
Nothing ever happens here
So sick of it

Suzaku, you stupid brat. You never knew what effect you had on my mind and body. The world as we know it is stained in blood; shed by innocent women, men and children.

And yet, when I finally was able to save our world, you were not by my side. You were somewhere else entirely, and I had to try and reach you.

Only this time, you did not take my hand. You turned and walked away, not seeing my vision of salvation. You thought I was wrong. But I have to admit, you did not know who was behind the mask.

I-I-I told you
I-I-I need to
Get-get myself into something new
I´m for something mystical, histerical,
Dark and tantric, sexual

Or maybe you did. Maybe you knew all along that I was the only one who could change our world. Or maybe you knew, but could never admit to yourself what I was.

Maybe, it was a secret between us.

I would let my mind drift away to the time I really knew you. I miss that. I miss the time before you grew to be such a nice boy. No, man. Strong, loyal, positive and always believing goodness will conquer.

How naïve.

And yet I miss you so much.

I'm not gonna live forever
Said I'm not gonna live forever
better make it now or never

I wanted you to come, if only for one night. I wanted to give you the world I prepared for Nunally. I wanted you to be a part of it too.

But destiny is a bitch.

And we were separated yet again.

On different sides of the gun.

Did you hate me? Or did you love me?
I don't know anymore. Not that I ever rally did.

I was never given the time to tell you.

That in my heart, you were always shining.

My dying wish is for you to know this.

You are Kururugi Suzaku, you will find a way.

And please take good care of Nunally, will you?

She's beginning to grow up.

I regret that I won't be able to stay in her life.

But I believe I gave the both of you a better world.

For my love
For my love
For my love, it's forever, forever

End.

Just had to get that out of my system. I shall begin a new chapter for my Beyblade - fic now.

Just in need of some inspiration, ehehe..

Please review, but I won't bite if you don't :)