Hi! this is my first fic, so bare with me. it may be rough. This chapter focuses on Logan and Kendall. The other characters will be introduced throughout the first four chapters.

This is an AU, as you will clearly see soon enough. James isn't going to be a character in this, though I may try to throw a few references to him in. I couldn't figure out how to work him in. Sorry. This story is also PARTIAL slash. There is some Cargan, Daklos, and Kogan (kinda), however there is also lots of non-slash in here too.

disclaimer: I don't own BTR. If I did, I wouldn't be writing this here.

Kendall stumbled into the darkness that was his dorm room. He was trying to be quiet, so he wouldn't wake up his roommate. He fumbled with his belt, and managed to only fall over once while he pulled off his jeans. His t-shirt was a little more of a challenge. Jo had bought it for him, and told him to wear it tonight, thus he had to wear it. Well, this shirt was a little too small for Kendall, and he got it stuck over his head with one arm in and one arm out. By the time he forced his way out of it the drunken boy was a bit turned around and he climbed into the wrong bed. By the time Kendall realized he was in Logan's bed he passed out.

Logan had just gone to sleep when Kendall stumbled into the room, so he hadn't quite fallen asleep when he felt the warmth of his roommate crawl into his bed. He woke a little and rolled over to make more room, without realizing what had happened. The realization hit him and his eye's snapped open. He looked at his clock, 4:00 AM. He slowly craned his neck to make sure what he thought had actually happened. Yep. Kendall was asleep in his bed. It was really happening.

Logan didn't know what to do. He slowly rolled over, turning his body to face his roommate. As he did Kendall snuggled closer to him. That's when Logan realized that Kendall was already asleep, and he could smell the alcohol on Kendall's breath. 'He was just drunk and confused', Logan thought, disappointed, realizing that Kendall wasn't making the welcome advance Logan had been so desperate for. 'welp, I can't move him, so I might as well enjoy what I can get'. Logan snuggled up close to Kendall and tried to sleep. The scent of Kendall's cologne filling his nose, Logan relaxed and began to drift, thoughts fading 'This feels so right. Why don't you understand that? Why can't you feel it too?' Logan's mind went dark as he fell into a dreamless slumber.

Logan's alarm went off at 8:00. He woke up and realized that Kendall was snuggled up to him, with his arm wrapped around him. He could feel Kendall's slow, rhythmic heartbeat against his back. He rolled over and could feel an erection against his ass. And started to get excited until he realized, it was probably just morning wood. 'Kendall's straight. He doesn't have feelings for you. Just stop it.' Logan thought to himself, though he couldn't resist a little peak under the covers. Kendall was only wearing a pair of boxer briefs and Logan could see every detail of his length. He slammed the covers back down, perhaps a little too quickly, as Kendall began to stir slightly. 'Why the HELL are you doing this to yourself? You can't even tell him how you feel, and there isn't even any point to it. Not only does he have a girlfriend, BUT he's straight. Not bi, not curious, straight. He's told you this. You know this. Nothing will ever happen between you. So just stop,' Logan silently berated himself.

He climbed over Kendall, who had settled back to sleep and went to take a cold shower before he got ready for class.

Kendall woke up suddenly, and was immediately confused. Jo was screaming and he was not in his own bed. His head was pounding, his stomach was in knots and he had the worst cottonmouth of his life. 'No more Wasted Wednesdays for me…' Kendall thought before he braved opening his eyes again, the lights overwhelming him. He stared at Jo, who was still yelling at him. He squinted at Logan's clock, it was 8:20. 'Why is she so upset? We don't have class until 8:30…' "Oh shit!" Kendall jumped out of bed, his head began to spin more, but he rushed over to his dresser, pulled on some jeans and a shirt and grabbed his books as Logan walked in.

Logan walked back to his room, he could hear Jo berating Kendall through the door, "WHAT? ARE YOU A FAG NOW? SLEEPING WITH YOUR ROOMMATE? WHY ARE YOU IN HIS BED? GET THE FUCK UP! WE HAVE TO GO TO CLASS! WHY AREN'T YOU MOVING YOUR LAZY ASS, FAGGOT? GODDAMMIT MOVE MOVE MOVE!"

Logan took a deep breath and pushed open the door, in time to see Kendall jump out of his bed and scurry to get dressed. As Kendall moved towards the door to leave he turned to Logan gave him a quick half-hug, saying "Hey thanks for letting me crash in your bed last night, I don't even remember coming back here. Sorry… Oh, and sorry for her, you know how she gets. I'll talk to her about it. Don't worry." Kendall broke the hug, and gave Logan his signature smile, making him melt inside. As they slid apart Logan's hand lingered on Kendall's. Kendall encased Logan's with his other hand and said "Thanks again!" before Jo pulled him out the door, still yelling at him.

"Yeah, no problem…" Logan said to no one, as he stood in the open door, wearing nothing but a towel. He was alone. 'I have to stop it. It's not going to happen…' Logan's berating himself continued similarly like this for a while.

He dressed and went to class, and began to fantasize about what it would be like. Kendall would save him from the heartbreak that was slowly killing him. 'No… not killing me, I can't be killed, I'm not even alive. Not without him. But it still feels like I'm dying, especially around him. But that's okay, because he'll give me a reason to survive, and we'll be together forever.'

The thoughts had kept him going through the day. His fantasies were interrupted by his phone vibrating, and he temporarily blurred fantasy and reality, expecting it to be Kendall. He read the message, Hey Gorgeous, wanna get lunch with me? 3 . Logan was so excited, then he snapped back to reality and read that it was from Carlos. 'Of course it's from Carlos, who else would call you gorgeous? Idiot.' Logan thought, as he responded that he would love to get lunch with his boyfriend.