Sweat was running down my back. I heard the creaking of the floor beneath her feet. Knees tucked up to my chest. I dug my head between my knees scared to move. Then the closet door was thrown open and a high pitch laugh swan into my ears. "Hello Jessie, why do you hide from mommy?" she asked with hysteria in her voice. I looked up all I saw was fear, her hand was held up. Just as her hand was about to touch my cheek everything was bright.

I opened my eyes, gasping for air I saw light seeping through the drawn curtains. The room slightly illuminated the looked around trying to sit up I felt weighted down. I freaked out and lashed my legs out and I accidentally kicked Zuri's legs. She stirred in her sleep and rolled over. I looked down at my side and I saw that she was in my bed. It was usual for the kids to come into my bed at least once every 2 weeks or so.

I was still very shaken up about the dream, why would I be dreaming about her? I don't understand- then it hit me! Today was the 11th June, anniversary of when she left me. When this time came around my anxiety always came back. Years of therapy down the drain like that just for one day and many after that. But I can't be all jittery now since that I am a nanny and I have to take care of the kids. The more that I thought about the more it seemed like I couldn't hide it. Tears ringed the bottoms of my eyes and cut down my cheeks. I feel back into my pillow with a laboured breathing. Then Zuri woke up.

"Jessie, are you ok? Why are you crying?" She asked as she placed her hand on my arm. I held an arm open for her to come and comfort me. She wrapped her arms around my neck resting her head against my chest. I heard her close to me playing with her hair. Even more tears fell from my eyes and I breathed even harder. Trying to calm myself was harder than I anticipated.

"If you want to talk about it I am here to listen." Zuri whispered, I wiped my eyes and began, "Thank you, well it started when I was five years old. My mom was always under so much pressure my dad was always away and one day she just cracked. I caught her cheating on my dad with his best friend. And she said, 'Jessie go to your room.' And she hit me, from then on she began to drink and abuse me."

"Did your dad ever find out?" asked Zuri with a low voice, I smoothed my hands against her soft curls. "Yes, he did but by that time it had gone on for two years and I couldn't trust everyone I cried myself to sleep every night. And one day when my dad had come home from a business trip and he noticed the bruises on my arm. And he asked me what happened and I just said, 'I fell'. He didn't ask anymore but he knew something was up, the way in I cringed when anyone went tried to touch me. He asked my mom and she denied knowing what happened. But one night he heard me crying in my room and he made me tell him. That same night my dad called the police and she knew that she had to leave."

"Did she say anything to you?"

"Yes, before she ran out the door she said, 'Jessie, I love you and I will come back', that was the last time I heard from her."

"Did the police find her?" Asked Zuri,

"No, before they got to my house she just vanished from the planet. I don't what happened to her." My eyes became foggy with tears, I tried to calm myself but it was very hard. Zuri hugged me tighter and whispered, "Don't worry Jessie."

Later that morning

It was 10:00 and all of the Ross kids were up and noisy. Zuri sat in one of the chair of the screening room and acted as if nothing had happened between us. I sat next to her and Zuri turned her head and mouthed the words; "it will be ok." I nodded and tried to turn my brain off. Then moments later I felt a hand grab my shoulder. I shrieked and thought, she's here, but it was just Luke trying to get my attention.

Luke pulled his hand away and gave me a weird look. "Ok, Ok Jessie I'll leave you alone." Luke said and back away to go sit on the other side of the room, "I'm sorry Luke you scared me." I said in a jittery tone, tears welled up in my eyes I ran up to my room and shut myself up in my room. Trying to calm down I had to pull myself together.

Later that day at the park

It was about mid-day and I finally calmed myself down and took the kids to the park hoping to distract myself from her. "Jessie, Jessie play hid-and-seek with me!" She said with a very almost force happiness; ever since I told her the thing she has been trying to be very supportive. At times like this she seems many years older than she really is. I smiled and started to count, after a 20 mins or so of playing I told Zuri to go play tag with her brothers. I sat on the bench and let all of the thoughts crash down. But I managed to stay calm. I'm not exactly sure why I was able too but I suppose it was because of the kids. I couldn't and wouldn't let them see me like this.

Lost in thought I didn't notice that a woman had sat next to me. When I finally noticed I slightly jumped and asked, "Who are you?" The women looked at me she looked very familiar her light red hair pulled down to the side, brown eyes dancing emotions unknown. "Jessie, is that you?" she asked in uncertainty. "How do you know my name?" I asked with a steely voice, all of my fears where coming true, she was here.

"Jessie, it's me, your mother I know I messed up but I am here to ask for your forgiveness." Said my mother as she placed her hands on mine. I pulled away, "Get away from me!" I stood up and backed away. "No Jessie please don't leave," "No leave me alone." I said with a steely voice, I was calm on the outside but inside was the opposite.

I ran off into the direction where the kids where playing. "Let's go." I took Zuri's hand and collected the kids, they seemed confused on why I wanted to leave in a rush but they asked no questions. "Jessie, was it her?" asked Zuri in a hushed voice, looking down at her. A look of worry crept onto her face. She squeezed my hand in comfort. I quickly led the kids into the penthouse. Locking all the doors even though we're up on the 12th floor.

I was in hysteria always checking the door pulling the curtains closed even though they are closed. The kids were freaked out they had no idea what was going on with me. "Jessie, what is going on?" asked Luke with a hint of worry; I looked at him biting my lip. "Nothing." I reply, "Look just don't leave the apartment and just stay quiet, ok please?" he looks at me as if I'm crazy but nods his head and walks away.

Please tell me what you think so far. I will update later tonight. Please R&R and enjoy! I don't own Jessie.