A/N: So this is a song fic! I love the song Nothing by The Script; I love this band so much. Now this story is about Peeta and Katniss, this takes place after The Hunger Games but before Catching Fire. If you hear the song you'll understand why I'm using it. Now I hope you enjoy both the song and the story! Enjoy! Italics are the song!
Disclaimer: I don't own the Hunger Games or the song Nothing by The Script!
Am I better off dead?
Am I better off a quitter?
They say I'm better off now
Then I was with her
I should be dead right now…I should have died in the arena. Maybe I should just die now! It'll make everything better for Katniss.
My father tells me that I'm better off now than I ever was with her. He is the only one that knows that Katniss and I really aren't together. He says that now I'm free, that I don't have to worry about impressing her.
As they take me to my local down the street
I'm smiling but I'm dying not to drag my feet
Haymitch walks through Town with me. I'm smiling but dying just to get to a place where I could be alone and just…fell sorry for myself. I try so hard to not drag my feet.
They say a few drinks will help me to forget her
But after one too many I'll know that I'll never
Only they can't see where this is gonna end
They all think I'm crazy but to me it makes perfect sense
Haymitch said that a few drinks will help me to forget her. To forget all that has happened so far. I knew he wasn't lying because…well it's Haymitch we're talking about here.
But after one to many my thoughts wonder to her again. And I know then and there that I'm never ever going to forget her.
Haymitch thinks I'm crazing, everyone here thinks I've gone crazy. But they don't see it the way I do. Because to me it all makes sense. It sounds right to me.
And my mates are all there trying to calm me down
'Cause I'm shouting your name all over town
I'm swearing if I go there now
I can change her mind turn it all around
And my brothers and Haymitch are trying to calm me down, because I'm shouting her name all over town. "Katniss! Katniss!" I yell like a maniac.
I swear if I go to her now she'll want me back. She'll see it my way and want to be in my arms! I can go to her now and change her mind! She'll take back all that she said before!
And I know that I'm drunk but I'll say the words
And she'll listen this time even though they're slurred
So I dialed her number and confessed to her
I'm still in love but all I heard
Was nothing
I know I might be drunk but I'll tell her everything. "Peeta you need to stop!" Haymitch yells but I ignore him. I start to run, I run faster than I have ever ran before. I hear my brothers telling me to come back. They shout my name but I ignore them.
I run to my house and dial her number. My words my come out slurred but she'll listen and understand. I wait and wait for someone to pick up when finally I hear her voice.
"Hello…?" She says sounding as if she just woke up. I smile a little and sigh.
"Katniss I-" I begin but she cuts me off by saying.
"Peeta? Are you drunk?" She asks in disbelief. I shrug off the sudden urge to take another sip of that liquor bottle.
"Katniss I'm still in love with you! I never stopped loving you!" I tell her my eyes being covered with tears. There was silence. No word or sound came from her end of the phone.
I wait there, I wait for her to tell me something, anything, but all I heard was nothing. "Katniss…?" That when she hangs up. I slam the phone and punch the wall. Why didn't she say anything?
I wipe away the tears with my fist.
So I stumble there, along the railings and the fences
I know if we're face to face then she'll come to her senses
Every drunk step I take leads me to her door
If she sees how much I'm hurting, she'll take me back for sure
So I stumble to her house. If she sees me face to face she'll come to her senses. Every drunk step I take leads me closer and closer to her door step.
If she sees how much I'm hurting she'll take me back for sure. I know she will. I almost trip as I walk-stumble up to her door. I get ready. She opens the door and she gulps.
"Katniss I'm still in love with you." Instead of a response she says nothing
And my mates are all there trying to calm me down
'Cause I'm shouting your name all over town
I'm swearing if I go there now
I can change her mind turn it all around
My brothers are all there trying to calm me down. They say I should shut up because I'll wake everyone in twelve. But I ignore them I shout your name all over town. I don't care what everyone else thinks of me I only want her.
I swear that right now if I go to her I can change her mind. She'll finally realize that she always loved me.
I take a sip of the liquor and let it burn my insides.
And I know that I'm drunk but I'll say the words
And she'll listen this time even though they're slurred
So I dialed her number and confessed to her
I'm still in love but all I heard
Was nothing
I may be drunk but that doesn't mean I know what I'm saying. Even if I did have a bottle of liquor in my hand I'll know she'll understand.
I dial her number and wait till I hear her smooth and gentle voice. "Hello..?" She says as if she just woke up. I smile and take in a breath.
My words come out slurred, "Katniss I-" she cuts me off and her voice sounds as if she was fully awake now.
"Peeta? Are-Are you drunk?" She asks me in a voice of disbelief, I ignore her question and continue talking as if she never interrupted me.
"Katniss I-I'm still in love with you." I say I wait for a response. There was nothing.
She didn't say anything, not even a single noise came from her mouth.
She said nothing.
She said nothing
Oh, I wanted words but all I heard was nothing
Oh, I got nothing
Oh, I got nothing
Oh, I wanted words but all I heard was nothing
I wanted to hear her say something. I didn't care what she said but I wanted a damn response but all I heard was nothing. I wanted to yell at her so she could just say something. The silence was killing me. I slammed the phone down.
Ohh, sometimes love's intoxicating
Ohh, you're coming down, your hands are shaking
When you realize there's no one waiting
Sometimes love is intoxicating, sometime love can surprise you in unexpected ways and it can bring you down. It hurt me-love hurt me-she hurt me. I take the bottle of liquor and crush it in my hands.
My back slams the wall; I slip down my back on the wall. My hands are shaking, they are bleeding and glass is stuck on my hand.
No one was there, no one was ever here for me. The room was empty, I missed being in a room full of people. I missed having someone being there at the end of the day just waiting for me. I missed all of that.
Am I better off dead?
Am I better off a quitter?
They say I'm better off now
Than I ever was with her
I should be dead right now.
I shouldn't be here I should have never tried to gain her love. I should have never said anything about me being in love with her.
Everyone else says that I'm better now that I'm not obsessing over her.
They say that I'm better off without her.
And my mates are all there trying to calm me down
'Cause I'm shouting your name all over town
I'm swearing if I go there now
I can change her mind, turn it all around
And my brothers are all there trying to calm me down. Because I'm shouting her name all over town. I know that if I just tell her that I'm still in love with her she will change her mind.
And she'll want me back.
And I know that I'm drunk but I'll say the words
And she'll listen this time even though they're slurred
So I dialed her number and confessed to her
I'm still in love but all I heard
Was nothing
I might be drunk but I'll still tell and she'll to me even if my words are slurred. She won't care if I'm drunk I know what I'm saying.
So I dialed her number, "Hello..?" She says as if she just woke up. I smile and take in a breath.
My words come out slurred, "Katniss I-" she cuts me off and her voice sounds as if she was fully awake now.
"Peeta? Are-Are you drunk?" She asks me in a voice of disbelief, I ignore her question and continue talking as if she never interrupted me.
"Katniss I-I'm still in love with you." I say I wait for a response. There was nothing.
She didn't say anything, not even a single noise came from her mouth.
She said nothing.
She said nothing
Oh, I wanted words but all I heard was nothing
Oh, I got nothing
I got nothing
Oh, I wanted words but all I heard was nothing
Oh, I got nothing
I wanted words, I wanted to hear her say something, anything but all I got was nothing. I wanted a response but only silence engulfed the call.
Only silence. That's all I got, not even a single noise.
I waited, and waited but all I heard was silence. Only silence that killed me inside.
I got nothing
I got nothing
I got nothing
I wanted to hear her voice again, but instead of words only silence was what I heard.
I got nothing.
A/N: I hope you enjoyed it I'm sorry if the story kind of confused you but I had to write the story so they went with the lyrics of the song! Please review, if you think I should continue review and tell me which song I should do next and which book should the event take place. But if you don't want me to continue I'm ok with it. Please review and thanks!