Chapter one

"I don't think this is working" he said looking me dead in the eye

"You're breaking up with me?" I basically stated

"Yeah" he whispered, I felt tears cloud my vision but I wouldn't cry in front of him, not over him

"Joe!" his brother Nick rounded the corner

"Come on we have to do sound check" he urged

"Alright" he said still looking into my eyes and only removed his stare by turning around fading into the craziness of rehearsals

"Demi" I heard Kevin Joe's older brother call my name

"Yeah" I whispered still willing myself not to cry trying to hide the hurt from the rest of the world like I did oh so well most times

"What's wrong?" he asked catching the Breaking in my voice

"Nothing" I said I turned around to face him putting on my fake smile a big huge smile I was now known for

"Demi Lovato don't you lie to me" he stared into my eyes knowing my breaking point was near I tried to change the subject

"Don't you have sound check?" I just kept trying to get away I just kept telling myself all I needed was a few minute's alone and id be fine

"That's why I'm here my dad sent me to get you we want to practice on the line 1st" great a song to sing with my ex who JUST broke up with me

"Um alright lets go" I said just wanting to get this over with Kevin led the way to the stage where Joe nick and the rest of the group was already standing around

"Let's start" I said jumping on stage Kevin following suit Joe just watched me as I took Kevin's water bottle and took a drink

"Okay Joe, Nick let's get this going" Paul told his other sons they got on stage Joe went to one of the mic's and nick got his guitar and stood in front of a mic in one of the stands

"Ready" nick yelled while the band began. Hearing the music I realized this is what I needed and I let myself get lost in the music

[Demi]
I didn't wanna say 'I'm sorry'
For breaking us apart
[Joe]
I didn't wanna say 'It was my fault'
Even though I knew it was
[Demi]
I didn't wanna call you back
Cause I knew that I was wrong
[Demi and Joe]
Yeah I knew I was wrong

[Chorus:]
[Demi]
One in the same
Never to change
Our love was beautiful
[Demi and Joe]
We got it all
Destined to fall
Our love was tragical
[Joe]
Wanted to call
[Demi]
No need to fight
[Joe]
You know I wouldn't lie
[Demi and Joe]
But tonight, we'll leave it on the line

[Verse 2:]
[Demi]
Listen baby
[Nick]
Never would have said 'Forever'
If I knew it'd end so fast
[Demi]
Why did you say 'I love you'
If you knew it that it wouldn't last
[Nick]
Baby I just can't hear what you're saying
The line is breaking up
[Demi]
Or is that just us?
Or is that just us?

[Chorus:]
[Demi and Joe]
One in the same
Never to change
our love was beautiful
we got it all
Destined to fall

Our love was tragical
[Joe]
Wanted to call
[Demi]
No need to fight
[Joe]
You know I wouldn't lie
[Demi and Joe]
But tonight, we'll leave it on the line

[Bridge:]
[Joe]
I try to call again
I get your mailbox
Like a letter left unread
[Demi]
Apologies are often open ended
[Demi and Joe]
But this one's better left unsaid

[Chorus:]
[Demi and Joe]
One in the same
Never to change
Our love was beautiful
We got it all
Destined to fall
Our love was tragical
[Joe]
Wanted to call
[Demi]
No need to fight
[Joe]
You know I wouldn't lie
[Demi and Joe]
But tonight, we'll leave it on the line

I let all my hurt anger and passion go into this song,

"Are you done with me now?" please say yessss I prayed

"Yeah dem were done with you be here in like an hour and a half alright?" I nodded

"Bye" I mumbled running out of there when I finally got to my dressing room I went straight to the bathroom and found my hidden razor blade I sat down on the edge of the bath tub slowly running the blade across my wrist pressing it hard I just need some relief, but deep down I'm beating myself up for this because I was stopping, this is the last time I promised myself as I saw the thick red liquid poor from the wound I made 3 more and a J every time I looked down from here on out I would be reminded of the one person I let in and thought wouldn't hurt me and how he ended up wounded me the worst I heard a knock on my door around an hour later, but I freaked out I was still trying to get the blood to stop

"Hold on a minute" I yelled I placed pressure on my wrist and threw a hoodie on hiding the markings, hiding the washcloth under the couch

"Yeah" I said as I open the door and caught sight on who was at the door, there in front of me stood Kevin Nick and Joe Jonas

"Sorry I was changing" I said moving aside to let them in

"No, you weren't you were wearing that earlier" shit I Mumbled as Nick pointed out my lie

"Alright you caught me I was getting high" they just looked at me Kevin pushed me

"Stop that's not funny miss demi look its fine you don't have to tell us why you couldn't come to the door right away" I let out a sigh and side hugged Kevin

"Thanks" I simply said

"What are you doing here?" I asked looking at My Ex-Best fried Ex-lover

"Ugh, um well" he was having trouble coming out with a sentence

"Fine, Nick Kevin…What's up, what's going on?"

"Our dad asked us to come hang with you in here for a little bit he had to fix something or I don't know really he just sent us in here" My attention focused back on Joe

"You didn't tell them?" I asked he just looked at the floor

"Tell us what?" Nick asked

"That Joe and I shouldn't be around each other"

"Why would you say that demi, he's your boyfriend" Kevin asked sounding mad at me

"Not anymore he broke up with me like 5 seconds before rehearsals"

"What? Why didn't you tell us?" Kevin asked Joe, but he just pulled his phone out and started texting someone

"Is that what I interrupted when I came and got him for sound check?" Nick asked sounding guilty

"Nick you didn't interrupt anything he was finished don't worry it's not your fault" I reassured him just as I felt warm blood trickle down my arm I tried to hide it from the boys but if I made a sudden movement they would see it for sure, as I stood as still as possible I looked down slowly to see my blood dripping onto the carpet. Joe looked up at my arm seeing the red liquid and I sent him a glare silently praying he would just let me bleed to death hiding it from his brothers

"Demi" Kevin whispered scared and when I looked over I instantly knew he saw; now everyone in the room saw Nick looked at me

"Demi why is your Arm bleeding?" he asked on the verge of a panic attack

"It's nothing I'm fine" I mumbled as I bent down to grab the washcloth I threw under the couch when I grabbed it I realized it wasn't helping me at all because the once white washcloth was now a vibrant red, and before I could react Kevin was pulling up my sleeve revealing my self inflicted wounds for everyone to see. I knew I cut to bad this time