A/N: Once again I had an idea which could not leave me alone. So I wrote it down. :) Kenpachi x Ichigo again, they're so good together...
Warnings: yaoi. And english is not my mother language. Grammar mistakes, wrong, missing words are very possible. I'm sorry about that, but I always do my best, please try to understand.
Disclaimer: I don't own anything, Bleach and the characters belongs to Tite Kubo. I'm not getting any profit for doing this. This is just a pure fanficition.
Chapter 1 – Shy Strawberry
"Idiot…"
Ichigo lowered his gaze. His cheeks were red and his heart was beating faster than usually. He was embarrassed but could not say anything to Kenpachi. He could hear Yachiru's quiet sniffles: the girl was still sitting there with them – Ichigo and Kenpachi.
Ichigo knew he was acting like an idiot but could not say anything anymore. He had a strange feeling, like all this would be just a dream. He had never shouted to Kenpachi like he just had.
They had been arguing before but never really been angry. Now they both had lost their tempers and just shouted at each other. They had only stopped when Yachiru had started to cry.
"No, don't!" the girl whimpered. "Don't fight you guys!"
The problem briefly was this: Ichigo was now dating Kenpachi. Ichigo was still quite lost with his feelings and did not want to tell anyone about their relationship. In other words, he wanted to keep it as a secret.
Kenpachi hated secrets.
He could not understand why Ichigo wanted to hide their relationship from others.
"The hell with everyone else!" Kenpachi had shouted. "Who cares what they think?"
But Ichigo did. He could not stop thinking about it. What would his friends say if he would tell them that he was now dating Kenpachi Zaraki? He had even had nightmares about it. He could see their wide eyes, could even hear them laugh at him – or even worse, saying to him that he was somehow defective…
Their fight had started in the bedroom. It had been just a little arguing, nothing big. But it had been getting bigger and bigger and they had totally exploded during the breakfast. If Yachiru would not have been there Ichigo had no doubt that they would probably had soon been really hurting each others…
"I'm going", Ichigo stated quietly and stood up.
Kenpachi did not say anything. He just looked at him, a gloomy look on his face.
"When you'll come back?" Yachiru turned her head. Her eyes had a desperate look.
"Can't say", Ichigo answered. "Bye then."
"Bye…" Yachiru said quietly even Kenpachi did not say anything; he just shot one angry glare after Ichigo. Ichigo sighed and shrugged: fine, if that's the way you want it then…
…
"You're so unromantic, Ken-chan", Yachiru said to Kenpachi when Ichigo shut the door behind him.
Kenpachi looked at Yachiru. She looked grumpy.
"I know I was stupid", Kenpachi sighed. "I just can't fucking understand his mind movements! Why everything has to be so complicated with him?"
"He's never been with anyone like he's with you", Yachiru said with a knowing tone in her voice. "He said it himself. He must be confused."
"Well, he's my first true love, also!" Kenpachi hissed. "Why I can't act complicated, huh?"
"'Cause you're the alpha male", Yachiru said. "Alpha males can't act complicatedly."
"Is that's so?"
"Yep."
"Whatever, eat you cereals…" Kenpachi murmured. He had lost his appetite himself.
He loved Ichigo, no doubt about it. It was strange feeling since he never had really had anyone to love. Except Yachiru, of course, but their love were different. Yachiru was like a daughter to him. Ichigo was – something else… He was no better than Yachiru, but he was different. Kenpachi had once thought he was probably asexual since he could not find anyone who he actually would have loved.
Now he had found someone.
However, that annoying idiot did want to keep it as a secret. Ichigo needed time, as he said himself. To Kenpachi it was hard since he had always been bad keeping secrets. He hated secrets! He had always told everything to someone, usually to Yachiru. Some people would have been shocked if they would know how much Yachiru actually knew about Kenpachi.
Kenpachi's theory was simple: secrets were stupid. That was how taboos were born.
"Maybe I should just force him…" Kenpachi thought aloud.
Yachiru looked him angrily: "H whnn't lht yoh rhbe bool Ihhi!" her mouth was full of cereals.
Kenpachi stared her for a moment, before blinking: "What?"
Yachiru gulped and said again: "I won't let you rape poor Ichi!"
"I won't rape him! Idiot. I was talking about that he would tell his friends that we're together."
"How would you force him to do something like that?" Yachiru looked at Kenpachi. "Don't you think you should just – well… Give him some time?"
"I've already given him four fucking months already! I've had enough of this bullshit. He's too shy or scared or whatever, something lame anyway. I'll give him an encouragement shot!"
Yachiru nodded.
"How?" she asked.
"Let's see…" Kenpachi rubbed his bony jaw. He had no idea what he should do so he went upstairs where Ichigo's stuff was.
No, Ichigo was not living with them – yet. He was just visiting Seireitei. The reason had something to do with training and stuff like that and since Ichigo had never liked to sleep at 5th Division's Barracks he was staying at Kenpachi's place.
Ichigo was now the captain of the 5th Division. It had happened about a month ago. Captain Commander had had enough that there was too much work for poor Hinamori and always missing persons in the captains meetings since they had no captains in 3rd, 5th nor 9th Divisions.
Ichigo was strong. Captain level, even he was only a substitute.
Kenpachi found Ichigo's schedule. He looked at it to see where his annoying shy strawberry had gone today. Friday: training in 5th Division and captains meeting.
Kenpachi blinked: Ichigo had been force to enter their meeting today. Poor shy strawberry. However, that could be a perfect time to Kenpachi to give his encouragement shot to him.
"Find something blackmail worthy, find something blackmail worthy…" Kenpachi searched happily Ichigo's bag. There were almost all his clothes and some other stuff, like toothbrush and comb and notebook. However, nothing blackmail worthy.
Kenpachi had to think this over again. Then the notebook gave him one idea, which he could try out…
…
"God damn with that jerk", Ichigo sighed while walking. He could not understand how Kenpachi sometimes managed to be so stubborn. When he was on that mood, he did not even listened what Ichigo tried to tell him!
It was so useless to even trying to talk with him! He had his one opinion, which he held on so hard he did not even want to consider any other explanation.
"Jerk…" Ichigo murmured angrily. "Lovely one - but a jerk anyway…" he added, smiling slightly.
All had happened so fast that Ichigo was still confused. Now he had been with Kenpachi about four months – but telling the truth, it felt like they would have been together forever…
At first, it had felt so strange. The man who had chased him around Seireitei so many times had wanted to kiss and cuddle him. Kenpachi Zaraki, 11th Division captain. The man who had almost killed Ichigo and who had maniac laugh. Ichigo noticed that a smile had appeared on his face when he thought about that…
It all had happened fast. Really fast. Now it felt like Ichigo wanted to slow down. The problem was that Kenpachi did not understand his reasons. He thought Ichigo was ashamed about them. He had even said that to him.
Ichigo could not bring out how much that one accusation had hurt. Because it was not true, even it had something true in it. No, he was not ashamed about them. He was ashamed about himself.
It was obvious that he had kept things secret from his friends such a long time. That he had feelings towards another man. Had he always liked him, Kenpachi? He was not sure, even he had to admit he had sometimes looked at him, thinking how beautiful he actually was…
Kenpachi always laughed when Ichigo told him that, that he was beautiful. They had been in bed then and Ichigo had once again been on his back.
"Idiot", Kenpachi had chuckled. "I'm not."
"Yes, you are", Ichigo had told him and had petted his cheek, running his finger gently over that scar of his. "You should keep your hair down more often…"
"To hide my ugly face, eh?"
"No", Ichigo had blushed. "I didn't mean that!"
"I know, stupid", Kenpachi had smirked. "If you think I'm beautiful then I'm happy about it. It's just I have eyes, I know what I look like…"
"Maybe your eyes are wrong", Ichigo had whispered and Kenpachi had really smiled, not smirked or grinned, really smiled.
Ichigo stepped in trough the 5th Division's barrack's gates and smiled again. If he would have known what Kenpachi was doing back at home, he would not be smiling.