"Bella, honey, I can't do this anymore, it's just to hard."
"No, no," I sobbed, "Edward you promised."
"I ... I... I just can't anymore." He let go of my hand and ran off into the woods. I know he was probably already in the house right now, taking everything he thought was his, including my heart, I just stood there, not sure if I could breath even though I could hear my breath coming in and out quickly. All I could think about was him, 'Where is he now? What is he doing? Is he thinkingabout me too? Did everyone else leave as well?' I hadn't noticed it was raining til Cahrle came up to me and told me I needed to get dried off. I could already tell he knew what had happened by looking at his face. He had on this I-told-you-so type of look in his eyes, but the same I-love-you-anyways look on his mouth. Iguess he could tell by mine too.
I walked slowly back into the house with Charlie following behind, softly touching the backs of my arms. I was dreading what would be gone.
Suprisingly everything ws still there except when I reached my room and opened my door. Over half of my stuff was new and all the pictures of me and ... him were gone. All but 1. Just one was left. It was of the two of us holding hands at the beach.'OK,' I thought, 'all he did ws put it underneath the floorboards like last time.' I walked through the door and knelt down next to one of the lose floorboards, and pulled it up slowly. nothing. this time he took everything, he's not coming back. He's gone. Forever. Forever. FOREVER. FOREVER. Never coming back, NEVER. I broke down crying even harder. He's NEVER coming back.
It took several hours for me to settle down again. When I finally did, I got up off the floor and laid down on my bed. The memories came flooding back like Niagra falls. (Gulp) Him lying next to me every night singing my lullaby. Keeping it a secret form Charlie every second I was awake. All the good times I had at their house with Alice, Jasper, and Emmett. Everytime I did something stupid and ended up in the ER with Charlisle coming to bandage me up. His cold hand cupped around mine while they put the stiches in or whatever they needed to do. Everything was coming back to me now. Everything I was going to miss. Like seeing him sparkle in the meadow. OUR meadow. Him picking me up every morning to ride to school with. ALL GONE. EVERYTHING. FOREVER.
There was a knock at the door."Bella, you in there?" It was Charlie
"Go Away!" I screamed through my tears.
"Someone's here to see you," he told me though I told him to go away. I hoped it would be Him but I highly doubt evenif he would come back that Charlie would lit him set foot in this house again.
"Who?" I asked.
"Jacob. He heard what happened and wanted to see if you were o.k."
"Go Away I'm fine." Isaid as steady as I could, but my voice cracked anyways despite my attempt. "I thought you would maybe want to ride the motorcyclesor something to take your mind off of things." This time it ws Jacob who was talking. I had already been grounded for riding them and to think Charlie would even let me ride them again was next to impossible.
"No, thanks its getting too late." I didn't want to ride bikes, that would only cause me to hear his voice and break down again.
"Bells, its only 11 o'clock." He said as he walked through my door and came in to dit on the edge of my bed . He rubbed my shoulder as I started to cry again. I pulled him towards me. He laid down, kissed my forehead and hugged e close. I cried against his bare hot chest. I wondered if he had been out running again even though Victoria had been killed weeds ago. The heat of his body soothed my muscles, making me relax, and helped my crying slow.
I kissed him . Well, not even that. I barely touche my lips to his and I froze. Rembering all of the careful boundaries He sey, making sure I didn't touch his sharp, venum coated teeth. I think Jacob thought I was going to finish the kiss which I wasn't, and pushed me away.