Summary:
Takes place on the night before and after Takada's capture.
Matt is having vibes that it might be the last time that he and Mello are to be in each other's midst. He wants to make things memorable but Mello gives him the cold shoulder. Will things end the way he wants it to be?
AN: This is a MATTMELLO song fic, I do not own Death Note and the song 'An Angel' from the Filipino band Typecast, they rock, you should try and listen to their songs. This is a first for me so, uhm hope you'll help me by leaving some reviews, constructive criticism is very much welcome. Please excuse any of my typos etc... I'm just a kid ya know :) This may just be 2-3 part story… well at least if people want me to continue, I dunno I guess anything goes
Warning: This is Yaoi/Shounen-ai, kinda lemon o.o (My first ever... o.o)
Dedicated to: numbah one… da-dara-ran! Meggy bestie/Lady-von-Bielefeld, Seru/Krisselle-chan, ya-chan, miya-chan, Daph buchou/Lady-von-Hartnett, readers of my other DN fic (Forbidden Fruit: Death is just aN iLLusioN)NeoKira and especially reincarnatedcrazybutterfly who jus floods me with sugei Twilight fics hehe.
To my readers, thanks for reading, hope you'll leave me a comment or message, kisukisu from ladystrife914/Shiori-chan :)
"To wake you once again"
MATT
"Do you understand me?"
"Yes of course."
"Good."
It was an unforgettable night.
"Mello?" My voice turned frail upon eyeing his gloomy expression. Though I had focus on the RPG on play, nothing that distorted Mello's usual self could get pass me.
His same weaved brows and crooked frown was nowhere in sight as I wanted it to be. It was very unusual for my golden-haired companion to show such emotion, especially to me.
I kept on charging my fingers in the controller as I waited for his reply. I wasn't really into it; I was actually quite in such a crypt if you ask me. But I had to pretend that things were in top-gear. But whom was I kidding?
"Mother f-…" I bit my lip in frustration.
Mello winced at my expression.
His orbs still darted the floor when he gave me a vague reply, "Hm?"
I think that he might have misunderstood my reaction. "Sorry, I was yakking at the game. I'm was just wondering if you wanted to share something with me?" My voice transitioned into curiosity.
I tapped the pause button and directed my face towards the gloomy Mello.
Mello half-opened his eyes and gave a smirk, "Oh…"
He lifted his trunk and rested his back on the coach. He had his eyes closed as he raked his hair and breathed heavily. His arms were rested on the arm of his chair… He was really tense. I could tell by the way he gripped the linen so tightly. His fingers were leaving an imprint
Mel's sun-colored hair was hanging as he bent down half his body between his legs. His pale white hands were clasping his head; I could sense angst in him.
I quickly dropped the controller of the Ps2 and positioned myself beside him. I crouched down and tried to fit my face in his, slowly making my way to let his eyes meet mine. I was ready to cup his face and force it to turn in my direction, "Is there…something wrong?" He gave a sigh, "Why do you ask?" He breathed heavily into my face. I could still feel the cold and airy breath that he gave out which smelled of chocolates. "Nothing… Is there something you want to tell me?"
There was silence as we sat in the same position, inches away from each other's lips. I wanted to make the first move and make him less weary, but… he waved me off and jumped off the chair. Stalking his way to the fridge, he didn't look back at me.
I sat stiff, shocked by his negligence, but… I was used to it. I had to understand that Mello was upset.
My arms were trembling as I tried to straighten up. Damn his power over me!
Slowly, I took his position on the chair and watched him help himself with another bar of his favorite obsession, well; of course, I wanted to think that I was one of his as well, but the sinful distraction seemed to weigh more at the moment.
Yes. Chocolates.
It could give him the relief and the type of 'sweetness' that I couldn't. It could make his blood rush unlike my gestures but my greatest envy as I watched him munch on the infamous treat, was its ability to reach and touch his tender lips… As it makes its way to caress the sides of the heart-shaped arch providing the opening to his tongue…
My sweetest kind of candy; his lips.
I lost to a stupid piece of shit! Damn it Matt! You're the one who's all gung-ho about games! I can't believe you lost to reality!
I gave myself a mental slap.
Tch… I wanted to yank the console near to me but I just wasn't in the mood. Instead, I copied his movement and gave heavy-steps towards the controller.
Sitting on the floor, I un-paused my progress.
"Game over!!"
He still had his back on me despite the fact that I kept on raising the volume decibels higher than usual.
Silence…
But we still didn't speak for about half-an hour, which made me so impatient that I grabbed a hold of my PsP and pushed the hell out of the buttons while playing Tekken! "Damn you Jin! The hell with your silence!!" Shit! For the first time he's making me so impatient! Damn it Mello!
I was already gritting my teeth so hard that it could bleed! I focused all my anger on the handheld device that it was already short-circuiting. "Shit-dog!" I hissed and threw the hand-held aside, which landed inches away from Mello.
My brows were arched together but it loosened up as Mel picked up my gadget.
"What's up with you?"
"Huh?"
He finally noticed me?
I ignored him and transferred to the bed. I literally threw myself into the mattress. He was still waiting for my reply, his sharp eyes darted solely on me, and it was as if he wanted to devour my face.
Crack!
He bit another chunk into his mouth, even as I buried my face in the pillows to avoid the unwanted conversation. My ears tingled as the chocolate broke and slithered into his throat. "Hey, I asked you something." He elevated his tone.
The cracking stopped and the noise was exchanged by the clanging of his boots.
I felt a dent on the bedside but I still lay flat. Hey if he ignored me then, I'll let him 'taste' my bitterness. "Its nothing…" I replied lifelessly. Still packing my face in the cottony figure.
Tick!
I could tell that he was about to take another slither but, he refused to continue. I peeked to see what was up with him.
Mel sat at my bedside just adjacent to my legs; of course he was still facing another direction. His right hand which was gripping the Belgian choc bar, rested on the mattress.
I focused on his face next and my, was I wide-eyed to see that my ghost-like Mello was paler than ever and his eyes… his beautiful sky-colored eyes started to turn into a cloud of precipitation.
"Mels?" I literally threw the pillow away and lifted my trunk. "Did," I sighed on this one. "I upset you?"
"No."
"Is there something wrong?"
He shook his head.
Talk to me damn it!
"Mello." I finally gathered the courage to make contact with him as I placed my hand on his shoulder.
"(Crap! He'd surely pus-)"
"Matt…" He called out my name and overlapped his hand on mine.
I was quite flustered. "Yes? Would you like me to…" I hung my legs to the bedside opposite him and straightened up, "…leave you alo-"
"NO!" He ordered as he gripped my wrist tight.
I sat back down, "O-okay…"
Again… Silence…
"Mello… I-"
He cut me off…
Things were very uncanny for the two of us this night. We both had a long day… With the whole Kira and Near fiasco going on, things tarted to pile up for Mello and iwas becoming more of a burden to his but still…
Just as we started to find comfort in each other's arms, the RPG that I was playing a while a go, rolled its credits… Man oh man! I cannot be more thankful for its invention, better yet its timing… I didn't know that it would play… such a melodic tune… And they say that video games are such a waste! Screw it!
As our eyes grow weary, our lips tight of silence
It was a long day, just time to go to bed
Cause lying next to you, is all that I want tonight
You made me feel secure, I hope I can stop time
All so suddenly, he dashed towards me and molded his lips against mine so hard.
So sweet… I thought.
I could even taste the bits of his favorite treat.
My eyes turned wide for a minute, unlike him… who was… If was correct… concentrating…
I let him caress my face… I ruffled his hair… I didn't know why… but…. I knew that I had to make the most of the moment. If only this was the beginning and end of our day…
What's wrong Mello? Wont you tell me now?
Things started to sink in and we were really getting into it. Slowly… I felt the tension fleet away and my anger, bit-by-bit… withered. He replaced his 'coldness' with my favorite tenderness…
His chest started to press hard against mine but…
"Matt…" We both gasped for air, our faces still inches away from each other. "What?" I weaved my brows, "Why'd you stop?"
His eyes didn't blink as gazed at me.
A gaze that was both piercing and… hopeful…
"I…" He paused to edit, "Shit, I'm no good at this…." He released me and I bent closer to him, "You can tell me anything, if you want then, I'll just leave no more of our 'play'" I teased but halfmeant it.
He smirked, "Fine. You win." He sneered and faced me again, "I'm sorry okay?!"
I've made mistakes before
I promise not to do it again
But let me ask you just one question
"can I lean on your shoulder, your shoulder, your shoulder"
WOW. Now that's a first.
Mello stood up and walked to the terrace. I paused for a moment and let him have his time.
"Go ahead. Laugh at me." He added.
And I did but not in a manner that was meant to offend him, it was just that his remark gave me such funny thoughts.
I sped towards him as he mumbled his complaints, I threw my gloves into the floor and took off my goggles and then directed towards Mello.
I forced him to turn to me and then even before he could react or speak, I took another 'bite' of my yummy treat.
As our eyes close slowly, our words still unspoken
I don't know what to say, but goodnight
Cause lying next to you, is all that I want tonight
You made me feel secure, I hope I can stop time
Now, I didn't need an explanation, I just needed my other half, I needed Mello…
We fumbled across the terrace and finally made it in our room, our lips were still locked and his grasp turned an inch tighter as we became closer, soon enough, he was able to pin me into bed, he was on top of me still dressed and looked at me with dreamy eyes…
"I know this is a bad time to tell you this…" He spoke once more, "If this day were to be our last together then…" He leaned closer to press his lips against mine, slowly biting the tip and fleeing just an inch away to whisper in my ear, "Matt…I…" He was croaking… My tough Mello was holding his tears… "I love you damn it!"
I responded by lacing my arms around him… tightening my hold as hard as I could! "Fuck you Mello! You already know what I feel!"
He started to wet my neck with tiny droplets but it was the least of my concern…I let him lay against me, for as long as I can take it… I was his to possess…
Everything went on so hasty and passionately afterwards, we found ourselves in each other, making the best of the moment… the only time that we stopped feeling on each other was when we breathed for air and when Mello took of the dangling rosary in his neck… Unfortunately though the chocolate spread on me, stupid Mello forgot to take it off the mattress but screw it, he loved chocolate too and with me as an addition, I was actually thankful and assured that he wouldn't resist.
Mello was the greatest character in the game that I called, "Life" but moreover than that, I was happy that if this were the time that credits would roll and etch fin on the screen, I'm glad that I won, HIM.
It was a very breezy dawn but I was grateful that Mello still had his arms overlap against my chest. I loved how he gave me peace.
People often perceive Mello as such a cretin or a disturbed person; they cease to see what's under the burnt side of his face, and even before the incident. I was the only one who though of him as a gentle person… He was my first friend in Wammy's orphanage and so it makes sense on how much we've grown into each other.
I turned to be face-to-face with him, I wiggled my right hand so that I could have the chance to outline the peaceful face of…
An angel…
So peaceful and silent, I see an angel
sleeping the night away, sleeping the night away
"If only Kira never existed, then you wouldn't have to suffer like this… but don't worry, everything will all be over… for tomorrow… With my own hands, he shall fall into my own ploy."
Two can play this game Kira.
So peaceful and silent, I see an angel
Sleeping the night away, sleeping the night away
So peaceful and silent, I see an angel
And I'll try anything, to wake you up again
I couldn't trace how long I've been watching him sleep and soon enough my eyes started to go heavy… No I don't want to sleep yet…
"I know this is a bad time to tell you this…"
"If this day were to be our last together then…"
"Matt…I…"
His message still echoed inside my ear as I began to fell drowsier by the minute but what lingered mostly inside my thoughts was his last message…
"I love you damn it!"
No matter how forced it seemed to others, it was the best sentence that could have ever entered my ears…
"Goodnight… My Mihael…"
The very next morning, I woke up very disturbed and jumpy. I turned to the clock and was alarmed that it was infact already half-past noon.
"Mello?" My voice croaked as I woke to a Mello-less scene.
I kicked out of my bed frantic, "Mells?"
My eyes scanned the room and I spotted him, shirtless and only covered in a blanket, on the floor and on his knees at the altar. He gripped his rosary.
I took minimal steps towards him.
"Keep it down will you." He said in a low tone.
I stopped halfway. "Are you-?"
"I have sinned Matt." He said still having his back on me.
I felt so struck by his words, what I've done is so grave.
"I shouldn't-"
"Never mind." He cut me off as he always did and straightened up, "The Lord always forgives sinners who plea for His help, I just hope that its possible for my sin to be forgiven… and if not… then I just hope that he spares you…" He sighed, "But enough of that." He hung his rosary on his neck and finally turned to me, who also, only covered in sheets of beddings, "I've obsessed over petty things and most of them, like that of my right as L's successor, led to chaos. But I'm glad that you're not my obsession. Let alone my favorite…"
What did he mean?
Running towards me, he squeezed my whole body, "You are my greatest temptation Matt… A temptation that I was glad I got myself into. My greatest risk turned out to be my absolute happiness… Thank you and…" He released me and gave a pressured kiss.
It lasted a while, I had my eyes closed the whole time, my blood was racing through my veins, but what triggered my adrenaline most was his last remark, "Bye…"
Later that evening… News came.
"I'm sorry I've gotten Matt killed…."
So peaceful and silent, I see an angel
Sleeping the night away, sleeping the night away
So peaceful and silent, I see an angel
And I'll try anything, to wake you up again
AN: And that's the end of part 1. Phew! Man was that tiring hehe, hope you guys liked it, the next part is just a short one since I'm relating this to the events that really happened in the series, hope you guys Review. Thanks so much!
I love you all
-Faye/ladystrife914/redappleeyes
Preview:
Will you ever Learn?
MELLO
Crack!
Later that afternoon, we had to go our separate ways in order for our plan to commence and we agreed to rendezvous in front of the Sakura T.V building and then split up when we head to NHN headquarters. We didn't really speak we just made hand signals. I was on my bike and he was on his Chevy. Things went on so fast that I soon found myself speeding in a truck with Takada.
Matt, where are you? Did things go on okay?
So what's the point in all of this
When you will never change
The days have pass, The weather's changed
Should I be sorry? Could I be sorry?
I did it all, all for you
Hoping you would see
Your eyes are dull, your hands are clenched
Are we ready? Are we ready?
But you, you think about yourself
Only but yourself
But what about...
No, I wasn't sorry… I was… devastated… Have I lost?
AN: This is also the lyrics of a song by typecast once again entitled, "Will you ever learn" I'll update if fast and surely will if I get 5 reviews or more. The first person to give a decent review or just a review will have the next chapter dedicated to him or her and so, thanks
I just felt a sudden urge to write this fic, the 'MALO'-ness got to me! hehe but rest assured that my next update will be on my DeathNote fics, :D