Hey Shin-Chan…

It's nearly been a year now…

I still feel like you're here in Shutoku. Why did you have to leave so soon? So abruptly? Well, it wasn't Cancers lucky day; especially for you I guess.

Ahh, I miss talking to you; I miss annoying the tsundere out of you ahaha

I really wish I was with you, but you would get mad…right?

I guess so.

I still remember that day…

When I got that one phone call from you.

"Shin-Chan! Where are you? I've been waiting for soo long"

"Takao Kazunari?" I still remember that voice which didn't belong to whom I was waiting for.

"Uh… yeah, who is this?"

It's still crystal clear, every minute, every second and every piece of my shattered heart in that moment. Crystal.

I knew I should have just pedaled the cart that day. It was going to be the best date ever! …But of course, heh, it wasn't.

You dork, not even showing up to your date. I would rather you show up late then not show up at all.

And yet, you still haven't shown up. You left me here to be incomplete without you, you know how much it hurts me?

Ah crap, I'm falling to pieces. I miss you, Shin-Chan. Shutoku misses you. I bet even your rainbow team misses you too.

I just wish my hawkeye can see that far up.

Sorry for the tears Shin-Chan. I really am. Oh, by the way, here's your lucky item. I couldn't get the big penguin for you yesterday, but I was sure to get the right item today, so please forgive me? Hehe.

After all, today IS our anniversary….

And the day the car crash happened.

"Takao," a voice behind me rudely interrupted.

"Miyaji-senpai?" My reply was shaky. Still facing towards Shin Chan's grave, I masked my grief with a smile. A trembling bridge for tears to go across and cascade off my chin, watering the beautiful flowers around the stone.

"Takao…let go of the jersey…" His voice too was weak, holding back his sorrow.

Closing my eyes, my grip on the jersey grew even tighter. I dug my face into the only thing I have left of him; let all the drops of brokenness and misery pour down, wetting the cloth.

Shin-Chan would get mad at me if he sees me getting his jersey all wet… if he was still with me. I would look up at his beautiful face and watch it go slight pink as he looked away. He is still with me right?

Right. Shin-Chan is always right.

Squeezing the tears out of my eyes, I recalled how his low, melodic voice would melt me till no end. "Takao, I will never leave you," he would say.

Hah… this jersey is soaking now.

"Takao… let go." My senpai's voice echoed through the cracked memories.

Hey Shin-Chan,

Today's lucky item is an orange item of clothing that well represents who you are.

So I got your jersey. The orange represents how carrot like you are (hah I'm joking Shin-Chan, don't get mad) and Shutoku shows that you are a part of our team. You always will be.

Smiling, I let the jersey go, breathing in his scent one last time. I let it go. I let him go.

"It's okay, Takao" Kimura-senpai said, patting my back realizing that I made it. I made it through.

I looked back at Shin-Chan and his jersey, lying there, neatly under the engraved name.

"I'm sure he's happy," Kimura-senpai continued.

'If he's happy, I'm happy' I thought.

I never saw the jersey again. The lucky items disappear after I give it to him, the whole bunch.

After all, he always was possessive about his lucky items.