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~Bella~
I blushed as I looked at myself in the full mirror. I was just changing into my pajamas, when my reflection caught my eye. So here I was, in my bra and panties, wishing I had a body like Rosalie, or even Alice.
I don't know what Edward saw in me. I was just plain old Bella. But to him, I was the world.
I examined my breast. They were small. Just barely a B cup. I had tried about every push up bra in Forks, and none I had done me justice. There was nothing sexy about my body. I had plain brown hair, a flat butt, no breast, and I was as pail as could be. I sighed one more time before grabbing my clothes, and toiletries.
'Better finish changing before Edward gets here,' I thought to myself.
I walked into my shared bathroom and began to wash my face, and brush my teeth. I didn't want Edward to find anymore reasons to be disgusted with me. He claimed he loved exactly the way I was, and I didn't need to go through all the extremes of brushing my teeth after every meal, or putting on make up for that matter. When he said that it made my heart swell for him. But, I was still going to do it.
I put my dirty clothes in the hamper and walked back in my room. I was only in there for five seconds before my window opened and my Greek god appeared.
Edward's hair was wind blown. His gold eyes were sparkling, and he had my favorite crooked smile on his lips.
"Hey beautiful" he said in his velvety voice before walking to hug me.
"Hey yourself" I said pulling him closer to me.
He walked us over to my bed before sitting down and pulling me into his lap. "I missed you today" he said into my hair.
"I missed you too" I said snuggled into his chest. "Did you have fun on your hunt?"
"Yes. I enjoyed myself, but I only complained about missing you the whole time. It really began to bug Emmett." I couldn't help but laugh. "So how was your day? From all the bags I can see you went you went shopping with Alice."
"Yeah. She dragged my to Seattle all day. I only wanted a pair of pajamas, but she insisted on buying me all these new clothes" I said remembering all the stores I was dragged into. All the shirts, and pants, and all the skimpier things I wouldn't even dream of looking at. Let alone buying.
"Well, I like these new pajamas on you" Edward said kissing my neck. I turned around to straddle him, and pulled his lips back to mine. "There very sexy" he all but growled against my lips.
I pulled away. All I was wearing was a light tank top, and short shorts. It dawned on me just how much skin I was exposing to Edward. Of course he was going to look at me. I blushed bright red.
"I'm not sexy" I mumbled more to myself as I got off his lap. I looked anywhere but at his face.
"Bella?" he whispered. I looked up to see his beautiful confused face.
"I said, I'm not sexy" I said a little bit louder. I was still cautiously aware that Charlie was downstairs watching a game. He would more than likely shoot Edward if he ever found him in my room at night, or in my room at all for that matter. Thus bringing up the topic of why my boyfriend was bullet proof. Not something I want to discuss at the moment.
Edward stood up and walked towards me. "Yes you are" he said firmly.
"No I'm not" I back scowled at him.
He brought his hand to my cheek and began rubbing his thumb across it. His other hand wrapped around my waist to pull me toward him. I could feel my body relaxing to his touches. I felt like crying. I hated feeling so vulnerable and insecure.
"I'm sorry" I whimpered against his chest.
"Shh" he soothed. "It's okay. You don't have to apologize for anything."
"You're right. God... I'm... I'm sorry" I said taking in a shaky breath.
Edward chuckled. "You did it again love" he said kissing the top of my head.
I laughed to. "Yeah. I guess I did."
He pick me up bridal style, and continued to hold me as he walked us back to the bed. Edward held me tightly against himself, and rubbed his hand up and down my back. "Bella" he said after a few minutes. I looked up at him. "We need to talk about this."
I groaned. "No we don't" I said stubbornly.
"I want you to feel like you can talk to me about stuff like this. I can't read your mind, and I want to know what you are feeling."
"I feel fine" I tried unconvincingly.
"You are a terrible liar Bella" he stated. "Just a couple minutes ago, you were on the verge of tears. I hope I didn't offend you in any way."
There he goes again. Blaming himself. "You didn't do anything. I just wish I was sexier for you. I'm flat chested, and just so plain-" but I was interrupted. Before I knew what was happening I was lying on my back with Edward on top of me. He was kissing all over my face. My cheek. My forehead. My chin. And finally my lips.
I kissed him back urgently, my hands were instantly in his hair. His lips moved in the perfect rhythm against mine. His right hand began to stroke up and down my side, while he used his other hand to support his weight. I pressed myself all the way up against him, wanting more of him. I knew I needed to break away for air, but I could have cared less. Edward seemed to mind though.
He slowly pulled back, kissing my neck to let me catch my breath. I wanted to cry. I was gasping for air, but I wrapped my arms around him, trying to pull him back down to me.
"You need to breath Bella" he said trying to catch his own breath.
"I don't want to breath. I just want you" I panted into his ear. Immediately I felt his arousal on my stomach, while he moaned into my ear. I shifted my pelvis, and grinder against him. His hand supporting him began to tremble as his grip on my sheets tightened.
"You're going to be the death of me Bella" he whispered huskily in my ear before crashing his lips back to mine.
I was shocked. This was when he would normally pull away completely. He never let us go this far, and all of our sexual frustration was beginning to show. Edward pushed his tongue in my mouth. We battled for dominance before I let him win. I felt as though there were way to many clothes between us. I tugged on the hem of his shirt. Our lips broke apart only for a second so Edward could pull his shirt over his head, before we were attached again.
My fingers rubbed patterns up and down his back. His muscles were taught under my touch. I loved being able to get this response out of him. I grinded myself hard against him again earning a growl in reply. His hand slipped under my shirt and stroked my nipple before either of us realized what was happening. In an instant Edward was standing at the opposite end of my room. I sat up with a frustrated look on my face. Edward must have taken it the wrong way, because he began to chant a stream of apologies.
"I'm so sorry Bella. I have no idea what came over me. I wasn't paying attention, I'm so sorry. Did I hurt you?" he pleaded to me. He had a desperate look on his face.
"No. You didn't hurt me" I answered.
"We should stop. It's late, and we have school tomorrow" Edward said running his fingers through his already unruly hair.
"You always pull away" I said not hiding the annoyance in my voice.
"Because I don't want to hurt you."
"But, you're not hurting me."
He began to pace around my room. "Bella, you're making me lose control. I can't bear thinking that I am moving to fast for you. I touched your chest without your permission."
"Maybe I want you to touch me" I said biting my lip.
Edward stopped his pacing and turned around to look at me. "You want me to touch you?" he said in a low voice.
"Yes. But you never will."
"I've wanted to touch you like that since the first time I layed eyes on you, Bella. But I am afraid if I start... I won't be able to stop" he said. His eyes were still gold, but they were darkening around the edges. He had the look of lust written all over his face. I felt myself become wet between my legs. Edward must have smelt it. His eyes were locked only on me. I couldn't take my eyes off the bronze trail of hair that trailed down his belly button, to his perfect V. I licked my lips in anticipation.
"Kiss me" I whispered. In an instant his lips were locked on my. I was once again lying on my back with Edward on top. He grinded himself against my center as he licked and nipped at my neck and collar bone. "Oh God, Edward" I panted.
He grinded himself on me again before crashing our lips back together. He pushed his tongue in my mouth, massaging his with mine. My hands were tugging his hair, and stroking his stomach. Edward moaned into our kiss. His kisses were gentle, but still very urgent. We weren't hiding our need for each other.
He moved his hand down to cup my breast. He looked down at me as if to ask permission. "Yes... please touch me" I gasped into his ear.
His hand began to knead my breast before rubbing his thumb over my nipple. I moaned and arched my chest into his hand. There were to many clothes blocking his hands. I wanted his hand back under my shirt, so I grabbed it and put it on my bare breast. I felt the bulge between my legs get harder as he pressed his lower body harder against mine.
He stroked my breast and began kissing me again. My mind was clouded with lust. Between his hands and lips I was floating on cloud nine. He was slowly letting down his boundaries. I let my hand tracing the smooth plains of his chest glide down lower. My fingers traced the top of his pants. I felt him tense, but he didn't remove my hands. I slowly began to push my hand in further when...
Edward had disappeared. I sat up looking around my room. I whimpered in protest. "Shh love" I heard him whisper from the shadows. Moments later Charlie was knocking on my door.
"Bells" he called from the other side.
"Come in" I said trying to catch my breath. I was more than sure my face was still flushed from Edward. Charlie walked in and smiled at me. I smiled back trying to hide my guilty expression on my face. I'm sure he could see that his innocent little Bella was just trying to stick her hands down her boyfriends pants not two minutes ago.
"I was just droppin' in to say goodnight" he said in his gruff tone. I nodded momentarily forgetting how to speak. "You look a little red. Are you okay?" he asked as he walked over to put the back of his hand on my forehead.
"Yes!" I said a little to quickly. He gave me a funny look. "It's probuably just PMS" I lied.
"Umm... okay" Charlie said looking uncomfortable. I knew for a fact that Charlie would do what ever he could to stay away from these type of topics. "Well goodnight Bella."
"Goodnight Dad" I said. As soon as Charlie walked out the door Edward reappeared. I couldn't help but notice that he had put his shirt back on, and his erection had went down. I guess our little night of lust was over.
"I'm sorry. I didn't hear him coming until he was a foot from the door" Edward said sitting at the foot of my bed.
"It's fine" I whispered.
"It really is getting late Bella. We have school tomorrow" he reminded me.
'Great' I thought to myself. 'Another day of getting talked about behind my back by my so called friends. Another day of nearly killing myself in gym. And another day of boring calculus.' I groaned.
"Don't worry love, I'll be with you whenever I can" Edward said seeing my distress.
"Thank you" I mumble falling back against my pillow. He crawled behind to spoon against me. He wrapped the covers tightly around us. I turned around so I could rest my head against his chest. He kissed the top of my forehead.
"Goodnight my beautiful Bella" he whispered into my hair.
"Goodnight" I mumbled back. The last thing I remembered was Edwards softly humming my lullaby.
~Edward~
In the middle of our kissing, I felt Bella's hands begin to trail down my stomach to the top of my pants. My erection twitched in anticipation. I knew we were going past my limits of control, but there was no way I was going to stop her. Then I thought I heard something moving.
All I could think, smell, and hear was Bella. My head was so clouded, I couldn't think strait. Then I heard it again. I was sure of it this time. It was Charlie coming up to bed.
'I better tell Bella goodnight' he thought.
Shit! I had to get up. I knew as soon as I pulled away Bella was going to think I was rejecting her. But I had no choice. I could already hear Charlie on the stairs. Without a choice I pulled away, grabbed my shirt and hid in the shadows of Bella's closet. I heard her whimper in protest.
"Shh love" whispered quietly. As soon as I did Charlie called her through the door.
"Come in" she answered breathlessly. She couldn't hide the guilty look plastered on her face. She was still flushed in the face, and her arousal filled the room in thick clouds. She was driving me mad. I knew we had to stop before we took it to far tonight. I unhappily pulled my shirt back on.
"You look a little flushed" I heard Charlie say.
Shit again! I knew Bella couldn't lie for anything. I hoped Charlie was to tired to notice. "It's probably just PMS" she tried. Thankfully he bought it. He chose to stay away from any topics that would or might lead anywhere to this girl territory.
"Umm... okay" Charlie said quickly. "Goodnight Bella."
"Goodnight Dad" she replied as he walked out the door.
'That was close' he thought to himself. I walked out to see frustrated looking Bella. "I'm sorry. I didn't hear him coming until he was a foot from the door" I said sitting at the foot of her bed.
"It's fine" she whispered biting her lip.
"It really is getting late Bella. We have school tomorrow" I reminded her. I know she upset we didn't get to spend the weekend together, but my urges for her body have been more frequent lately. Meaning I was having to hunt more.
I saw the look of disgust make it way across her face when I mentioned the word school. I knew how much she had been dreading it lately. Ever since I came back, people have been talking about us like crazy. Some thought I was an asshole for leaving her in such a wrecked state. Some of the jealous girls thought Bella deserved it. That she didn't deserve me. They all had it backwards. I didn't deserve such a angel as my Bella.
"Don't worry love, I'll be with you whenever I can" I tried to reasure her. I couldn't get in every class with her, but I was in five of them. I was thankful that Alice was in at least two that I wasn't. But the class Bella needed me most in, neither of us were in. Gym.
Everyone new how big a klutz Bella was. She tripped and stumbled on air. Her being in gym by herself was a recipe for disaster.
"Thank you" she mumbled falling back against her pillow. I could see my words hadn't brought her any comfort. I crawled up to her and spooned against her back. I made sure to wrap the covers around her tightly so she wouldn't get to cold. She turned around and rested her head against my chest. I kissed the top of her head.
"Goodnight my beautiful Bella" I whispered into her hair.
"Goodnight " she mumbled back half way asleep. I began to softy hum her lullaby and within minutes she was asleep in my arms.
I loved watching Bella sleep. Her facial expression was so relaxed, and peaceful. When ever I did stay during the night, she would grip my shirt tightly in her sleep to make sure I didn't leave her. This made me realize I couldn't take back the pain of those months when I had to leave her.
Some nights she would whimper my name. Calling for me in her sleep. Tears would escape her eyes, and heart would start to beat faster. She would wake up with a fright, and covered in a cold sweat. I would try to get her to talk to me, but she never would. By morning she would claim she had forgot what she was dreaming that night.
After about three houre the talking started. Tonight she did clutch tightly at my shirt, but didn't cry out for me not to leave. Instead I noticed she began to rub her legs together. Her hand holding my shirt let go and began to travel across her breast. I couldn't take my eyes away from her hand.
"Edward" she sighed softly.
I pulled my attention away from her hand to her face. She looked almost like she was going to cry. Her legs shifted again and her knee brushed my crotch. I bit back the moan that threatened to escape my lips. I was instantly hard.
Her hand was now leaving her breast and moving down south. I knew I should wake her, or at least leave, but I couldn't bring myself to do it. She began to push the covers off of herself. Her body temperature had gone up a bit. Her hand slipped into her short. I was attacked by a huge wave of her arousal.
I could hear the juices running on her fingers as she touched herself.
"Edward...please" she whimpered again. She began to buck her hips trying to gain more friction. Then it dawned on me. She was having a sex dream, in my arms! With her grinding against my erection, and the strong smell of her arousal in the air, I just about lost it.
"Please" she whimpered one last time before she pulled her hand out of her shorts, and all went quiet. The hand that was now covered in her arousal was now relaxed, and resting on my chest again. Just mere inches from my face. Her scent was so strong, I knew I had to get out of here.
Very carefully I untangled Bella from me. I went straight for the window. I didn't stop until I was in the middle of a thick patch of forest.
My erection which was now painfully pushing against my pants throbbed in anger. I never thought I would do this but I couldn't help it. I walked over to a tree and leaned against it, as I pushed both my pants and my boxers down to my ankles. I sprang free. My right hand grabbed myself and began to stroke in a painfully slow rhythm.
Bella's scent was still strong on my clothes. I focused on her smell, and my memories of her touching herself. My pace quickened, and my grip on the poor tree tightened, snapping under the force.
"Oh God. Bella!" I roared as I came in my hand in long, cool spurts.
Even with just relieving myself, my erection was still here. I grabbed myself again, and began thinking about my Bella fantasies. Taking her in our meadow. On my leather couch. On the hood of my car. In front of Mike Newton. Showing the world that she was mine, and mine only. Watching her face as she came, hearing her scream my name.
With that I came again. "Fuck" I cried.
I figured I should stop there or I was never going to get my hand off myself. I quickly pulled my pants back on. They were dirty from the ground, and I still had Bella, and my own arousal covering my clothes.
'I better go home and shower' I thought to myself as I raced home...
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