Set in the middle of Season 5 episode 15 (I think) If Will had survived the shooting. Not everything goes back to normal for everyone. Not really a Will/Alicia fanfic because I don't think they belong together...

'It's Will, he's been shot...' Alicia's whole being stopped in that second, internally begging for him to be ok

'Is he...' Alicia started

'I don't know anything yet, paramedics took him to county general, he looked in a bad way' Kalinda hung up, she couldn't tell her friend that he was going to be ok to make her feel better as she was as terrified to lose Will as anyone else.

At the hospital everything seemed to be in a state of chaos, Alicia wasn't sure if this was down to the shooting or a normal evening at a county general hospital. People seemed to be running all over the place and shouting orders. Alicia went up to to the front desk and caught the attention of one of the admin guys, big tall guy with a name badge that said 'Jerry'

'Can I help you ma'am?' Jerry asked

'I hope so, I'm looking for Will Gardner, I believe he was brought in this evening from the courthouse?'

'Are you family?' at this point Alicia didn't know what she was to him, things had been so messy between them lately, sometimes she thought even the term friend was pushing it a bit

'No, I'm a friend of his, can you tell me where he is?'

'He's currently in trauma 2, but it's family only for visitors, you are more than welcome to sit in the waiting area if you want, just mind the vending machine on the right doesn't give the right change' Alicia turned around to see Kalinda sat on a plastic chair next to Diane, both women stood up as Diane opened up her arms to Alicia.

'Have you called his sisters?' Alicia enquired

'We tried, no answer, David is driving up to her house as we speak, gives him something to do as we know how useless he would be otherwise' Diane tried to joke in the uncomfortable situation.

An hour passed, the waiting room seemed to get a bit calmer, things seemed to be getting back to normal around them, but still they waited. It was another half an hour before a doctor came out looking for Will's family.

'It's just us here at the moment, can you tell us anything?' Diane asked

'As you know Will was shot and it was pretty bad, he lost a lot of blood' Diane moved her hand over to Alicia's not knowing who needed it more while the doctor continued 'We managed to stop the bleeding for now and have sent him up to surgery, but I must warn you he was in a pretty bad way and you should probably prepare yourselves for the worst, the next few hours are crucial, if he gets through surgery and the rest of the night he's got a long road to recovery, I'm sorry I couldn't bring you any better news. Dr Dubenko will be operating tonight, you are welcome to wait in the surgical waiting room upstairs- 5th floor, room 564, you can take the elevator just over there' the doctor pointed over to a row of 3 elevators. The doctor looked exhausted, looks like he was in for a long night.

Hours passed, both Diane and Alicia tried to fill the time with work or coffee runs or even just pacing the room. Peter had tried to call a few times, but each time Alicia rejected the call. Eventually the door opened, a tall man still wearing his surgical cap walked in.

'Hello, my name is Dr Dubenko, are you here for Will Gardner?'

'Yes, how is he, did he make it through the surgery?' Diane was he first with the questioning, it had been so long since the last update.

'Will managed to get through surgery, but he's still quite poorly, we're going to monitor him closely over night and assess him again in the morning. You should all go home, there's nothing any of you can do tonight, it's all up to Will now'

'Doctor, do you mind if one of us sits with him over night, I don't think he should be alone' Kalinda pleaded with the doctor.

'Ok, one of you can stay, there's a chair in his room, but the rest of you should go home and rest'

The three women all looked at each other and silently chose Alicia to stay, Peter and the kids were staying at the old house so she was only going to be going back to an empty apartment.

'Do you want me to get you some things?' Kalinda offered on her way out.

'Yeah, here's my apartment keys, just some clean clothes and there's a small toiletries bag in the bathroom, also can you stop at Will's apartment, he'll need something to change into' Alicia knew Kalinda would know how to get into Will's apartment now that she no longer had his spare key 'I'll call you if there's any change'

Alicia went into the small side room where Will's lifeless body lay with all sorts or machines keeping him alive. The sight of Will was a shock to Alicia and she felt herself well up again. She saw the chair set out with a spare pillow and a blanket folded onto the seat, Alicia wished she was wearing something more comfortable than the dress for Peter's speech but nevertheless took to the seat not realising how exhausted she was.

Alicia must have finally dozed off after a couple of hours as when woke an overnight bag had appeared by her feet, Kalinda had obviously not wanted to wake her just left a note on the bag to say that she had been and to call if she needed anything else. Alicia opened the bag to find that her friend knew her more than she realised as she had put in a pair of sweatpants, t-shirt and her old college hoodie she always wore when she needed comfort- it was like a big hug of memories. Alicia looked over to Will, there seemed to be no change, he was still breathing and the machine was still going bleep at regular intervals so she decided to use the bathroom to change into her new clothes.