I have abandoned any hope of curing him now. I've tried every thing I can think of. But I know even if I did stumble onto something that it would be of little use. Only the champion could help us now.
He screams her name constantly, so the door mouse and the cat tell me. I cannot bear to see him anymore. It breaks my heart. He wants her so badly but could not tell her that when she was here. But even when she was here I thought…
She left us. I can't deny that. The champion has left us. I saw it in his eyes when she disappeared, the last strands of spirit left. He sank into his madness from which only she can snap out of it. And some of the other citizens are only beginning to believe it.
Mallykum implored with me again that I consult the oraculm. That perhaps if we see the champion returning then we know there is hope yet. The door mouse has been rather persistent. But she is not the only one. The tweedles and the chessur cat came as well. It is getting harder to turn them away.
It isn't that I do not wish to mend the worries of my subjects. The state of the royal hatter has been a great concern to me. He stood by my reign at its darkest hour and I am forever grateful. But consulting the oraculm... I am hesitant. I suppose there is a small part of me afraid that everything will fall to pieces. Despite that I saw how he looked at the champion and the way she responded to him. How he helped convince her that this place wasn't truly a dream at all. I saw the beginning of...
Yet she left. I know in my heart of hearts that she will return but my mind isn't so trusting.
The oraculm is not to be consulted lightly. Even in a manner such as this. Though the door mouse, chessur and the tweedles will not admit it aloud, I have more pressures that need my attention than just the addled mind of a hatter. I do hope Tarrant can forgive me for that in time.
I hope that she hasn't abandoned us for good. The oraculm taunts me with that thought. And even if she hasn't, what is to say that I will look too far ahead? What if I see that the hatter doesn't get that happy ending he so desperately deserves after all he's done for me? What if she doesn't abandon Underland but abandons him?
I've abandoned all hope of curing him, but I can't abandon the hope of happiness for him in the end.