Hey guys this is my First ever Fanfic! I have always been reading fanfics and I am inspired to start my own story. This is purely out of my enjoyment. Please tell me how I am doing so far! Don't be afraid to review to tell me some new ideas, corrections, or any dislikes and likes. I don't bite... hard. Anyways read on guys. Enjoy!

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Flashback: First Year

Have you ever believed at love at first sight? I never really had. I always that was a fairy tale. A fake. How can you possibly know just by setting your eyes on someone they are the one? I always thought that "love at first sight" was just some scheme to make you believe you were soul mates with someone.

It is all just one big lie.

Growing up, I always believed love first sight doesn't exit. I had seen in first had with my parents. My mom ran away from my dad. I don't remember her, but my dad always says she was beautiful. My dad still cries out for her every night. What is love? I have seen what love causes and I don't want to be apart of it. It causes pain.

Who wants to be apart of the joke that is love. It just leaves sorrow. Is all that pain and sorrow and comes with a heart break worth it? I never thought so. Nothing is worth that pain that I see in my father's eyes when he looks at me. I look so much like his lost love. He can barely stand the sight of me because he is overwhelmed with so much pain that my mother caused him.

I guess some could say that I am cold hearted that I am just going to avoid love. Some may think it isn't possible. Maybe they are right, but if I have anything in my power to stop the pain that could come with love I will do it.

I have always believed this, but it changed that first day when my eyes caught an angel waiting for the train at Platform 9 3/4 to go to Hogwarts. She was indeed an angel. She didn't wear any wings, but she seemed to glow. Red, flaming hair blowing in the wind creating a halo around her tender face. Her flaming hair seemed to melt my cold heart in that moment. She was wearing a smile on her face that seemed so blindingly beautiful. My heart exploded with warmth that flooded my whole body. This warmth that I didn't want. Butterflies floating around seemed impossible to stop. My feet moved on their own towards her. My feet seemed to be moving on their own and was impossible to control.

Finally her glowing green eyes met mine. And my world seemed to stop with it. They looked incredibly kind and warm, but she looked at me questioningly.

Questioningly.. Oh wait I was just staring at her. I waved awkwardly at her giving her a small smile. My feet still continued towards her unable to stop.

Suddenly, I found myself on the ground and I was out of my trance. I looked around wildly looking for the individual who ran into me knocking all my school supplies all over the ground.

"Watch where your going next time," he snarled viciously at me.

Furry bubbled inside me that I couldn't hold back. How dare he speak to me like that! I didn't even do anything!

"I have no idea what your talking about. Looks like your the one with two left feet," I snapped back my hands forming a fist by my side.

The boy's face turned as red as a tomato trying to hold back his anger.

"How dare you-"

"Stop, Sev," the angel appeared putting her hand on the boy's arm. "Boys like him aren't worth it," she whispered shaking her head almost in disappointment.

The boy's once hard featured softened and nodded at her, but still continued his glare toward me. The girl took her dainty hand on his back directing him towards the train.

I sighed. Why didn't I say something.

Stupid. Stupid. Stupid.

I started to gather all my materials that fell on the ground. Another boy with shaggy black hair kneeled down beside me trying to help me gather my school supplies.

"I saw you get into that argument with Severus Snape. Man that guy always creeps me out. I don't know why she is friends with a guy like him. Oh, my name is Sirius Black," he said holding out his hand.

I smiled at him taking his hand. "My name is James Potter. Yeah I didn't see him coming I don't know why he was being so sour with me. I didn't even do anything," I said as we were making our way to board the train.

"Severus has always had a nasty attitude with everyone except Lily. I swear he has absolutely no friends besides him. You know it is kind of sad that he isn't as charming as me to get all the ladies," he said winking at some random girl, who turned just as red as Lily's hair.

"I am sure you wish you got all the ladies," I said with a smirk entering an empty compartment.

"I don't have to wish because they all come running to me regardlessly. But apparently you are having some lady trouble. How can the love master be of assistance?"

"I have no idea what you are talking about- Wait. Did you just say love master," I said choking out a laugh.

"Don't avoid the question!"

"I am not I just can't get past that you are calling yourself 'love master,'" I said with a snort. "What could you possibly know about love?"

"I happen to know a lot about the female mind."

"Who are you calling female? I am as manly as it gets!"

"With those goo goo eyes you were giving Lily I am pretty sure you are acting like a girl at the moment."

I flushed a scarlet and tried to hide my embarrassment with a cough.

Sirius started to snicker.

"Shut up."

And in that moment I knew that Sirius and I would be the best of friends.

"Firs' years over 'ere," a large man bellowed.

When I say large I mean large. Like he wasn't the size of a normal person. He was like a-

"He's a half giant," Sirius whispered to me. "I have never seen them in person before," he said in awe.

Oh.. Half Giant. I knew that.

I nodded at him agreeing that I have never seen one either.

I scanned the crowd seeing if I recognized any familiar faces. Every face was an empty to me. I sighed to myself great I know nobody here... well besides Sirius. Finally my eyes caught a familiar flash of red. I shivered involunatarily. I tried to shake it off because it was obvious she didn't want to talk to me anyway.

"Alright my name is Hagrid. I'll take you firs' years to the dinnin' hall for the feast," he said interrupting my thoughts. "Follow me. Stay close I wouldn' want any firs' years to get lost."

"Merlin! I have never tasted anything so amazing in my life," Sirius said mouth still full. "Oh, James, can you pass me more of that pumpkin pie?"

"Isn't this your fifth pumpkin pie?" I said holding back a laugh while giving him another slice of pumpkin pie.

"What are you my mom?" Sirius said stuffing another fork-full of pumpkin pie.

"Someone has to make sure you don't get fat. Your ladies probably wouldn't want that now would they," I said with a snicker.

"They always want a piece of me. You are just jealous. Does he look pretty jealous?" he said asking a boy in front of us.

"Umm.. I guess he does," the boy said looking around wondering if Sirius was talking to him.

"See I knew it. I know a smart kid when I see one. My name is Sirius Black and this is James Potter."

"Remus Lupin," he said with a small smile.

"Greeting, Hogwarts students. Welcome back and welcome to those new students. For those who don't know me I am Professor Dumbledore. I am the headmaster of Hogwarts. Now we are going to have our sorting ceremony for our new first years," his voice echoing through out the room raising the sorting hat into the air.

He continued to call names in alphabetical order by last name. Finally his name reached Sirius'.

"Good luck, mate. You will be great up there," I said patting his back as he was getting up.

"Thanks for pointing out the obvious. I am always great," he said with a wink while I just rolled my eyes. So much for the support.

He made his way to the very front of the school sat down on the stool with a knowing smirk. Sirius knew where he belonged. Dumbledore lowered the sorting hat on his head.

"Sirius Black! Another Black!" the sorting hat boomed. "You have so much in store for you here. But where to put you.. You are brave and loyal. Every black family has been in Slytherin. You would do very well there. But that isn't where your heart lies.. Is it?"

Sirius didn't respond. His face was covered in confusion. Did Sirius know where he belonged after all?

"GRYFFINDOR!"

The Gryffindor house was cheering loudly for it's newest member. Dumbledore lifted the hat off his head and he sauntered over to the Gryffindor taking his seat. He looked over at me giving me a nodd, but something swirled inside his eyes that I couldn't read.

What was bothering Sirius? Did he not want to be in that house? The sorting house said that is where his heart lies. Why isn't he fighting what he truly wants?

"Lily Evans," Dumbledore said.

She rose from her spot. Confidence was surrounding her as she walked to the front and took her seat at the stool. Dumbledore lowered the hat on her red mane.

"Evans.. Well it's obvious where to put you. You have a lot to learn in this house. You are fiercely loyal. You would even give your life to save someone you loved. Your heart indeed lies in GRFFINDOR."

Gryffindor once again burst into cheers. She smiled in my direction once she reached the Gryffindor table, but she wasn't quite looking at me. I turned around and I saw Severus smile and give her an encouraging nodd. My hands automatically went into fists and I breathed deeply in trying to ignore my rising anger.

"Remus Lupin," Dumbledore boomed.

Remus took his seat in the front as well as Dumbledore lowered the hat on him.

"Lupin. How interesting? So many secrets you keep. You are a tricky one. The secrets you do keep you do it out of your care for others not for your own ambition. You have a kind heart that belongs in GRYFFINDOR."

Remus smiled making his way to the Gryffindor table clearly happy with his result.

"James Potter," Dumbledore said.

I stood up slowly. My heart was racing. Everyone seemed to already know where they belong. What does my heart want? I finally made it to the front of the room sitting down in my seat.

"Don't be afraid you know who you are," Dumbledore whispered to me only for me to hear as he lowered the hat on my head.

I felt the sorting hat rapidly go through my thoughts.

"What a mysterious individual, you are, James Potter. How well you could do in Slytherin or in Gryffindor..."

"Please not Slytherin," I whispered.

"Not Slytherin? Are you sure? You could be a very powerful wizard in Slytherin... although your strong loyalties and courage show that you should be in GRYFFINDOR!"

Gryffindor house roared with pride and I saw Sirius beaming at me.

Dumbledore took off my hat and whispered, "I told you, you know where you belong."

I walked over to my house and sat in between Remus and Sirius. I knew that this house was going to be my home for the next several years. Looking back and forth between Sirius and Remus, I couldn't help but think this is really where my heart belongs.

"Severus Snape."

Severus got up from his seat and walked with an annoying confidence around him. Lily was cute with her confidence, but Severus' confidence made me want to punch him in the face. Severus sat on the stool and Dumbledore once again placed the sorting hat on Severus' head.

"Snape. Oh, Snape. Full of mystery. Powerful in the dark arts... You belong in SLYTHERIN."

Slytherin table roared as he took his rightful seat with his house. My eyes automatically traveled to Lily. It was clear that she was upset her friend wasn't here to join her in Gryffindor. As much as I didn't like Snape, I hated to see her upset.

I whinced. Wow what is wrong with me?

"Your in love," something inside me sang.

Shut up.

No I not in 'love' there is no such thing as love as first sight. Why am I doing this to myself? You don't even know her!

"Then get to know her," that voice inside me whispered.

I shook my head. This is going to be a long year.