An-Ok here is something that I just couldn't get out of my head…let me know what you think…right now this is just a one shot but if I get some good feed back and I find inspiration to keep going I might. But I need to feel the love.

Veronica makes her way through her apartment falling down onto her bed as soon as she gets into her room.

'Let's see… bikers off the hook? Check. Wallace off the hook? Check. Car busted? Check. Aww so ends another awesome day in Neptune.'

'So what should I do now? Well when you look into the eyes of a former friend and only see hate and loathing, there's only one thing that will make a girl feel better.'

Her best friend.

Veronica grabs her keys and runs down to her car. She drives across town. Heading to the only place she can go without fear of being ridiculed or teased. She heads to the only person she can talk to anymore, the only person who will care enough to listen to her. The only person who loves her enough to care, even if she's not with her anymore.

"Hey Lilly. How have you been? Has it been another fabulous day up there?" Veronica asks her as she sits cross-legged down on the ground in front of her headstone. "Did you see what happened today? The way Logan went all terminator on my car, you would have been so pissed. "

She traces Lilly's name with her finger, and then lays down on the grass facing the night sky imagining that Lilly is there lying next to her. Just the two of them, partners in crime, sisters in everything except blood, and the one of only two people she could always be herself with. No matter how stupid, angry, or crazy Veronica might be acting; Lilly always made her feel like it was ok that she freaked out.

"Sorry it's been more than two days. I know I promised you I would come, but this week has been so hard. Between helping out Wallace, Weevil, and going at it with Logan, it's just been a rough week. Oh speaking of Wallace, I think you would be proud I think I made a new friend."

Veronica smiles at the thought of the new kid who has stood by her without hesitating.

"Let's see…is there anything new in the world of Neptune? Well Wallace, obviously, he's really sweet Lilly. You would love him, a new innocent for you corrupt and have fall in love with you like everyone does. Oh I have to meet with the guidance councilor tomorrow, something about my attitude and lack of emotion in school. I can't imagine why I would act like that. I mean my best friend was killed, what not even a year ago, and then all of my other friends turn on me; you'd think I would be jumping for joy with the thought of being stuck in school for seven hours with those people. Note the sarcasm. Anything else…oh I haven't had any new leads on either of our cases."

Veronica says growing quiet, breathing slowly trying to keep her emotions in check.

"Lilly... I know the last time I was here I told you how I was just going to give up. Give up looking for who did this to you and who made me this way. I know I promised you to leave it alone and try to be normal, but I can't Lilly. I just can't, you should know that more than anyone how once I put my heart and soul into something I'm not backing down. How I block out everything and only see what I want.

"You know I think that's why I still love him. Like you always said- once I put my whole heart into something that was it, there was no going back for me. And that's what I did with him Lils. I loved...no I love him with everything inside me, but it not enough Lilly. It's hard to take everything he says or does. I wish you were still here, you'd make me take charge, go over, and just tell him. Tell him how I love him; tell how I've always loved him. You would want me to tell him that that's why you broke up with him, but Lilly I can't do that. I wish I could, but I'm not that brave. I can't be that brave, the girl that would do that is you, that was never my style. That's probably why you two ended up together, the two of you loved making a show and having fun. I was never like that, not until after that night."

Veronica start to sob clutching to the grass like it's the only that will keep her here, keep her from losing it.

"Man I wish I could just forget about that night. I know I should just forget about it, but how can I? I mean seriously Lilly, you know what one of them did to me you know how they left there. How am so suppose to move on and just forget that I was raped, by someone that was supposed to be my friend. How am I suppose to face them knowing that one of them killed me. And that's what they did Lilly, they killed me. Every mean word painted on my locker, every awful rumor spread, and mean prank they killed me little by little. Then that night, that was it for me, after that I just stopped. I stopped laughing, I stopped loving, I stopped caring... I stopped living. Now I just go through the motions counting down 'til I can be with you again. And I know that pisses you off, but Lilly there is no one left. You were taken away from me, my mom left. My dad's still here, but I think he's just like me, just going through the motions for me. Duncan checked out when you did... and Logan. Logan hates me. And I know what you want to say 'that he could never hate me.' That I'm "his" Ronnie like he always said. But Lilly he does, he hates me.

"That's what makes this so much harder. He hates me, and I love him. I know I shouldn't, but it's true what they say- the heart wants what the heart wants. That's why I just stay away from him, I try and act like what he says doesn't bother me but we both know that's a lie. I love him and nothing will ever happen, nothing is going to change."

She starts to wipe away her tears when she sees what time it is.

"Crap. It's getting late Lils. I'll you see you in two days like always. I love you."

With that Veronica gathers her stuff and leaves behind one of the only people she has ever loved once again.

But unlike ever other night she comes and visits, there is some else there and hears her. He hears her pain, her fear, and her love. He hears the confessions from her broken soul.

He walks over to the girl he once loved. The girl that was so full of life, and drops down to his knees.

"What have I done Lilly?" Logan asks into the night.