I've got her photograph on a stand by my bed
Two on the mantle and thousands in my head
I can't believe how fast she's growing
It ain't supposed to be like this
Everytime I look at her, I see how much I missed.

Emma is looking at a pictures of her daughter, Kaitlynn from when she was 12 months old till when she is four years old. Neal sent Emma the pictures, since Kaitlynn lives with him. And the reason for that is because Neal kidnapped Kaitlynn when she was born. As Emma sits on her bed, she is thinking about her daughter, who would be 5 years old now. Emma starts to cry when she remembers how Kaitlynn was cruelly taken from her arms by Neal. Emma loves Kaitlynn even if she can't be with her, and she hates Neal for taking her daughter away. Emma can't figure out any logical reason that Neal would have for taking Kaitlynn from her and she has been thinking about that since the day Kaitlynn was taken by Neal.

I missed her first steps
Her first words
And I love you mommy is something I seldom heard.
Oh it hurts me so
To watch my girl grow
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Emma is thinking about everything she has missed with her daughter. She missed Kaitlynn's first steps, her first words, hearing her daughter call her mommy, and she missed Kaitlynn's first day of school. It hurts Emma to think about her daughter growing up without her and watching Kaitlynn grow up in the pictures Neal sends every March 5. Which is Kaitlynn's birthday.

I sent the money down
Do my best to do my part
But it can't compare to what I paid with my heart
There's still one answered question
That weighs heavy on my mind
Will she ever understand, the reasons why?

Emma sends money to Neal for Kaitlynn on Kaitlynn's birthday. But nobody can stop Emma from wondering when and if she ever sees Kaitlynn again, will Kaitlynn understand why she has missed watching her grow up. Emma wonders if Kaitlynn be mad at her for not being there to watch her grow up. These questions are always in Emma's head and they weigh heavy on her mind, almost like a weight that is slowing her down.

I missed her first steps
Her first words
And I love you mommy something I seldom heard
Oh it hurts me so, to watch my girl grow
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Today is Kaitlynn's 10th birthday. Emma is sitting in her apartment and she can't believe that it has been ten years since Kaitlynn was born. She starts crying because she is finally starting to realize that she is probably never going to see her baby girl again. Emma hasn't gotten a picture of Kaitlynn from Neal in five years. Emma can't understand why Neal stopped sending the pictures. She tries not to worry about it but she can't help wondering if Neal abandoned Kaitlynn. Emma is desperately hoping that Neal didn't abandoned Kaitlynn. She doesn't want Kaitlynn to feel unloved or unwanted. Emma hopes Kaitlynn is feeling the unconditional love that Emma longed for growing up.

Takes all I have to keep the tears inside.
And What I wouldn't give if I could turn back time.

Everyday especially on Kaitlynn's birthday, Emma tries her best to keep herself from crying and most importantly from even thinking of Kaitlynn. Emma wishes that she could turn back time and either prevent Neal from taking Kaitlynn or following him so they could raise Kaitlynn together. Like a family. Like the family that Emma never got to have growing up.

I missed her first steps
Her first words
And I love you mommy is something I seldom heard
Oh it hurts me so, to watch my baby grow
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