This will probably be the last entry that I write. I wish that it was for better reasons. I'm sorry for the tear drops on the page, but I can't control them. Tonight will be the last night that I live... I know that it sounds dramatic, but I just can't live anymore- there's no reason. My friends are never here for me anymore, Ginny is the only one I have, and ever since she's been seeing Harry there's been less and less of her. And with Ron, he's seeing Pavarati, and I don't feel like talking about that. People are saying that after second year, I stopped being such a book worm- that I actually was among the kids around me- but this year I'm spending more and more time in the library. I can't blame anyone for not wanting to be with me, what am I? Harry and Ron have their girlfriends, Ginny is always with Harry, and I never relly meshed with anyone else in my year. I think that I was getting on Harry's and Ron's nerves just being with them, because there were so many rumors that we were doing a threesome or whatever. That would of been better then how we are now. Harry and Ron are closer then ever- but I'm just thrown behind.
Today is December 24th, my 6th year... I am hoping that my friends miss me, not that they remember me. They even forgot my birthday this year, they didn't even talk to me on my birthday. I heard Harry and Ron talking in the common room late last night, it was pretty sad. Dean walked by and asked what they got me for Christmas... Needless to say they forgot.
We're having a Yule Ball again this year, like the last 2 years, it's going on right now. I wasn't surprised that I wasn't asked, but now I'm grateful for it. It gives me the time I need. You are probably think that I am psyhco, but this has gone on for too long. Ever sicne the beginning of 5th year, the guys have forgotten me, excluded me and used me. At home, my parents opened a new office, so it's not like I have them around me. And, now I have no friends. No friends, no family, no life... No hope.
This is where I leave you now, this journal full of all my past memories... I read the first entry, right after the train incident in first year, where I wrote when I first met the guys, and then with the troll incident *I know that we'll be friends forever now,* friends till the end... And it ends here.
Sincerely yours,
Hermione Elizabeth Granger.