.:My Man:.
Chapter One… Wednesday
Post Warbler's emergency meeting in the commons.
"Hey Kurt, can I talk to you for a moment?" Wes asked grabbing his arm and pulling him to the opposite end of the room.
"Yeah, sure Wes, what's up?" Kurt asked in response.
"Umm, is everything okay? I mean you just seem a little depressed and out of it." Wes asked concerned, he was such a mother hen.
"Yeah everything is peachy." Kurt said trying to hide his true emotions back and fake a smile, which Wes wasn't buying for a second.
"Is it about Blaine?" Wes asked bluntly.
"N-no. Why would you, why would you ask that? It has nothing to do with Blaine!" Kurt stuttered caught off guard and blushing. How can Wes tell? He thought to himself.
"Kurt?" Wes asked trying to pull the truth from the younger Warbler.
"What if I say yes, it's not like you can do anything about it…" Kurt stated crossing his arms, looking down, and blushing profusely.
"Look Kurt, can I be honest with you?" Wes asked, trying to show his general concern. Kurt's heart started beating at a rapid pace, nervous to hear the rest of Wes's 'honest' statement.
"Kurt, I see how you and Blaine interact with one another, you clearly like him and he likes you too, but he's oblivious." Wes finished, shocking Kurt a bit.
"I've tried to drop hints, but like you said he is oblivious, and now he wants to serenade some guy who works at the Gap." Kurt said frustrated, his voice laced with a request for advice.
"We'll think of something…" Wes said trying to comfort Kurt, ending the conversation patting Kurt on the back.
"Oh hey, Wes? Thank you!" Kurt said smiling, whispering the last part as Wes walked away with a wink and a smile.
Kurt walked up to join Blaine, Nick, and Jeff who were waiting for him to walk to the dorms together. Nick and Jeff noticed something was wrong with Kurt as they walked down the hallway and they exchanged looks knowing exactly what's up. They came to Blaine's room first and they said their goodbyes as they moved next door to see Kurt off.
"Dude, what is up with you today? Jeff asked.
"Can't you tell Jeff? Kurt is totally in love with Blaine…" Nick responded back. They both knew, but couldn't resist poking fun at the situation.
"Shut up!" Kurt growled through gritted teeth at the two giggling boys as he punched both of them in the arm.
"Ouch! We were just poking fun, sorry. But seriously man, are you okay with this whole 'Gap Attack' thing?" Jeff asked being serious now.
"I don't want to talk about it, okay guys." Kurt said nervously as he tried to close it on the two boys in his doorway, but Jeff and Nick pushed the door open and Kurt didn't fight back and just let them in closing the door behind him.
Kurt sat on his bed and sighed at the boy's, sometimes annoying, curiosity.
"Fine, I am in love with Blaine Anderson… There I said it, are you two satisfied?" Kurt said annoyed giving up the charade.
"I knew it!" Nick said.
"Everyone knows it, stupid." Jeff said pushing Nick.
"Is it that obvious?" Kurt said falling back on the bed blushing.
"Yeah, kind of…" Nick said.
"Well apparently not obvious enough since Blaine hasn't even noticed my attempts to hint to him my more-than-friend feelings for him." Kurt said annoyed at Blaine for not paying attention.
The other two boys giggled and sat down next to Kurt.
"Kurt, we've known Blaine for a long time and let me tell you, he is smitten on you, but he's just too nervous or scared or whatever. I think he just doesn't want to… Screw things up." Jeff continued.
"You think so?" Kurt asked sitting up at the given hope.
"I know so!" Nick said.
"So, we're going to go and do this gap attack crap and scope out the competition, and then we're going to plan something for you that will hopefully open Blaine's eyes." Jeff continued from Nick, patting Kurt's knee reassuringly.
"Thanks guys, you're the best." Kurt said smiling.
"What can we say? We're just awesome like that." Nick stated as he and Jeff got up from the bed and headed out the door waving goodbye.
Once gone, Kurt relaxed on his bed and sighed, discontent, wanting Blaine so badly it hurt. He leaned up against the wall trying to hear what Blaine was doing. He heard the stereo playing and Blaine singing along to some new pop song on the radio. He sighed again and put his palm against the cold surface of the wall, laying his forehead against it, and closed his eyes. He took in a deep breath and exhaled, starting to sing the first part of a song that has been stuck in his head ever since Blaine hugged him goodbye after they watched Funny Girl together last week.
"Oh my man I love him so…" Kurt exhaled. "He'll never know!.. All my life is just despair… But I don't care... When he takes me in his arms… The world, is bright, alright… What's the difference if I say… I'll go away, when I know I'll come back… On my knees someday… For whatever my man is, I am his…forever more." Kurt sang softly, imagining that he was whispering it in Blaine's ear. Tears rolled down from Kurt's closed eyes, and he just wiped them away. Why can't you see my love for you? Why can't you see what you're doing to me? Kurt thought as he laid back down on his bed, falling asleep to thoughts, fantasies, and dreams of Blaine Anderson…. Unbeknownst to Kurt, Blaine was in his room asking himself, Why can't you see my love for you? Why can't you see what you're doing to me? Ashe lied there on his bed while thoughts of Kurt poured into his mind