You told me once when I was a little girl that you would always be there for me. You would always be my brother. You promised me we would always be together and no one would ever come between us. And because of your promises I believed you. I never doubted your word because you were my brother and as my brother I knew you could never lie. I always looked up to you, idolised you and wanted to make you smile. I wanted to make you proud that you had a sister like me as I was proud to have a brother like you.
But then as quickly as you made those promises you broke them. And as you broke them you no longer became my brother. Instead you became a stranger to me, a man who was ambitious. A man who craved power, nothing else. One who would do anything to get what he wanted even if mean using his little sister as a pawn. You became blinded by your thirst for status and power that you didn't seem to care about those who loved you. You didn't seem to mind that you hurt those close to you just to get what you wanted.
I've realised that when you sold me into my unhappy marriage I didn't know you at all. I have never known you. You were not the brother I thought you was nor would you ever be. You destroyed the trust and love I had for you. You were the one who caused our relationship to change. The one who made me hate you.
You ask me why I am the way I am. Well, now you know. You, my dear brother made me the way I am. You are the reason why I hate you so much. You never gave me an apology after what you did to me, so why should yI give you an apology? You said it yourself that what you did was for the best. Well, so is this. It's best that our relationship never goes back to the way it was. Your decisions has made you become the monster you are today and has made me who I am today. You are the reason why I hate you as much as I do. And because of what you have done, I have become just as cold-hearted as you are. You told me that I was too weak to defend myself, that I was not strong enough to live in a world dominated by men, but you were wrong. Are wrong. Over these pasts 20 years I have had to look after myself. I have become a fighter. No one else would fight for me nor would they look after me. I have learnt that to get what you want you have to do what you have to do. Even if it means killing people to get it, no matter what. You, my dear brother taught me that. You and your ambitions. You taught me that emotions only cloud your judgement. They blind you from seeing what is actually in front of you. That is why I feel nothing. I feel no love. You cannot make me display any sign of affection or kindness because you have drained it all out of me, you and my husband. You have made me become this emotionless person, one who shows no empathy for others suffering. You were the one who taught me that to gain position in the world, to gain respect is to trust no one. Except yourself. You taught me that no one else mattered except yourself.
I've seen your attempts to get me to show some regret over what I have done to you, but I cannot. You try to plead with me, try to beg for your life because I am your sister. You want me to show some empathy because you are my brother. My own flesh and blood. You want me to forgive you, want me to say I was wrong for doubting you. But, it is not me who should say I was wrong. It is down to you to admit that what you did was wrong. That when you sold me only benefitted one person; you. You want me to call you my brother again. It makes me laugh when I hear you say that. You lost the right to be called my brother when you condemned me to a life of misery, abuse and Hell. You cannot change what you have become. I cannot change what I have become and we both have to live with that. What we once had, we can no longer get back. All I have now is my future, one where I no longer have a brother. All I have left is a ghost of you.